-Chapter 43
A/N sorry for the confusion! I updated yesterday but had to delete it again because wattpad was acting it, it wasn't showing properly!! Praying it does m work now!!
Niall's POV
I woke up when I felt someone's lips on mine. I rubbed my eyes tiredly and yawned, pushing whoever it was away. "Morning." Laura grinned, rubbing up and down my chest. "Fiancé?" She giggled and pecked my lips again. Fiancé?
Wait, hold your fucking horses, did she just say fiancé or am I just hearing things. My eyes widened and I suddenly felt much more awake and alert than I had a few seconds prior. I peered down at her and surely enough, on her hand was a ring. Not just any ring, Jenny's ring.
Oh for fuck sakes Niall, what did you do last night?
"Laura, what are you doing wearing Jenny's ring?" I questioned, furrowing my eyebrows as she twirled it around her finger.
"It's not Jenny's ring silly, it's mine. You proposed to me last night, don't you remember?" She beamed and leaned forward and kissed me gently. "I'm so excited to finally be your wife!" She squealed and climbed on top of me. I pushed her off immediately, I was certainly not going to have sex with her.
I just looked down at her as she rolled off me and smiled at me. She was just so happy, I didn't have the heart to break her heart there and then. But she can't continue to wear Jenny's ring. What the fuck am I meant to do?
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As we ate breakfast together, I had to endure listening to Laura drone on about the wedding. I only proposed last night, well apparently I did and she's already talking about what colour ribbon she wants around the chairs at the venue. Way to get ahead of yourself.
When she left to go take a shower, I left as well. I didn't tell her I was leaving, I just needed to get out, before I lost my cool with her. I knew I wasn't going to be able to hold it in much longer.
I went to Louis' house, I knew I could confide in him and I needed to talk to someone, I needed advice on what to do. I had no idea what I was going to do.
"Niall, mate, what are you doing here?" Louis asked, once he had answered the door. He stood back and allowed me enter the house. I did and immediately began pacing over and back the hall. He knew in that moment there was something wrong, when I didn't even say anything. "Niall, what's wrong?" He questioned, looking rather concerned.
I looked up at him and shook my head. "Louis I'm fucked." I say and bite on my lip. "I fucked up, real bad." I told him. He didn't seem surprised, I have come to him before when I have 'fucked things up', as I phrased it.
"Niall," he sighed. "what did you do now?" He asked, biting on his lip and then gesturing for me to come and follow him to the kitchen. I did and immediately began pacing over and back the kitchen floor.
"Want a beer?" He asked. "You seem a little tense." He said as he got himself a bottle of water from the fridge. I sighed deeply and shook my head.
"No Louis, I don't want a beer." I said, running a hand through my hair and ruffling it. He nodded and took a seat at the kitchen island, swinging around in his chair to face me. He looked up at me as though telling me to carry on and tell him what's up.
I bit on my lip before I spoke, "I accidentally proposed to Laura." I told him and his eyes widened. He spat out his water and wiped his mouth. Jeez, no need to be that dramatic..
"You what?" He asked, his eyes bulging out of his head. "Niall, please enlighten me, how do you accidentally propose to someone?" He questioned, raising his eyebrows.
"Well, like, I was drunk." I responded.
"That tells me nothing." He rolled his eyes. "What like, want another drink oh and want to marry me? Oh wait, I didn't meant to say that, never mind it was an accident?" He smirked to which I balled my fists at my sides and gave him a warning glance. I was not in the mood for his sarcasm right now.
"Louis, I don't know. I don't remember, I don't know what went through my head." I sighed, rubbing the back of my neck. "This is a serious matter." I looked over at him desperately. "Look, I need your support, not your jokes."
"Okay, sorry." He sighed in defeat. "So what-"
"Oh and one more little teeny tiny thing before you start giving me advice." My voice squeaked as I uttered the 'teeny tiny'.
"Hmm?" He hummed, as though telling me to continue and tell him.
"Uh, well." I scratched the top of my head. "You see, the thing is she was wearing Jenny's ring this morning when I woke up." I looked over at him. He looked more shocked rather than anything.
"Niall, oh my God, fucks sake man, you can't let her keep Jenny's ring! Jenny will see that you dumb cunt!"
"I know." I sighed, running a hand over my face, probably looking as though I was about to cry. I wanted to cry. But I knew I wouldn't.
"Okay, Niall, sit down." He pulled out the seat next to him. I plopped down next to him and sighed as I peered over at him. I wish he just knew how to make this better, turn back the clocks for me so I wouldn't have done this. Sadly, that is not possible.
"So let's really think this through." He said. "Do you want to spend the rest of your life with her?" He asked. "Like god forgive me, but if you died in the morning, would you want to be buried with her?" He asked and my eyes widened.
"Jesus Christ Louis, you can't be saying things like that." I shook my head.
"Just answer my question." He retorted.
"Louis, I don't know, frankly, I haven't thought that far ahead in my life yet. And who even said I wanted to be buried?" I added, to which he rolled his eyes.
"Okay, think of it this way, can you imagine yourself growing old with her?" He asked, raising his eyebrows at me.
