My mind was swarming with an abundance of nugatory thoughts, some of which were telling me Jenny was going to leave me. My heart was beating faster than usual and my palms were sweaty as I pulled into the driveway.

"So, are you going to tell her?" Andrew questioned. I sighed deeply, running a hand through my hair.

"I have to, don't I?" I ran my hand down my face, clutching my bottom lip between my thumb and index finger and beginning to fiddle with it.

"Yeah. You kind of do, this isn't something you can keep from her." Andrew sighed. "And if you don't tell her, I will." He said as he got out of the car. "Come on, I'll be your protection." He chuckled, gesturing for me to follow him inside.

I nodded, although I sat in the car for a further five minutes before I worked up the courage to go inside. Once in, Andrew was chatting to Jenny. I took a moment to gauge her demeanour; she didn't look upset or worked up in any way, meaning Andrew didn't tell her anything.

"What did Laura want?" Jenny asked as I walked into the living room.

"Where's Bell?" I asked.

"In bed, why?"

"I need to say goodnight." I quietly said before leaving the room and hurrying upstairs without a word. I kneeled down next to her crib and took her petite hand in mine through the bars. I leaned down, kissing the back of it.

"I have to tell your mammy something now and I'm honestly going to shit my pants when I do, I think." I sighed, stroking the back of her hand with the pad of my thumb. I smiled softly when I realised the pad of my thumb was almost the same size as the back of her hand.

"But if she kicks me out, remember how much I love you." I stood up, leaning down and kissing her forehead gently. "And if she murders me, well, it was nice knowing ye." I chuckled before putting her snuggie up next to her again once I saw she had kicked it to the bottom of her crib.

I smiled softly as I just watched her, her dummy bobbing in her mouth as she slept, her little nostrils flaring as she took each breath. She was just so beautiful. As I peered at her I could not help but think of the little baby she once was. The baby that depended on us for everything. She still depends on us for most things but small things like: she can feed herself, she can put on her shoes (although we have to tie them and mostly, switch them because she puts them on the wrong feet).

The thought of getting to do it all from the start again with another little baby made me smile softly. Although, I didn't want to do this with a child Laura bears. I want to do this with a child Jenny and I have together.

God, why am I such a fuck up? We just get back together and I come and ruin our little family with the possibility of having a child with another women. I truly do not believe this child is mine, although, I guess the paternity test will determine that.

If it isn't mine...that means she cheated one me... right? Oh well, I'm past the point of caring about that.

I sighed quietly and stroked Arabella's hair gently, pushing it up off her forehead before I took a stance.

"Night Bella, hopefully I'll see you in the morning." I whispered as I left her room, as quietly as possible so I wouldn't wake her.

I pottered around upstairs for a few moments before I decided I needed to tell Jenny and wasting time like this was going to do the situation no good. I bit on my lip as I walked down the stairs, feeling rather apprehensive as I did not know how she was going to take the news.

"Well?" Jenny raised her eyebrows at me, folding her arms as she stood in the doorway of the living room. "This donkey over here won't tell me what happened with you and Laura, so are you going to tell me?"

"Yes, just come on," I placed my hands on her shoulders, pushing her gently, as so not to hurt her but so she moved with me. "Sit down." I sighed and she suddenly looked rather worried.

"Oh my God Niall, what's wrong?" She asked as we both took a seat next to one another on the couch. I just silently took her hands in mine, squeezing them gently and looking up at her as I bit down on my bottom lip.

I felt my eyes begin to fill with tears at the prospect of hurting Jenny. Imagine the impact this would have on her life. If this really is my kid and I have to take care of it, just imagine what that would feel like for her. Having to watch the result of my past relationship play with Arabella. I don't want to do this to her. She would never do anything like this to me. Only Niall is this stupid.

"Niall, what is it? You're scaring me." Jenny quietly said as Arabella began to cry upstairs.

"Will I go get her-"

"No, Andrew, you go get her. Niall, you're telling me what's wrong and you're not leaving this couch until you do." Jenny's grip on my hands was as tight as mine were on hers; and I was clutching on because I didn't want her to let go. "What did Laura do to you?" She asked.

"It's not about what she did to me, it's what- oh fuck, I don't even know how to say this." I let my head drop in shame. I couldn't even look her in the eye. I didn't want to see the sadness in them when I told her.

"Niall, just tell me." She sighed, retracting a hand from mine and running it through her hair. Andrew carried Arabella into the room then who was just awake because she was thirsty. He placed her on the love seat in the corner with a sippy cup of milk and we let her be, knowing she would fall asleep there in a few minutes.

"Oh babe, wait until you hear this." Andrew chuckled from behind the couch.

"Andrew I swear to God, you can fucking leave." I snapped, glaring up at him. He put his hands up in defence and took a step back.

"Jenny, Laura is pregnant." I almost whispered, clutching her hand I was still holding tightly. She didn't let go.

"Are you the father?" She calmly questioned.

