—I'm disgusted with myself.—

     When I was younger, I ate a lot of food. The good thing though is that I never packed on any weight. I must have had a fast metabolism.
     My family would make jokes at every meal. Saying things like "how are you eating so much?" Or my personal favourite, "she has a hollow leg."
       Usually when they said stuff like this when I was younger I would just smile and continue eating. I swear I ate triple what every other kid in my family ate.
I don't know how I'm not fat. I should be, but I'm happy I'm not 'technically fat'. Doesn't mean I don't feel fat. I think I have a fear of it. I think I have a fear of letting myself become obese. Just thinking about me with a big stomach makes me want to barf.
I don't know how I smiled when my family said something about the amount of food I was eating when I was younger, but I feel disgusted. I feel very disgusted with myself. How could I let myself eat that much.
     It's getting late I should try to get some sleep even if it is spring break...