She kneels and buries herself in her thoughts..... Smelling her hair, her skin,herself..... her shame.Taking it all in but nothing at all.Had she lost or had she accomplished everything she was meant to.Everything, all the details were crystal clear before her hazel eyes making her lifeless... soaking out all of her.This very moment, she wants to escape with all she has and run and run and run..... until she forgets herself, her sins. But then a thought stings her.Had she anything at all?Anything????With nothing to lose she lay there hopeless,envious of the moments when she thought she was ugly and hated herself... envious of the moments she knew nothing,proud of her indifference. Wait, PROUD? This word passes through her head,piercing her, breaking her down to pieces...Has it got a meaning...??? Not to this lifeless body anyway.