And now we watch the downfall of niall since the only sane person just yeeted.

Whomst've thinks Niall should get whipped with the chancla bc of how niave he is? You'll be proud of him this chapter though!

but not rlly if you're rooting for ziall lolooloolool.

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"Fuck." I hear Zayn mutter under his breath, in disbelif that Harry had left, "Dont just stand there, someone go after him!"

A couple staff members got up from their seats and started to chase after Harry's retreating figure.

Harry left me.

You left him!

You heard him, we're next. Your chest is the one to be cut open now.

You should have gone with Harry.

You're going to die, you never listen.

"Excuse me, i do not feel well." I choke out, pardoning myself to return upstairs.

I run on shaky legs, and clutch the rail with weak arms. My whole body feels like i had been put in a blender and poured out.

The world spun around me, spitting criticism and evil glares my way.

Zayn could never treat you the way Harry did.

You're a fool for cheating on him.

I finally open the door to my room, slamming it shut behind me and letting out a sob.

I've really done it this time.

What was this place doing to me?

I curl in on myself on my bed, wrapping Harry's orange blanket over me. Hot, fearful tears fill my eyes and spill down my cheeks. I try my best to keep my breathing pattern normal, but it's no use.

I miss him, so much.

I can still smell his scent on the blanket.

We kissed in this bed.

"Harry.." I whimper, not realizing how much i needed him or loved him until he was gone, "Come back."

My words do not reach Harry, as he is probably long gone from here. I try my best to hope that he has someone better, but i cant help but want his 'someone' to be me.

I cry for Harry's departure, for all the guilt i had built up, for my unknown and horrid future, for Zayn and my accusations against him.

I cannot stop myself from letting out painful wails, or choppy breaths. It felt so good to cry out against all the pain i felt.

My heart was heavy, sinking down into my queasy stomach. My throat was dry and my eyes burned from all the tears.

How was i so stupid?

Harry's gone, he's never coming back.

Theres a knock on the door that startles me, making me quickly wipe away my tears.

"Come in." I say, my voice sounding hoarse.

Please be Harry, i need him to come back.

There is no response, but the door opens.

It reveals the person i want to see the least right now.

Zayn Malik.

His image is distorted from the water blurring my vision, but i can still make out a sorrowful facial.

"What do you want?" I spit, pulling the blanket up to cover my face.

It's also his fault that harry left.

"I was on my way to my office but i heard how distraught you were," He hesitates, awkwardly leaning up against the doorframe, "I want to tell you that I'm proud." 

"What for?" I sniffle, not wanting to trust him anymore. He made Harry leave, I made Harry leave. 

"For keeping your loyalty to Oakdale. I'm glad you didn't follow Harry out, I would have missed you." He tells, a small smile on his face. 

"Now I wish I followed Harry out," I whine, letting my voice grow hoarse, "I miss him." 

I let out a choked sob once more, throwing the blanket over my head. 

I wish I was at home now with Harry. He was right, he always is. I need to write a letter of apology, I have to. 

"All will be well." He reassures me. I can hear him walk into the room, but I don't dare take off the blanket. 

He is a liar. 

Louis told you he was a liar, look what Zayn has done to you. 

You're a complete fool.

Avenge Harry, prove to him you can take this place down.

"You're lying to me, Mr. Malik." I seethe, finding the nerve in me to fight him. 

I want to trust him, but Harry leaving has really put things into perspective. 

Zayn is still a bad man. 

"I am not lying when I say I will deeply miss Harry." He says, mourning with me. 

"You will not miss him for his companionship as I do, your heart does not ache nearly as much as mine." I hiss, knowing he may as well be lying. 

When would he ever tell the truth?

"I understand the pain you are experiencing, Niall. I, too, have been abandoned by someone who I held very dear to me," He sympathized, trying his best to calm me but also not to over speak, "My mother, who's passed 19 years, was incorrectly sentenced to jail time. She passed in her cell, leaving my father to raise me and my sister alone. He abandoned us for another life with another set of children. My sister and I were adopted into other families." 

"The pain you must be feeling, and self blame is normal but unhealthy. I mean to ease the pain by telling you that his reaction is not your fault, you cannot change how he thinks. It has done me a great deal of trouble by continuing to dwell on my parents choices, I cannot blame myself." He continues, his voice ever so smooth. 

It is my fault though, I was the one abandoning him and convinced him to come here in the first place!

He sighs, "I do admit to missing him from lost opportunity. He was a wealthy man, Oakdale could really have benefitted off donations from his business or a joint partnership with him." 

A bad man, using my precious Harry for his money. 

"I was hoping to afford better quality food for the staff and patients, or more professionally trained caretakers," He trails off, listing the possibilities of what could have been, "But Liam seems to value equipment over people." 

Liar!

"Stop blaming your failure on Liam. People suffer here everyday and face major human rights violations, yet here you are talking about what you would do for them and not what you are doing for them. I cannot believe I was so blind. Harry was right, this place is insane." I rant, letting out a huff of breath at the end.

"I don't think you can even begin to feel what I or the others feel after what you put us through. Its like you're a psychopath, you enjoy letting us suffer," I start up again, pouring out my anger into him through my words, "I have some news for you, pal, once I finally work off my debt I'm taking you straight to court." 

He made no attempt at speaking for a while, making me assume he had left. 

I take the blanket off my face, wiping it with my tears as I do so. 

Zayn hadn't left. He stood there, a shell of a man, so fragile he could be shattered with one topple. He was a tall and confident man, but now he seemed so small. As small as one of the mice that inhabit this building. 

His mouth was ajar, his eyes empty, and his skin pale. 

I must have said something that sent off a bomb in his heart, but as of now, I couldn't care less. 

"You are a bad man, you've only fed me lies! You should to go to jail, you rapist," I spit, glaring at him to show my upmost disgust with him, "You will perish in your cell just as your mother had, the only difference is you'll deserve it."

His eyes flickered to me, searching my face for faltering or remorse, but I had none. His jaw was clenched, as if he was holding back an outburst.

I almost began to see the glint of a tear in his eye before he looked away, "You will surely regret your words, Mr. Horan."

And with that, he walked out. 

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did zen deserve it tho? 

Now you can see why I earlier had said the ending was heckin bad for ships all over. 

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1) Are you proud of Niall?? He finally stood up for whats right!

2) Was niall a little harsh? Will zayn ever be able to like niall after what he said? I gotta admit even I was like 'damn!!' when I wrote the last roast, he hit zen deep. AAfter all, zen did open up about his past and neil stomped all over it. 

3) Do you think theres more to why zayn is letting this shit go on? I mean he didn't rlly defend himself, is he really a psychopath or is something forcing him to do this?

4) Next chapter the shit WILL HIT THAT FAN!! *spongebob captian voice* Are you ready, kids?! and no liam isn't gonna like rape him in the basement or whatever XD

salsa is sooooo good! I love it :) 

ill try to work on an update tomorrow to post bc I love to write this book :) 

Sometimes I feel bad tho bc I've always been like "ya never know" and know yall question everything and have all these theories And don't trust the good people ! oh well tho you'll see soon enough :)