I'm Kim. You know me, right? Yeah. I... Duncan and I clashed with Hat films. I say clashed. We went to war. To oblivion. The nukes... We nuked them, they nuked us... My memory is hazed, what I think can be dreams, are reality. And whilst Duncan swiftly enabled the force-field he ran up, to our room, and shoved all his Death-Protection poppets into my poppet shelf. I tried to put all 5 back but... Our force-field betrayed us.

So there I sat, with 10 Death-Protection poppets in my arms, while I watched 16 Nuclear Missiles cascade onto our beatiful Base. And... I... Couldn't do anything. I felt so hopeless. So there I was, watching his crooked smile fade in the explosions. I cried. Hard. He was dead and now, still, I want him to come back and make some stupid remark like: 'I just wanted to mine some copper!' I hate it. Being alone.

At that I thought the war would end, but those jerks at Hat films kept nuking, so did we- I. So did I. I sat near the silos, ever reloading. Until they stopped. The nukes disappeared. They were dead. Trott, Smiffy and Ross all deserved what happened to them. Duncan's mind probably exceeds the three of them put together. They all died, thank Notch.

I think I'm going insane, you won't know. The nukes kept going.Kept flying. And I was controlling them. Everybody died. Everybody. And because of my Death-Protection poppets, I am forever bound. When the blasts went off at Panda Labs, the indestructible poppets were strewn all over the world. And so far, I've found one. If I tried to kill myself, I wouldn't. I'd never have the heart.

So I wander aimlessly, walking and suffering through the craters and radioactive lands. Well. At least my flux is gone. Yeah, the radiation probably destroyed the flux on me. But I feel hopeless. So, so hopeless. Because the only thing that I am certain of is forever wandering, forever torture.

I've been here six weeks and I think I'm slowly getting over the war and deaths. There have been radiation creatures but I have escaped a few times, well, at least they give you food to fatten you up. Sort of like Hansel and Gretel. But they die of starvation after a while. I just wish Duncan was here. He'd make the experience much more enjoyable...

***

'Kim! Kim! Here take these, my poppets. After all, your life is so much more important than mine. I might be a fool but I would risk the world for you. 16 nuclear missiles are heading for the base, and remember. Remember that I'm always there.'

An he disappeared. Fiery red, orange and yellow burst from the collision of  the nukes on our base. Duncan watched them penetrate the blue sphere and come right for him. I remember crying 'No!' As Duncan just smiled at me and got consumed by the explosion. I sobbed constantly and yelled out my revenge. For whenever someone dies, more people die. For revenge is bittersweet and in the midst of grief, nobody is who they are.

***

But the funny thing is, I could kill myself. There is something inside of me though. I think it's called Hope. What is Hope in reality? Because it is like a beacon. A ray of light in the eternal darkness. Maybe Duncan will come back to me. Maybe. Maybe. Isn't it funny, when you say a word repeatedly it loses all meaning inside your mind? I think that's what happened to hope. But now...

And as Duncan was absorbed by the flames, I forgot one thing, only one, to tell him.

'I love you'

No matter how many times I say those words, they don't lose any meaning.