Jimin

3/16/20

Things have changed drastically since I've been back, all for the best of course.

Taehyung's attitude has improved so much over the past few months and I wasn't expecting it when I returned.

He's so proactive about rebuilding our relationship and trust in one another.

He's gone as far as to offer therapy and rehabilitation, something married couples usually go through when they are thinking of divorcing.

It was so sweet and his genuineness is the best part, he really does want us to work.

But that's not even the best part of my return, he got me freaking dog!

I wasn't kidding about the Pomerania but I didn't expect him to remember.

His name is Yeontan. He's so cute and fluffy and he's like my own little baby.

He likes Taehyung more than me since he was around during his first few months of his life but he'll grown to love me as time goes on.

He also went through with the garden and the porch swing, didn't thunk he'd remember that either.

But the biggest thing is that he's convinced his mother to push the wedding back, I guess my summer wedding was happening after all.

I'm really excited to see how it turns out, hopefully it isn't a disaster.

Anyways, I haven't been doing much of anything since I've been back. Just working and playing with Yeontan.

And rebuilding my relationship, yeah, that's almost as important as my puppy.

I'm just kidding, we're doing so good lately.

I talked to Yoongi on the phone a few days ago and he tells me he's happy, I'm happy for him.

I think I'm going to look into writing again for the company, sure editing is easy and fun but I feel like I could use a challenge and way to express myself.

I want to go somewhere with Taehyung soon, it's been so long since we've traveled together and~

    "Jimin? You aren't going to waste the whole night out here are you? We have work to do."

I look up at Taehyung, smiling when I see Yeontan in his arms. "I was just finishing up."

    "Finish up, it's cold out here." He says thoughtfully. "And we have a wedding to plan."

    "I know. I'm coming." I say. "I'll be in in five minutes."

    "I'm counting." He hums as he turns around and slides the door shut.

Anyway, I have to go, Taehyung wants me to come inside.

I'm almost out of pages in this book but I won't say goodbye yet, I still have a few to go.

Thanks for listening like you do, I'll write again sometime.

3/16/20                           7:03pm

I stand from my seat on the balcony and head inside, the temperature considerably warmer inside than it was outside.

The weather was still chilly even in March.

I set my journal down before heading downstairs where I find Taehyung in the kitchen on his laptop.

"What're you up to?" I ask, leaning on the back of his chair and looking at the screen.

"My mother sent me loads of invitation designs, she still thinks our colors should be red and black obviously." He says as he scrolls through the email.

"Black?" I frown as I see the invitations. "It's a wedding, not a funeral."

"Yeah. What colors were you thinking about?" He asks, looking up at me.

    "I don't know. Yellow and white would be nice." I say, smiling down at him. "What were you thinking?"

"I think yellow is nice." He says turning back to his computer. "I'll just tell her we want to pick our own invitations."

"Aw, Tae. She's your mother and you're her only son. Let her do something for the wedding." I say, my mother was picking my suit at least, but Taehyung was so stubborn and he wanted to do everything for himself.

"I'll let her help set up." He shrugs. "It's my wedding, if I'm not careful she'll take it over completely. And we'll look like clowns walking down the isle."

I chuckle at him as I take a seat beside him to look at the different decorations.

It was actually fun planning our wedding, I had figured that our parents would completely handle everything but I'm glad I was wrong.

"Marigolds for the flowers?" He asks as we're looking through the bouquets.

"How'd you know?" I ask, taken aback by the fact that he knew my favorite flower.

"I remember everything believe it or not." He says with a small smile. "When you said you wanted a summer wedding I figured you want a summer flower and your favorite summer flowers are marigolds. Right?"

"Right." I chuckle, leaning towards the computer to see better.

Yeontan starts to cry from upstairs, trapped there by the gate Taehyung put up.

"You trapped him again?" I ask standing to get him.

"Don't. He has to learn that someone won't come get him every time he cries." Taehyung says. "He'll stop after a while."

"He's still a puppy, Tae." I pout as I sit back down.

"Yeah. He'll live, I promise." He says, Tannie's cries not affecting him at all.

"Can we take Yeontan to the beach?" I ask. "We could get pictures taken. Like we're a cute little family."

Taehyung smiles softly. "Anything for you and that dog of yours."

"Dog of ours." I correct while laughing. "You can act like you don't love him all you want, I know you'd go crazy if something happened to him."

"You're right." He chuckles, a bit preoccupied with his laptop.

The poor puppy's cries do die down eventually until they stop all together.

We work on the wedding for a couple hours before deciding that we should stop for a late dinner.

I throw something together quickly and we eat in a comfortable silence before going upstairs to go to bed.

"You never told me how you felt about going to therapy." Taehyung says as we lay in bed, his arm around me.

"I think it's a good idea." I say. "If it's something you really want to do."

"I think it'd be good for us to be able to talk to someone who understands where we are in our relationship right now." He says, his voice tired.

"I'm willing to give it a try." I say, I willing to do anything to restore our relationship.

"I love you, Jimin. Thank you for coming back." He whispers into my hair.

"Shh. You don't have to thank me every night. I'm here because I love you, and I believe in us." I say, turning around in his arms to face him. "There's no place I'd rather be other than here in your arms."

He smiles at my words. "You're an angel."

I chuckle softly. "Go to sleep, Tae."

He sighs, his eyes falling shut. "I love you."

"I love you." I whisper back before turning back over.

Everything, for the first time in so long, seemed to be perfect.

I know we have a long way to go, a lot to mend and a lot to forgive, but no matter how long it took we'd be happy again.

Despite this major bump in the road that was so close to ripping us apart we overcame, our love for each was something that couldn't be found anywhere else and I didn't want to throw it away.

I'm glad we didn't.

We had a long road ahead of us, and I am excited for the ride.

I love Kim Taehyung, and despite feeling like I had nothing left to give for so long I was ready to love him for the rest of my life.

We were the living proof that love really does conquer all.

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