Niall's POV

Taking a seat next to Jenny at the kitchen table, I peered over her shoulder to where she was doing out the guest list for our wedding. "Not many people coming." I commented as I watched her write out the names, admiring her neat her cursive handwriting actually was.

"I thought we agreed it was only close family and friends being invited. Didn't we say we were going to have it somewhere other than England?" She questioned to which I nodded, resting my head on her shoulder.

"Mammy wants us to have it in Ireland." I told her, looking down at her. "But it's not her wedding day, it's yours, so I want you to choose." I kissed her cheek gently.

"Yours too," She smiled.

"Yeah, but I won't be the centre of attention, that's you. The beautiful bride." I leaned up and kissed her properly. She didn't kiss back, I just felt her smile against my lips which was just as satisfying as a kiss.

Just as I was about to speak, we were interrupted by the front door opening and closing. Footsteps echoed as we both peered at each other curiously. A few seconds later, Andrew's beaming face appeared at the door of the kitchen.

"Hey," He smiled as Jenny and I greeted him as well. "It's Mason's christening next week and I was wondering if you two maybe wanted to come." He just cut straight to the chase. I felt a pang in my heart at the mention of Mason's name. I immediately wanted to know where he was and if he was okay.

"Where is Mason?" Jenny questioned, as though she knew what I had been thinking.

"In the car." He responded.

"Andrew, you can't leave a baby in the car!" Jenny exclaimed.

"He's sleeping, I didn't want to wake him up." Andrew rolled his eyes.

"Not the point!"

"He's in his carseat Jenny, he's hardly gonna fucking drive the car away." Andrew sighed which made me place my face in my hands and shake my head.

"Would you leave your dog in a car?" I asked Andrew, raising an eyebrow.

"I haven't got a dog." He stood, rather dumbfounded.

"Just forget it." I shook my head in disbelief, glancing to Jenny who looked just as in disbelief as I was. We both just gave each other a look before turning back to him.

"Andrew, just go get the baby before he melts to his death."

"We're in London. It's like twelve degrees outside, he's fine." Andrew rolled his eyes but continued to go and get Mason from the car, carrying him inside and cooing to him as he did. I felt somewhat jealous as I watched them. That's the little boy I loved, the little boy I cared for for longer than he has. The little boy I thought was my son.

I pushed back my own feelings as Andrew came over and offered him to me. I quickly declined. I did not want to hold him, it was only going to bring back those feelings I'm trying to leave behind me.

"Well, are you two going to come to his christening?"

"If Laura is there, no." Jenny said, folding her arms.

"Well, she is the kids mother I mean she's-"

"Then no." She responded. "I love the kid, he's a little cutie. I'm just sorry he was left with a mother who is demotic, satanic, a bitchy asshole, an absolute cunt, demented-"

"Okay, we get it Jenny." I cut her off and raised my eyebrows at her. Although I enjoyed hearing these insults towards Laura, I knew it was not the 'adult' thing to condone. I smirked and gave her a thumbs up under the table to show her I wasn't actually angry at her. She giggled quietly as well. God, why do we act like such big kids.

"I was kind of hoping you would be his godfather." Andrew looked to me, resulting in the smile Jenny and put on my face, vanishing. I gulped and looked up at him with wide eyes, feeling my face pale.

"No." I quickly responded. "I couldn't." I shook my head.

"Oh pwease, Niall, pwease be my godfather." Andrew said in a rather banish voice, holding Mason up as though it was him speaking to me.

"I love him, but sorry, I can't do that." I sighed before quickly leaving the room, unable to handle sitting in this situation for any longer.

Jenny's POV

I sighed as I watched him leave, knowing how hard this must have been for him right now. I know in the future he would probably appreciate it if he was Mason's Godfather; that he would still have some sort of connection with him. But I know, for the moment, being his Godfather would just hurt. I mean, being someone's Godfather is nothing compared to being their dad. What a downgrade that would be.

"Andrew, it's nothing personal against you he has. He's just a little sensitive about the whole subject. Who wouldn't be? He thought the kid was his for a month." I said as Mason whined quietly in Andrew's arms.

I watched him as his face screwed up and he began to cry loudly. Andrew attempted to hush him, doing his best really for someone who was thrown into fatherhood a few days ago to a month old baby.

"Maybe he needs changing?" i suggested to which Andrew shook his head.

"I changed him before I left, he's not wet or anything." He informed me. A few more minutes of crying continued until Niall stormed into the room.

"That's his hungry cry." He mumbled, going to the cupboard and retrieving a bottle. He inspected it for a moment before sighing and placing that one aside, grabbing the next one. The first one looked cracked from my view for some reason.

Once the bottle was made, Niall took the wailing babe from Andrew's arms. Immediately once Mason was in Niall's arms he stopped crying and calmed down, looking up at Niall before gripping Niall's finger in his hand. This resulted in Niall's eyes watering, as did mine.

Mason had consequentially recognised Niall's smell and it comforted him. Although Niall isn't his biological father, Niall's been the father figure in his whole life so far really. It would only be normal that Mason would find comfort in Niall's arms. Finding this out only exacerbated the situation. I knew it left Andrew feeling helpless and left Niall feeling desolate because although the pair love one another, they're never going to be anything more than godfather and godchild now.

