Utterly frustrating and tiring, sitting next to an unhygienic toilet all night because the continuous vomiting that happened nearly every hour. I had vomited once again, littering the content from my stomach into the toilet bowl before my wrist had subconsciously lifted up to wipe the access off my plumped lips.

Gradually lifting myself off the tiled floor, my body surely too weak to even skip a few steps to get to my room, it took me an extended forever to get to my bed, before I could finally slide into the covers.

Checking the digital clock beside my bedside table, I couldn't help but release a whimper from my trembling lips. Because it was fucking 4:58 am.

I hadn't slept since 6 am yesterday morning, and here I am agonisingly lasting 32 hours of missing sleep, while dealing with severe vomiting and nausea. But it's okay– I was fucking used to it.

My sleeping pattern was entirely ruined, I also won't be attending school today and'll miss out on speaking with Yoongi about getting the medication I needed. I was just utterly exhausted.

But I was forcing my eyes open to be able to continue with what I needed to do. I'm sure I had little credit left on my phone. Which was beside my digital clock on the bedside table, we didn't have electricity in the house. But I used batteries from my digital clock and connected my phone for it to charge efficiently.

Gradually pressing my password into the slots — I love Baekhyun .

Because my cousin was obsessive and too kind, as you can see he changed my password and locked me out of my phone for a day before I realised what the password would be.

Scrolling through, I couldn't find the pale boys contact, but I'm sure he texted me.

Baekhyun the thot
Last received 3:45 pm 29/9
'You dildo Rina—'

Ara
Last received 2:48 pm 22/9
'There's a new music studio downtow-'

Bonny Bunny
Last received 2:49 pm 22/9
'But he's so attractive pleas–'

Jun sdick
Last received 8:36 am 27/9
'I can see you outside the c–'

Min Yoongi
Last received 10:39 pm today (5/10)
'Rina we need to–'

I immediately clicked into his blank profile, looking over the phone it mindlessly blared light into my already tired and anxious cinnamon coloured eyes.

'Rina we need to talk as soon as possible.'

'I won't be able to see you "as soon as possible" sorry'

Min Yoongi is typing....

What?! Min Yoongi was already awake at this time of morning. I'm not sure to be expected or unexpected of what I just received, and an actual question mark, boys I know don't ever use vocabulary and ? to express themselves.

'Why?'

'You would know.'

As if he had immediately understood, a quick reply was met.

'Understood. I'll meet you outside the recording studio in lane 'dusk hill' be there by 2:30, don't bother about going to school.'

'Okay.'

At least, he was giving me a great amount of time to rest and sleep, I'll probably be able to regain myself half as much as I wanted to but at least I'll be better then I am now. I was a literal zombie, one that also feels utterly lonely.

I can hear my older sister chatting with a guy in the room next to mine, but as per usual, for her fucking guys before blood related and severely vomiting ill sisters was the key for her.

At this moment, I knew I couldn't sleep.

'Why are you awake?'

A few minutes I waited patiently, looking towards the blank one wall before my phone silently vibrated in my exhausted and paled hands.

'Shouldn't I be asking you that?'

'I asked you first'

'But you're more important right now~'

'Just answer my question.'

'Usually when I'm this sick, I can't sleep.'

'Yah~ I can't sleep either, never can.'

'But I have a tip for you~
Sleeping beside someone helps.'

And that's when, the phone immediately slipped from my weak fingertips, and my eyes dropped from the immense lose of sleep throughout the past few days. Sorry Yoongi, but sleep is really essential for me right now.

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I had drifted off for at least three hours, before I was woken up by pattering of small feet through my bedroom's door. I wasn't a deep sleeper, especially throughout the day.

Small hands shook my shoulders, for a plead for me to open my eyes I willingly did so. Blinking my hazed eyes, I couldn't control the small whimper that left my lips when a pain shot through my abdomen.

"Rina unnie, you're late for school!" A delicate voice shook me into full consciousness, her small fingers digging into the skin of my shoulders, before I could feel her weight tumbling onto me.

I groan. Clutching my abdomen tighter.

Blinking rapidly, the haze and blur fully disappeared and I could finally look over my little sisters appearance. Her bronzed skin lit up from the windows reflexion, while her brown eyes worriedly looked down at me as she sat above. Her face was overly defined for such a young girl, while her eyebrows furrowed immensely and her lips morphed into a thin line.

"Are you sick again?" She frowned, messily raking her thin fingers through her cinnamon coloured hair, she looked to be thinking deeply. Scout was always so worrisome, at least she cared though, I loved her for that.

"I'll be fine." I slowly inched upwards from the bed, Scout was sitting at the base of my legs. And I was able to sit up and look at her head on. "Just get ready for school."

"I'm really sorry Rin, I didn't even hear you last night."

I sighed, nonetheless smiled lightly. "It's fine Scout. Now get going, you'll miss school." As Scout stood off the bed, an excited smile left her lips, running her hands over my cheeks she then kissed my right.

"Okay, but come down soon okay? I'll make some porridge for you." A grin was made into her face, her eyes creased into small crescents before she skipped out of my room closing the door behind her.

I groaned and whimpered, another flush of heat overcame throughout my body, but I nonetheless pushed on out of my comforting bed and towards the bathroom. Easily slipping through the door and into the room, I turned the tap on and watched the water spew out of the pipes.

Waiting for the bath to fill, I subconsciously looked towards my own reflexion in the mirror of the bathroom our family shared. I guiltily looked down and away from my own appearance.

Heavy bags hung underneath my deep chocolate eyes, while my skin is a disgusting pale white. Completely different to my own fair skin, which everyone had idolised me for. My hair was long and greasy, making me want to gag. I was fed up with the appearance I now had to live with. Along with the black hair people loved and admired me with.

I wished it to be gone.

I despised it greatly

with a passion.

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Walking into the kitchen, looking over the dirty scene before me. It wasn't even Scouts doing, I was sure she was soon to be OCD victimised.

The kitchen was trashed, food littered the kitchen bench and sink. Gagging I didn't even realise the mess last night, correction I hadn't even had dinner. Scout was sitting on the outside of the bench on a tall chair, while I went around the other side and started to clean the disgusting mess.

"I wanted you to see it before I cleaned it up." Scout had spoken up, I had turned to see her nervously twiddling her fingers, ready to speak again I was silent and let her talk. "I'm a little fed up... "

I sighed, swiping the last of the food off the counter before dropping the dirty cleaning utensils back into the cupboard. "I know, I am too. But it isn't our decision to kick her out of here."

Scout had pouted. "Who's is it then? She's not helping us."

"I understand you're distrusted with how she's treating the house and this family Scout, but she's still working, right now she's the only one helping us keep this home."

I had three sisters, altogether sharing this small apartment.

The oldest, the one we were supposed to look up to and idolise, was a stripper. Although she was getting us money, and a fair amount. She brung guys back from work, lazed around, I'm sure I worked more then she did, she was out partying every night.

Scout sighed. "I'd help you if I could."

"You don't need to Scout, you're only eight."

As we conversed along with sharing the porridge between each other. A sudden bang echoed throughout the house, both our heads snapped towards the sounds that appeared towards Akko's room.

My eyes immediately bulged seeing who strutted out of my sisters room, red bed hair and his outfit mangled, his buttons half undone and showing his upper chest and collar bone to the world.

Jung Hoseok.