Jungkook

I step into Taehyung's office carrying the cup of tea he requested.

He sits at his desk with a pair of glasses on his face as he types away on his computer almost robotically.

"Here you are." I say setting the cup down.

He hums in thanks but barely spares a glance.

    "Maybe you should take a break and drink your tea." I suggest seeing as his eyes look to be straining to focus on the screen.

    "If I take a break I'll never finish." He says grabbing the cup of tea with one hand without looking away from the screen.

I sigh sitting down on the couch in the corner. "It's not good to stare at a screen for hours straight. That's probably why you have glasses now."

    "Did you come here to lecture me about my work? If so you are welcomed to leave." He says.

    "I'm just looking out for you baby." I say smirking at the way his typing falters for a moment.

    "I don't need you to look out for me." He says.

    "If I don't then who's going to? Jimin?" I ask, saying the name hurts almost.

    "Don't start, Kookie." Taehyung says.

    "I take care of you because he doesn't. And if you would stop playing around with his feelings you could come to me." I say even though he hates the topic of leaving Jimin.

    "I already told you, not yet." He says with something in his voice I can't quite make out.

    "You always say that." I say mostly to myself as I look out the window to my left. "You say your heart is with me but you don't want to leave him. It doesn't make sense Tae. It's not fair to me or to you. Or Jimin."

    "Since when do you care about Jimin?" Taehyung ask finally looking away from that goddamn computer.

    "Just because it's Jimin doesn't mean I'm heartless. He doesn't deserve to be led on, it doesn't matter who he is. If I was in his position I'd be heartbroken." I say honestly. "You're making it worse by staying with him. Just tear the bandaid off quickly instead of ripping it slowly."

Taehyung sighs running his fingers through his hair and removing his glasses. "I just have some things to figure out still."

    "....you still love him. Don't you?" I ask even though I know the answer is probably one I don't want to hear.

    "Jesus Christ, Jungkook~"

    "Are you trying to choose between us? Is that it?" I ask standing and getting ready to leave if I have to.

    "No. Don't be ridiculous." He says standing up and rounding his desk.

    "You're only with me because I fuck you, is that it?" I ask stepping away as he nears me.

    "Now you're just talking to hear yourself talk, aren't you?" He asks crossing his arms. "You know the only reason I'm marrying Jimin is so his family will be financially secure in the future, even if I divorce him afterwards."

    "Why do you give a fuck about his family?" I ask throwing my hands up in frustration.

    "Because, like you said. Just because it's Jimin, doesn't mean I'm heartless." He says crossing his arms.

    "That's not what I meant." I mutter rolling my eyes.

    "You know I love you, Kookie. I just have to make sure his family is alright. It's the least I could do after what I've done, or what I'm going to do." He says meeting my gaze. "Please understand that."

I huff rolling my eyes and grabbing my phone from the table. "I have to go transfer some paperwork~"

    "Jungkook~"

I pull my arm away from him as he tries to grab it and walk to his office door.

    "By the way." I say. "You might want to go check on your fiancé. He seemed pretty upset about something earlier."

I pull the door open and let it swing shut behind me as I walk to my desk outside of Taehyung's office.

When Taehyung and I first confessed our feelings to each other I promised I'd wait for him.

I promised I'd commit to him until he figured things out and got out of his marriage to Jimin.

I didn't hate Jimin, the only ill feelings I had were because of my feelings for Taehyung.

I didn't want to be the home wrecker or anything like that, you can't choose who you fall for.

Even though I promised to wait that was such a long time ago and I was starting to loose hope in ever having a true relationship.

Was I making a mistake by waiting?

Was Taehyung only using me to fulfill something in his life that Jimin couldn't?

Was I simply there for when Jimin wasn't?

Was he lying about loosing his feelings for him?

Why did I have to fall for a taken man instead of finding my own?

Did the universe hate me?

Was I being punished for wanting Tae to myself?

So many questions and not one answer.

What should I do?

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Taehyung

I push open the door to Jimin's office to find him at his desk with earbuds in as he reads one of the many manuscripts he had to edit.

His brows are knitted and his eyes are glued to the page, full of interest.

He must not have noticed when I entered because he nearly jumps out of his skin when I knock on his desk.

He pulls his earbuds out. "Tae, I didn't see you come in."

    "Secretary Jeon said you were upset earlier. Are you okay?" I ask.

He nods. "I wasn't upset. I'm fine."

    "You know...I can tell when you're lying." I say noticing how his smile had faltered.

    "I'm fine, honestly. It was just my mother had upset me is all. Nothing out of the ordinary." He chuckles.

    "Are you almost finished? I'll take you home." I offer seeing how it is getting pretty late.

    "No need. I'll call a car when I'm finished." He says looking down to see how much he had left.

    "Are you sure?" I ask.

   "Mhm. See you later." He hums plugging his earbuds back in.

I smile a little at his eagerness to finish the manuscript before leaning over his desk and placing a kiss to the top of his forehead.

He chuckles a little but doesn't look up from his manuscript.

I head back to my office stopping at Jungkook's desk where he sits at his computer.

"Jungkook." I say but he continues not to pay me any mind. "I'm heading out. Leave when you get ready."

I turn away to go to my office but he stops me. "Tae."

I turn to him and he sighs running his hand down his face before continuing.

"I'm not mad." He says looking down at his hands. "I'm just doubting myself."

"Why?" I ask glancing down the empty hallway, these are conversations we should have behind closed doors.

"I just feel I'm making a mistake, by waiting I mean." Jungkook says fiddling with his hands. "Maybe our fate is bad."

"Jungkook." I say stepping closer and lowering my voice. "Please don't doubt yourself, not for a minute. I promise- I swear that everything will work out, okay?"

He looks up at me with a sad but hopeful smile. "Please don't make me regret this."

"I won't. I swear." I say crossing my heart childishly.

He chuckles and actually smiles. "Go home, Tae. I'll see you tomorrow."

I nod. "Tomorrow then."

"Tomorrow." He repeats returning to whatever he was working on.

I sigh pushing my office door open and letting it swing shut behind me.

I was going to make things right, no matter how much it was going to hurt Jimin it was the right thing to do.

I couldn't keep living this double life and hurting two people that meant a lot to me.

Jimin was going to be hurt, but hopefully not for long.

Hopefully he moves on quickly and is reassured by the fact that his family will be okay.

I couldn't make Jungkook wait any longer because I didn't know what I was doing with my life.

I had to make things right.

No matter how much it hurt.

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