I thought about it. Hard. I tried to imagine myself with her, growing old with her, but I just.. couldn't. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get that image into my head. I could imagine myself growing old with Jenny, I have many times, but not with Laura.
"No." I truthfully replied. As much as I didn't want to admit that, I knew I had to, lying about it was going to get me nowhere.
"Okay, Niall, ask yourself this, is she really the girl you want to spend the rest of your life with?" He asked me.
I sighed deeply. I didn't want to think about this question, although, I was all too aware of the answer, subconsciously. I didn't quite want to admit it but I knew, I had to.
She is not the girl I want to spend the rest of my life with.
"No." I sighed, running a hand through my hair, looking up at him and nibbling on my lip.
He returned the gaze and sighed. "Then what are you doing wasting your time with her?" He questioned.
I wish I could have said he was wrong, that I wasn't wasting my time, but I knew all too well, each word he spoke was only the truth.
Jenny's POV
I somehow managed to haul myself out of bed to go to work. It had been the first day in a week. I just haven't had the motivation to get out of bed. I prefer to just lie in bed and think about all the things in my life that aren't going right.
I just wish I could move on already, I want to leave it all in the past already and start my own life, but I can't. Especially not when Niall keeps sending me mixed signals. If he doesn't want to be with me, I just wish he would stop fooling me around.
"Jenny!" Andrew squealed when he saw I was actually at work today. He stood up and ran to me, wrapping his arms around me and hugging me tightly. "I missed you." He says as he pulls back and smiles at me. He is the only person I actually want to see these days, he just knows me so well.
"How has work been?" I asked and his smile suddenly vanished, mine did as well. He sighed and led me around his desk, showing me something on the computer screen.
"Well, the website is down, the team are trying to get it back up and running but we have already lost so many sales already, I don't know how we are going to make up for it." He sighed, running a hand through his hair. "It will take us weeks." Great, I should have just stayed in bed this morning.
"Great." I sighed, running a hand through my hair.
"Jenny, I think it's time we start opening shops." He says and looks up at me. "Otherwise this business is never going to last another year."
"Andrew, how on earth are we going to afford that? We can barely afford to keep the website going as it is. Opening shops would cost so much, we would need premises, we would need to decorate those premises, we would need staff and staff aren't going to work for free. Not to mention countless expenses such as electricity, heating, insurance and so on." I sighed.
"We could get a loan." He suggested.
"We haven't put ourselves into debt yet, we aren't going to start now." I shook my head.
"What else are we met to do?" He exclaimed. "You should have met those representatives in America, maybe then we wouldn't be in such a situation like this." He shook his head.
"Well, I'm sorry, what more can I do?"
"You could be at work more.." He mumbled.
"Oh, so you're blaming me for this, are you?" I raised my eyebrows and placed my hand on my hip.
"Jen, no, I'm not just blaming you, I'm blaming everyone involved in this, the employees, the managers, the board of directors, the secretary." He pointed to himself. "It's not just your fault but if we do something now to change this we can solve it." He says. "Maybe you should just.. come to work more often." He mumbled quietly.
"Andrew, you just don't understand!" I exclaimed.
"Jenny, I'm your best friend, of course I understand, I understand you better than most people. I know you find it hard to get out of the bed in the morning, but you know I'm here for you and if you need me to go to your house and physically drag you out of bed to get you here, I will." He confirmed. "If you're crying in the middle of the night and need someone to come and wipe your eyes, you know I'm here for you." He told me.
I smiled brightly and then hugged him tightly. "I can't thank you enough." I whispered and hugged him tightly.
"Okay, how about you go get us some pastries and coffee and we will have a little chat, you can vent, rant or just talk about anything. Then once you feel better, we can discuss what we're going to do." He smiled.
I nodded and wiped my eyes where a tear was forming. "Okay, go to my office, I'll go to the cafeteria, I'll be back in five minutes." I told him and began to make my way there. On the way, something caught my attention. In one of the offices there was a crowd of employees in.
I frowned deeply and opened the door to go in and inspect, I wanted to know what was going on. "What's going on guys?" I asked, walking into the room. When I did, I noticed who was in the centre of the circle. Laura. Of course she had to be the centre of attention.
Then my eye caught something else, something more alarming. She was wearing a ring, but not just any ring, she was showing off my ring! That's my engagement ring she was flaunting off to everyone.
"Niall proposed to me last night!" She squealed. I felt my blood boil as I watched everyone gape at her ring. Instead of doing what most women would do in that situation, I kept myself calm. I could have called her out for having my ring on, I had every right to, but I didn't.
I knew in the end if I made a scene, it was only going to make me look bad, so what good would it do? Laura would probably go off and cry and everyone would hate the jealous ex-wife. I took a deep breath and prepared myself to feign the fakest smile I ever had to produce.
"Congratulations." I smiled, taking a closer look at the ring, just to be sure it was mine. There was no doubts, it was most certainly my ring. "I wish you two the best." I almost whispered because as I said it I felt as though my throat was closing in on me and I was about to cry. She smiled and thanked me while I quickly left the room them.
As much as that hurt me say, it pains me even more to have to admit to myself that I need to let Niall go. He's moving on and I need to as well.
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