"two years back I have a massive breakdown, that time I was the worst version of myself, I invested my emotions more than required and then I realised that relation from her side was just for benefit, she wanted to be famous and I was at a good point doing much better, then I met her as we worked together, phir hum dheere dheere kaafi close aaye, honestly shehnaaz us time mera yeh tha ki main kuch bhi kar sakta tha uske liye, maine aisa soch ke rakha tha ki pyaar nahi karna yaar per initial days me she used to around me all the time, main out of city bhi jaata tha na shoot pe toh bhi waha saath hoti thi mere and then it happened I fell for her, ek cheez start se thi meri I will always be the way I am in life, but main khud me had se jyada flaws nikalne lag gaya tha, uske smile ka reason banne ke chakkar me main khud ke aasuon ka reason ban gaya, khud se had se jyada  disappointment thi, main pagalo ki tarah pyaar karta tha use ekdam paglo waala, and the same way she used to be with me phir humare beech cheeze bigadte gayi, she left me shehnaaz and I was all alone"

He narrates her and she wraps her hands around his arm holding him tight, as she can feel that pain in his voice, she didn't know why but she was feeling herself getting hurt hearing this .......

"I was totally mad, main continuous call karta tha use ki ek baar mere se baat karle, mere shoot ke baad wait karta tha ki saath jaaenge hum phir vo dur jaate gayi, main itna jyada disturb ho chuka tha ki main sab kuch bhul gaya tha I quitted the project I was doing at that time, I requested her, I tried all what I could have done to save ur relationship but nothing worked at that time I didn't realised that I was wasting my emotions, my feelings everything but hume tab nahi pata lagta na ki hum kya kar rahe hote hai" he adds this further, she leans her head on his shoulder....

"family ke saamne hasta tha main kyuki kab tak rota yaar main jaanta hoon unhe bura lagta tha mujhe waise dekh kar, but akele me aisa lagta tha kahi chala jaau jaha kissi ko na jaanta hoon, that time I needed someone badly, but jab logo ko zaroorat hoti hai vo aapke saath hote hai per aapko agar kissi ki zaroorat hoti hai toh koi nahi hota hai, I hated myself for that madness all the time, saare jo dost bhi the kissi se koi baat nahi karna tha mujhe I stopped everything, that time was the worst for my professional as well as my personal life, kaam me man nahi lagta tha movie sign ki thi that too, I wish I could erase those days from my past but I can't ... he stops in between taking a deep breath she rubs her hand on his arm letting him speak further, she wants him to feel relaxed after this .... "phir ... she asks and he continues.

" I started avoiding going out yaar, I only know I passed that time I was in my house all packed for an year because I was so much disturbed ki kissi se bhi milne ka man nahi hota tha, phir time laga aaya bahar us time se, nahi dekh sakta tha main apni mom ko mere liye waise rote hue she's the most important for me, main kissi aur ke liye unhe sad nahi kar sakta tha, phir main thora thora change hone laga, my family is my healer, time beeta hai main poori tarah se change hua, phir se khush rehne laga aur phir realise hua mujhme kabhi koi dikkat nahi thi usne kabhi pyaar kiya hi nahi tha mujhe kyu ki jo aapse pyaar karta hai vo aapke faults ko accept karta hai per yeh toh kabhi hua hi nahi she tried her best to change me aur maine kiya" he smiles at himself sarcastically....

"tune sachme pyaar kiya tha, use baad me realise hua hoga ki usne kitni badi galti ki thi, jo dusre ko dukhi karte hai na sidharth vo kabhi bhi khush nahi rehte hai tu bhul jaa " she says with a smile on her face making him smile......

Thinking for a while he says,"main use kab ka bhul gaya bas khud ke us state ko nahii bhul paata main shehnaaz"

"toh phir abhi ke sidharth ko dekh aur yeh dekh agar vo sab nahi hota toh kya aaj tu jaha main aur strong banke hota kya??? humara past accha ho ya bura uske hi kaaran hum aake change hote hai aur agar vo nahi hota toh tu apne best version se kaise milta????" he hums to what she says acquiescing to her..