"I- no. Well. I don't know. I demanded a paternity test. I don't think the kid is mine but she's certain it is. I do not recall ever having unprotected sex with her, I wouldn't be that stupid and-"

"You're forgetting to breathe, Honey." Andrew said from behind us as I had literally not taking a breath since I began blabbering on.

"Sorry, I just. I don't think I am. The paternity test will determine that for sure but yeah." I sighed, rubbing the back of my neck. I peered up to gauge Jenny's reaction. Her face was undemonstrative. I did not know if that was a good or a bad thing.

"Hey Arabella, guess what. Laura is giving you a new baby brother or sister thanks to your daddy." She smiled sweetly to Bella who shook her head. Well shit...I guess she is mad and I do not blame her. I would not blame her if she kicked me out right now.

"No thank you." Bella said behind her sippy cup.

"Niall," She sighed turning to me. "Look, I'm not mad." She said after a few moments.

"You aren't?" Both Andrew and I said in unison.

"No, we you obviously got her pregnant- if you did- before you and I got back together."

"Yes, she is three months apparently." I bit on my lip.

"Well, it happened before we got back together and I can't be mad at you for that." She quietly said which had me rather taken aback.

"Really?"

"Yes."

"Look, even if this kid is mine, I don't want anything to do with it. It's with Laura like and I wouldn't want to hurt-"

"No Niall, if this child is yours you are going to treat it the same as you treat Arabella." She told me. I peered at her rather bewildered. "That is just an innocent child. That child did not ask to be born and just because the baby is in Laura, does not make it any less your child than Arabella."

"But-"

"No Niall, I grew up my whole life with my father not giving a shit about me and I will not let you do that to a child. Don't get me wrong, I'm a little upset but Niall, at the end of the day, if that kid is yours, it doesn't deserve to be abandoned. It doesn't deserve to have me detesting it just because of it's mother." She said.

"Jenny, how come you aren't angry?" I questioned.

"Because, as I said before, this happened before we got back together." She replied.

"Jenny, I know this must hurt you so much. I can't have that child running around our house when it will just remind you of Laura and-"

"No Niall, don't worry about me. Trust me, I know how I feel hurt right now hurts a lot less than how that child will feel in ten or fifteen years when he or she finds out his or her father wanted nothing to do with it." She said.

"Jenny, honestly, kick me out right now, yell at me or something because I fucking deserve it!" I exclaimed.

"You don't deserve to be kicked out for this. I took you back after it happened. These things happen, I know it will be hard for me but it will be harder for that child to grow up feeling as though it's father hates it. So please, for me, promise me if it's your child, you won't abandon it?" She asked.

"I promise." I quietly whispered.

We sat in silence for a few moments before I pulled Jenny in for an embrace. "Thank you so much. I love you so so much." I whispered, a tear rolling down my cheek.

"I love you too," Her voice cracked a little as the end as though she was crying. It almost broke my heart.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes." She quietly responded.

"Then why are you crying?" I pulled back, peering down at her, a solicitous expression creasing my features.

"Because, I just thought now that we were going to get married." She cried. "And then I thought maybe we could have another baby."

"Why can't we now?" I questioned, pulling her to my chest and rubbing her back gently.

"Because, you cant have two babies on the way at the same time." She hiccuped as she spoke, wiping her eyes furiously. I immediately fell terrible. This is meant to be our time, it's meant to be Jenny and I and we are meant to be happy. But now I'm ruining it all by bringing Laura back into the picture.

"Jenny, babe. We can get married and even if the baby is on the way, we can still have our own." I assured her but she shook her head.

"It wouldn't be right." She sniffled. "It's okay. I can wait." She bit her lip, blinking profusely in a futile effort to prevent more tears from rolling down her cheeks; instead, it just created even more.

"No Jenny, even if you want to start trying for a baby tomorrow, I will do that for you. Anything to make you happy." I whispered, wiping under her eye.

"Look Jenny, I'm going to promise you something now." I said as she peered up at me with watery eyes, her green eyes more prominent now as she had been crying.

"Yeah?"

"No matter what happens with this baby, you and I are getting married, soon, hopefully. Once we are married and settled down then we can try for a baby, how does that sound?"

"That sounds great." She smiled, although her smile was not too convincing when tears were forming in her eyes continuously.

"Just promise me something." She whispered.

"Say it, anything."

"That you won't ever put Laura before me, like run off if she needs something or leave her for me. You can put the child first, just not Laura." Her voice wavered as she spoke.

"Jenny, oh my God. I would never put Laura before you and I would never ever leave you again for her." I confirmed. "You and Arabella come first now and she will never come before either of you." I stroked her hair gently.

"You sure you're not mad?" I whispered after a few moments when neither of us had spoke. I gently pressed my lips to her forehead but just continued to cry into my chest. "I still love you s-so much." She cried. "I could never be mad at someone for wanting to be a part of their child's life."

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