a week passes and all taehyung and jeongguk could think about was what their friends had said to them.

they seriously thought we were dating?

both boys were sitting in the flower feild that they went to the first time they hung out alone together.

it was pretty late for jeongguk to be out, past 10pm to be exact, but his mother hadn't called him yet so he stayed put.

neither boy had said it was a date but they both were aware that it kinda was.

they were sitting close next to eachother when taehyung lightly kissed the side of jeongguk's neck.

"stop, that tickles." jeongguk giggled.

"it does, huh? does this tickle too?" taehyung teased as he began to tickle jeongguk's sides.

jeongguk burst out laughing and squirmed around as taehyung tickled him mercilessly.

they continued to mess around: tickling, pinching, poking, teasing. suddenly, taehyung pulls jeongguk by the waist in the midst of their playful episode and jeongguk tenses up once again, just lile how he did on their first date.

taehyung frowned at this and settled down, looking at jeongguk who was paying attention to the floor.

"why don't you think you're beautiful?" taehyung asked after a moment of silence.

the question took jeongguk completely off guard.

no one had ever asked him that question before.

i mean, all of the people close to jeongguk, those people being his five friends and his parents, all knew of jeongguk's terrible insecurity.

he'd been dealing with it for around a year and a half now.

but because they all knew about it already, they never really asked him about it.

so, he didn't really know how to answer taehyung's question other than to give him the whole story.

he took a deep breathe, "it's a long-"

"i have time." taehyung said, sitting back, not taking his eyes off of the younger boy.

"i just- there was this boy... his name was jongin. my ex-boyfriend. he was my first crush since middle school, my first actual relationship, my first kiss. i honestly thought he was perfect. he obviously wasn't but i was too infatuated with him to see that. i thought he didn't even know who i was since he never seemed to noticed me..."

~flashback~

"oh my gosh, jimin, there he is!" jeongguk whispered to jimin, pointing to a boy down the hall.

"lemme guess, jongin?" jimin said, an indifferent expression on his face.

"duh!"

"yknow, you don't have to point him out to me everytime you see him. i do know who jongin is." jimin laughed slightly.

"i know but- ah." jeongguk cut himself off by sighing dreamily as the older biy walked by.

"you're crushing so bad." jimin pointed out, amused by jeongguk's expression.

"ugh, i know. i need to get over it and let him go." jeongguk sighed again but more upset this time.

"what? why?"

"well, face it, he's never gonna realise that i exsist because he's way out of my league when it comes to popularity. plus,  he's bisexual which means i have to compete with the guys AND the girls who go after him. not to mention the fact that i'm too shy to ever confess to him in the first place." jeongguk reasoned, putting things into perspective for a second.

"i mean, yeah, but if he's a nice guy then your class in the highschool hierarchy won't matter to him. besides, you're so adorable. he'll be lucky if he decides to notice you." jimin patted his arm, linking them together afterwards and beginning to walk to class.

"whatever you say, jimin."

~end of flashback~

"but then one day he and a couple if his friends came up to me. i was really confused because he'd never actually gone out of his way to talk to me before. he told me i was cute and that ge wanted to go to the cafè with me after school. even though i shouldn't of fell for it so easily, i said yes since i was too excited about my three-year-long crush asking me out on a date." jeongguk explained to taehyung who was listening carefully.

"go on..." taehyung encouraged.

"after that, we became a couple in no time and we dated for six months. in the first couple months it was all sunshines and rainbows but, after that point, it felt different. he'd tell me what to wear, tell me to put makeup on, tell me to lose weight and he barely spoke to me at school." jeongguk said, beginning to get emotional, "then, one day he just-"

~flashback~

"can i talk to you, gguk?" jongin said, pulling him aside in the empty corridor.

"sure. what is it?" he smiled, fixing his hair and tugging on his sleeves.

"i'm breaking up with you." he simply said.

jeongguk looked up in shock, "w-what?"

"i said we're breaking up." he repeated, beginning to turn away before jeongguk grabbed him by the arm.

"wait, jongin! w-what did i do wrong? i can- i can fix it-"

"no, you can't let go." jongin rolled his eyes.

"please, i just-"

"i never liked you! okay?" jongin snapped.

"b-but you can't- you can't just leave-" jeongguk began to cry.

"yes, i can. i never loved you. it was just a stupid bet that dragged out for way longer than it should've so just drop it and move on."

"i can't just move on..."

"well then that's your problem. did you really think i liked you? you're delusional. you were so easy to manipulate, it's insane. maybe if you stopped being a weak little bitch then people would actually like you." jongin sneered before shaking him off and walking away, leaving him to wipe his tears alone in the hallway.

~end of flashback~

"-he just left. he told me he never liked me, called be naiive, called me weak and then just left. after that, he never looked in my direction ever again. just like before. like i was nothing." jeongguk mumbled, tears falling onto the grass and onto his jeans.

taehyung wrapped his arm around his shoulder and kissed his head.

"ever since then, i haven't been able to see myself the same. before we got together, i never really thought about much when i looked in the mirror. nothing good but also nothing bad. i didn't really pay attention to my looks or my body or my fasion or anything like that. but with him always critisizing my appearance, telling me to dress a certain way, only telling me i looked okay when i had makeup on... it made me believe all the things he said. after that, i wasn't able to look in the mirror and feel unfazed anymore. instead, i picked at every detail. i was never satisfied with the way i looked anymore. i would tear myself apart bit by bit until i felt like nothing." jeongguk muttered, leaning against taehyung's shoulder.

taehyung wiped his tears and lifted his face up by his chin, "you're not anything he said you were."

"thank you, tae."

"for what?"

"for making me feel pretty. even if it's only a little." he smiled softly.

taehyung wrapped his arms around his torso, hugging him.

"tu es si beau bébé." he whispered into his ear.

"huh?" jeongguk questioned.

"you will get it, one day."

"oh look, that was really good english!"

taehyung cackled, "in case you haven't realised, i've been speaking fluently for the last two months or something."

"wait... really?" jeongguk pulled away with raised eyebrows.

"yes! oh my god, doll."

"i didn't even realise..."

"i mean, clearly your french hasn't gotten any better because you didn't have a clue what i said." taehyung teased.

"oh shut up! i'm trying!" jeongguk pouted.

taehyung pecked the pout away and pulled jeongguk onto his lap, making the younger boy blush.

"be my boyfriend." taehyung requested.

"what?" jeongguk's eyes widened.

"be mine. be my doll." taehyung kissed the back of his hand.

jeongguk smiled brightly, "yes!"

jeongguk jumped onto him and they rolled over on the grass.

they layed there in the moon-lit feild and kissed once more.

his doll.

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•hiiii
•double updateeee!
•this is technically the last chapter but there's an epilogue which will be out hopefully tomorrow
•or hey, maybe it'll be out in a few hours idk
•since this book was so close to ending i really just wanted to finish it off by the end of this week at most so that i can start a new one
•the next book (as you'll know if you've read my "story timeline") is way different to any of the other ones i've done since it's a fantasy au (angels & demons)
•if you're interested in it then go see it in the "story timeline" but you don't really have to since it'll be out soon anyway
•expect to see it in two weeks maximum
•and then after "dead" finishes, i'll either stick to the new book and "edgy" or publish yet another new book to go along with them
•not sure if i wanna do 2 or 3 books at a time so we'll see :)
•aside from all that, i hope you've all had a good day
•stay safe! ♡
•i love you all >3<

peace out xoxo,

nixy.