"tujhe pata hai tu bahut strong hai phir bhi bebu mere saath jo hua tha tab main .......

she becomes quiet getting confused, whether to tell him or not, he holds her hands which were around his arms and intertwins with his .....

" bol ... he encourages her and she takes a sharp breathe speaking further......

"matlab main akele thi, humare alag hone ke baad bhi maine khud ko busy kar liya tha mere kaam me aur vo ek cheez thi jisse mujhe pyaar ho gaya tha lekin phir meri Himanshi Khurana ke saath bahut badi controversy hui punjab me, uske ba directors shehnaaz gill ka naam bhi nahi sunte the uske bahut dost the waha sabko usne mujhe kaam dene se mana kar diya, maine had se jyada hate dekha khud ke liye us time, there used to be only negative comments under my posts, itna ganda bolte the log mujhe ki mera ho gaya aur kuch samjh nahi aaya ghar pe phone kiya maine baaz ko bola ki sun tu mere se milne aa jaa mere se abhi nahi ho raha, vo shaam ko aane waala tha, per main itni Pagal ho gayi thi ki socha bas shehnaaz nahi rehna tujhe ab aur....

she again stops not able to vocalise that scenario again but he squeezes her hand giving her strength to speak further, her eyes were getting moist but she continues....

They needed this, to know all good and bad about their partner's past, that will not affect their lives now but that will somewhere make things better inside him, they know none of them were going to judge eo at all....

"maine chair liya rakh daala use bed pe, ek dupatta uthaya maine au.... his hold her hand became more tight....

" aur kya suicide kar.. karne chali thi main sab kuch kar liya latak gayi main" her voice trembles but she wants to speak further so she continues

"main jab hosh me aayi tab room me thi apne baaz tha mera cousin tha, main zinda thi dukh hua bahut ki mar... he pulls her in his lap holding her knees making her sit comfortably in his lap and holds her face in between his palms wiping her tears away that made it's way down her eyes,

His thumb grazing her lower lip as his other fingers digs deep into her waist... She feels blood rush down her body breaking her down and she sobs.. His heart pained.. It was killing him apart..She wanted him, he's her strength...

And she didn't wait for him this time she lost it as her hands pulled his face down, fisting his hair and her inexperienced lips claimed his rougher ones.. The teeth sinking deep into his lower ones.. Biting, chewing, making him go insane.. he let her do it, she's aggressive this time but he's calm more than calm.. His hands hook to her thighs inching her higher in his string arms, .. She snakes her legs around his torso.. Their emotions came out in this kiss, their pain came out, their horrific moments came but this kiss was soothing all of it...

she keeps her head on his chest while hugs her rubbing her back softly......

"tujhe pata hai maine socha ki phir kabhi kaam nahi kar paaungi ab, punjab nahi jaana tha mujhe mummy aayi kuch din mere saath rahi baaz rehta tha, phir ek din ek dam se call aaya mujhe ki shehnaaz Canada me concert karna hai aap karoge, maine ek baari nahi socha ha bol diya kyuki karna tha mujhe yeh " she narrates him the further story ......

"phir tu gayi Canada???" he asks getting curious to more about her ..... "ha gayi next week hi gayi main aur tujhe pata hai waha jaane ke baad bahut hi cheeze change hui, maine 6 Canada ke cities me concert kiya , aur tujhe pata hail waha jo saare hote the na mujhe bolte ki shehnaaz u are the best, mere saath kitne logo ne photo khichwaya, main pata hai bahut bahut jyada khush ho gayi thi sidharth". he smiles when she said this .......

"phir uske baad mujhe dubara gaane milne lage, mujhe sab kuch sahi lagne laga logo ko yaad nahi raha ki pehle kya hua tha, aur tujhe pata hai ek dam se sach saamne aaya sidharth ki shehnaaz sahi thi galat toh usne kiya tha, saari duniyaa ke saamne yeh baat aayi, isse accha mere liye kuch nahi ho sakta hai mujhe jitna galat socha logo ne sabke liye yeh shocking tha us time mujhe laga ki yeh zaroori tha, sidharth warna main us bojh ke saath nahi reh sakti thi ki log mujhe us baat ke liye bura samjhe jo maine kabhi kiya hi nahi hai " she says ahead to which he hums ....

she comes out of the hug and a bright smile came across her lips....