He handed Mason back then along with a bottle and watched Andrew as he sat down and began to feed him. "Let him rest his head on your chest, he prefers that." Niall quietly muttered as he watched the two of them. I smiled sadly as I watched him before going to get Arabella up from her nap.

As I brought her into the kitchen her eyes immediately lit up when they came to contact with Mason. "May!' She squealed and ran to Andrew's side as soon as I let her down. She leaned down and kissed Mason's forehead sloppily before smiling to Niall and I.

"My boder." She giggled and gave him a hug awkwardly. Quite a misjudged hug as she basically just wrapped her arms around his head, causing Mason to whine behind his bottle. I bit my lip as Niall shook his head and quickly left the room without another word.

I watched her rather helplessly, not quite knowing how to explain to her Mason wasn't her brother, after explaining to her he was. A two year old was not going to be able to comprehend that.

"Maybe you should leave." I quietly spoke. Andrew nodded in agreement, knowing he was only exacerbating the predicament for both Arabella and Niall.

"I'm sorry." He muttered as he stood up.

"It's not your fault. You don't need to apologise to anybody." I smiled softly at him before he left the room. I watched as Arabella toddled after them, watching curiously as Mason left again and then turning to me.

"May gone?" She shrugged her shoulders looking around rather befuddled. "Wan' play with 'im." Suddenly her eyes watered and she began to cry. I bit my lip, feeling rather guilt ridden now. I wasn't sure if the tears were actually because she was feeling desolate Mason had left or because she was still groggy from her nap. I was hoping it was the second option.

"You can't. Mason had to go home to his mommy." I told her. She dropped to the floor dramatically and just cried. I then realised it was neither actual emotions from Mason leaving, or that she was groggy from her nap. She was just being a two year old and throwing a tantrum at any chance she got.

"Why?" She cried.

"Because little babies need their mommy's and Laura is Mason's mommy so he has to stay with her." I told her. I knew it was too confusing to explain to her that Niall wasn't actually his dad and Mason wasn't actually her brother. I decided letting her think he was her brother for now, wasn't cruel. Considering she's two, she doesn't fully understand what a brother is anyway and by the time she does understand what a brother is, she will have forgotten about this.

"Okay, how about you come help me choose things for mammy and daddy's wedding? Would you like to help mommy?" I asked her, smiling softly as her cries turned to soft sniffles. She nodded silently and stood up.

I got her to choose the cake online, knowing that was probably the only thing interested in. I though she may as well choose it considering she's probably going to be the one to eat most of it. Kids are fun, eh?

Once she had chosen the largest cake the company made, she ran off, soon uninterested in anything else. I chuckled quietly and went back to sorting out the guest list. About ten minutes later, she returned with a pout on her face.

"Daddy's sad." She said, standing in front of me with her hands behind her back.

"Why's that?" I asked, to which she shrugged and pouted her bottom lip.

"Go give dad cuddle." She told me. "Cuddle make e'ryone happy." She said which made me coo quietly. Although she was young and naive, she still knew something was wrong. I was impressed that at such a young age she was able to decipher people's feelings. Moments like these make me feel proud to be a mother, when I know I'm doing things right.

"Yeah, cuddles do, maybe you should go cuddle daddy." I told her to which she nodded eagerly and ran off in search of Niall to fundamentally smother him with cuddles. Her cuddles are much more heartwarming than mine. I knew for the moment, this would cheer Niall up.

After I completed the guest list -which for the most part was short-, I then went upstairs and smiled at what I was met with. Niall was laying with Arabella in his arms, cuddled up against his chest, both of them conked out.

I got into bed as well and when I did, the movement of the bed dipping awoke Niall from his slumber. "Hey Ni." I smiled, leaning forward and kissing him for a few brief seconds before coming back.

"Hiya." He sleepily replied, his eyes drooping open and closed. I moved closer to him so our legs were tangled together and our bodies were touching, being sure not to squash Arabella in doing so.

"I have a question." I said after a few moments of silence passed. He hummed and looked down at me as though informing me to continue. "Are you going to take the offer up on being Mason's godfather?" I quietly asked, not quite knowing how he was going to react. I knew this Mason mess was a touchy subject for him.

"No." He firmly stated and closed his eyes again.

"But Niall, won't you even think about it?" I asked.

"I did. My answer is no. I don't need any more reminders of him in my life. I thought I was his father. I'm not. I wanted to be his father, not his Godfather." He said without making eye contact.

"I know at the moment you're hurting, but wouldn't you like some kind of connection with him? Think about how you may feel about this in a year. Won't you want to be a part of his life?" I asked him to which he quickly shook his head.

"I just want to forget about him and everything that happened. Being his Godfather isn't going to help that." He responded.

"I know how you're feeling right now. But face the facts, you're going to be seeing Mason a lot, he's my best friend's son so it's kind of unavoidable." I reminded him. "Wouldn't it feel better feeling as though you are a part of his life compared to being nothing? You might regret it come six months."

"No." He shook his head and then closed his eyes. "I don't want to be a part of his life." He sighed. "It hurts too much. I won't regret my decision."

"You're only ever going to regret the chances you never take." I sigh and roll over, closing my eyes as well.

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A/N Meh, kind of a more boring chapter but I hope you enjoyed anyway !! No drama like I'm accustomed to writing for this book these days, but maybe you all appreciate that I don't know haha !! Anyway, I really really hope you enjoyed and I hope you're having or have had an amazing day!

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