|June 7, 1994|
Amayah |Not proofread|

I opened the door to the studio and saw Devante messing with the equipment alone. As soon as he heard that I shut the door he lifts his head up and looks at me. " Where is everybody?" I asked. "They went to get something to eat."

I nodded slowly bothering to say anything else and walked towards the couch that was placed in the back of the room. As I slid off my backpack from my shoulders and threw it on the couch, I heard him stand up from the couch and walk towards me slowly. When I sat down he was towering over me and looking down at me.

"You still mad at me?" He asked. I sighed and stayed quiet before finally answering without looking at him." No, but I only have one question and you have to answer me truthfully." I told him as he slowly sat down next to me. "Yes.." He asked, slowly waiting for me to ask him.

I looked at him." Did something happend between you and Shai?" I asked. He rolled his eyes and groaned." Here we go again with this bullshit." He said and stood up. I stood up also.

"That's the only thing I want to know De and after that I will leave it alone just this one question." I said before resting my hands on my hips."Answer me truthfully, just yes or no."

He didn't look at me, he was looking at the other way." No.." He said, I stared at him not staring at me and scoffed." I don't believe you.." I said before turning around and grabbed my backpack getting ready to leave.

"See! Whatever I say yo ass ain't going to believe me anyway!" He rolled his eyes and slowly started to get angry. "Devante I don't believe you because you can't even look me in the eye and tell me that you didn't do nothing with this girl." I slightly started to raise my voice.

He closed his eyes and slowly walked towards me and then opened his eyes again." Look, we may have talked a couple times and flirted with eachother but that's about it." He shrugged." But have you guys fucked or some shit? Because in my eyes whatever you two had going on was more than flirting." He rolled my eyes when I said this. " Just answer me. Yes or no?" I asked.

His eyes danced on everything except me." No.." He said. After awhile he looked down at me." No." He repeated this time looking at me in the eyes. I wanted to believe him but for some reason I couldn't.

He chuckled darkly." You don't believe me don't you." He said, and I stayed quiet." You know, why the fuck do I keep explaining my self to you? Damn if I knew that this relationship was going to give me this much drama and headaches I should've just stayed single." He said before he sat down on his chair and started messing with the equipment again.

I stared at the back of his head for a minute. What did he just say? Well... if he wants to that bad.. " Well if this is so hard for you.. Imma let you be single then." I said when I said this he slowly looked up at me but before he could grab me or stop me from leaving I was already out.

While I was walking down the hall, looking down. I ran into somebody or ran into them. "Watch where you going!" Her annoying voice screeched in my ear. When she saw my face her disgusted expression turned into a frown and so did, Statics and the rest of the sistas faces. They looked at me with concern written all over their faces except Shai's. She was obviously fake concerned.

"Awww. What's with the tears, mayah?" Shai fake pouted. I wiped my tears quickly not realising that I was crying. "Please shai not now." I said trying to walk away from the crew but she blocked my way.

"Devante did you wrong, huh?" She cocked her head to the side. I just sighed and looked away. " I knew it. You were just a side piece to him. " she chuckled and looked at me up and down. " He obviously wanted some pussy, thats it and thats all." She said. I chuckled. " Why don't you stop worrying about me and worry about your hygiene, bitch." I said and she  seemed taken aback. " I smell fish." I said before bumping my shoulder against hers and walking away.
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I stepped into my empty apartment and threw my bag on the couch. I walked in the kitchen and went straight to the fridge. I opened the orange juice not bothering to grab a glass and drank.

What is this feeling? Yes, I feel sad but... I feel more dissapointed than sad.

I scoffed before putting the juice back in the fridge." What a waste." I said before I buried my face inside my hands. After a while of just standing in the kitchen my doorbell rang. I slowly looked up and furrowed my eyebrows.

It better not be him..

I walked to my front door and opened the door and to my surprise.

"Static?" I said as I looked around if there was someone else with him." What are you doing here?"

"I just came here to check on ya. If everything is alright with you." He said. I rolled my eyes." Did he send you?"

His eyes peeked inside my house before he looked at me." Nahhh... I just wanted to talk to you."

I lazily walked away from the door and flopped on the couch."About?" I asked as walked in ny house and closed the door behind him. " About what happend at the studio." He sat down next to me." D told me what happend and I'm just telling you now that dont believe everything that Shai says. She is a liar and has been chasing after devante for a long time."

I folded my arms and stared at him as he spoke." You gotta understand that they are a lot of groupies that are after jodeci and will do anything and say anything to get sum from them."

" Well what do you expect me to do? To be honest, I don't really care about shai but how can I ignore what she says?" I asked him and he stayed quiet. " And everytime I ask devante something about herx he gets very offensive and still tells me that they had nothing."

"They didn't have anything." Static said. I scoffed." So you mean to tell me there is not even a little bit of truth in what she says?" I asked him and he stared at me.

"It ain't my place to tell." He said before he cleared his throat. I scoffed." Just tell me the truth static. You are so quick to come here, defend him and blame everything on the groupies even though you probably know he did something?"

He stood up quickly." Look, I already told you that it ain't my place to tell." I stood up also." If it ain't your place to tell then why are you here?" I asked, slightly getting frustrated him.

"BECAUSE I-" he raised his voice that made me slightly jump. He sighed and walked closer to me." I'm just here to tell you that... Devante isn't the easiest person to break up with.. He doesn't take it lightly. He isn't a person that you can get rid of easily."

I furrowed my eyebrows, confused." Stati-"

"Just whatever you do.. Whatever you say.. Think before you make your decision." He said before walking towards my door. I didn't say anything I just watched him walk away.

He stopped infront of my door and looked back at me." Whenever we see eachother. Let's pretend that I never came to your house and don't tell anybody about this.. You hear me?" He said and I nodded my head slowly before he walked out of the door.

I-.... Dont know what that was about...

I sighed before I stuck my hand inside my backpack that was in the couch and searched for my phone. When I found my phone I dialed Aaliyahs phone number. After three rings she finally answered.

"Hello?" She answered." Hey girl, can I sleep at you house for sometime? I dont feel like being at my house."

"Yeah of course.. is everything oka- Lisa, Get down from there!.. Sorry about that girl, everything okay with you?"

"We gon talk when I get there.." I said as I run my hand through my hair, frustratingly. "Okay girl see you soon." As soon as she hung up I walked upstairs and packed everything I needed for couple of days.

I hope I can have a relaxing time with my girls with nobody trying to page me or talk to me... just us...
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| Long time no read, you guys. Sorry i've been so M.I.A. I have been going trough some stuff and it has been messing me up a little bit. I even was suffering from migraine and i couldn't write at all. I almost just slept trough my birthday  because I couldnt move. My birthday was weeks ago btw. March 16th.

And i'm still filming my Video diary but I need help you guys. Im not so good with this Vlogging type of stuff so I need some tips on how I can get this shit really going.|

But anyway what did you guys think of the chapter?❤ ps. Tommorow new chapter.