He feels proud on her and says,
"shehnaaz main nahi meri jaan strong tu hai, ur life is inspiring itna kuch hone ke baad bhi tu hasi, teri yeh best baat hai ki chhoti chhoti baato me kitna khush hoti hai, tujhe kabhi kissi ko kuch dikhana nahi hota, tu sach me best hai she holds his hands and says,

"tu khud soch jo hota hai acche ke liye hota hai and Sidharth you are the best thing happened to me, agar mere past waisa nahi hota toh main tere se kabhi mil nahi paati aur itni Khush kabhi nahi hoti life me" she renders her love through these words.

he says while kissing her knuckles.... "

and I feel the same tera meri life me aana sabse best tha, I can see my life all set with you, tu mujhe waise jaanti hai jaise main chahta tha ki koi mujhe samjhe, kabhi kabhi yeh lagta hai tu mere liye hi hai shehnaaz, I am thankful to our parents for this marriage, main jaanta hoon tere jaise mere saath selflessly koi nahi hoga tu hamesha hogi, kabhi main khud bhi peeche hatu tu hogi mere saath mere paas". he mumbles sweetly and she gives him a blissful smile.....

"hum dono hai hamesha bebu saath me, thik hai kabhi kuch bhi ho lad lenge, gussa karenge per Humara pyaar har din badhega" she caresses his face......

"My strong baby" he pulls her again hugging her and this time she hugs him
tightly.....
"Main strong hoon kyuki tu hai na mere saath" she whispers making him nod in no ....

"tujhe kissi ki zaroorat nahi hai tu khud strong hai meri jaan samjhi na" she nods when he says this

"accha laga yeh saari baate karke mujhe tere se halka sa lag raha hai abhi "he smiles saying this to which she hums,

" dekh le khane aaye the khana thanda ho gaya main garm karti hoon phir
kha lenge" she utters to which he nods in no ..... "ab itna bhi bura nahi hoon yaar garm toh main bhi kar sakta hoon and I will do it tu baith" he jumps down the slab saying this .....

"sahi hai aise hi raha kar tu" she says making him chuckle.....

"abhi aise hi kaam kiya kar biwi khush rahegi teri " she says with a smirk.....

"mujhe aur bhi tareeke pata hai meri biwi ko khush rakhne ke " she hits his arm.... "kaam kar hhhhh" he starts heating the food, when roll down the slab and takes out plates for them, done with heating he serves their food in the
plate.....

"tu bahar lekar jaa main aata hoon" he says to which sana nods in no .......

"tu jaa main aa rahi hoon clean karke" he nods taking plate she twists her lips as he not for once asked to clean it himself .... he chuckles at her and moves out of the roon kitchen she too smiles in herself....

he calls her as she's inside the kitchen for more than ten minutes....

"itna time kyu lagaya???" he asks her once she sits beside him .....

"cleaning kar rahi abhi kha le??" he nods .... "sidhaaarthh" she emphasized his name

"hmmm " he hums in return ......

" aaj mujhe apne haatho se khila de tu bebu" she says with a wide smile on her face .....

"Just for today" she hums opening her mouth making him chuckle, he gives morsel of food into her mouth, and she did the same with him......

"pata hai tujhe saath khane se pyaar badhta hai " she utters....

"ha isiliye us raat ko ek plate me khana lekar aayi thi na humare beech ka pyaar
badhane" she glares him..... mera yaha se jaane ka man nahi ho raha sidharth yaha ki memories best hai mere liye" she sadly pouts while saying this.....

"koi na aayenge na phir kabhi weekend pe baby waise bhi ghar me bhi akele hi
hote hai hum aisi koi zaroorat hoti hai privacy ki aur shanti ki baat hai toh jab
man hoga free honge aa jaaenge" he says to which she hums ....

" sacchi me na sidharth tu yaad rakhna laana hai tujhe mujhe yaha pe" she
again says this .....

"pakka baby " he kisses her cheeks....

I guess sometimes these conversations are more than beautiful than always putting romance, misunderstanding and fights in the story, it looks more real......