NAINA POV

"I need to talk to you" He said and I looked at the Mac book in my hand.

Talk? That's the only thing I've been ignoring!

Because I can't talk! If I talk, I'll pour so much out and it won't be good. It won't be when I myself signed in for something which is now hurting me everyday.

I can't blame anyone other then me for this.

And this started hurting more after what Arjun cleared me that day with just one sentence.

"Am... I'm actually... Late for some work. We can talk later" I made an excuse when he glared me.

"You've zero meetings after this Naina. Stop this nonsense right now or else I'll just lock you somewhere and not let you go till you give me my answers" He snapped

"Is this any warning. What the hell is this attitude" I angrily said

"Attitude? No! What you're doing is called attitude. Do you even know, it's been a week, I've been so busy but you Naina Rathi, you had two free days in your hand including Sunday which you denied to even meet. There was nothing yesterday and you made an excuse. Do you think me as a fucking idiot" He yelled and I flinched at the voice as at the same time door opened.

It was Mrs. Jain and Arjun gave her a hard glare.

"I.. I'm so.. Sorry sir" She mumbled

"Close the door, and no disturbance till I come out" He warned and she nodded closing the door.

And then he glared me.

"Now you. Are you going to answer my one simple question" He asked and I nodded.

He sighed and took my face in his palms.

Don't do that! I will cry you man!!

"What's bothering you" He questioned

"Nothing Arjun. Really! I'm fine" I said stepping a bit away smiling.

"See! The fucking fake smile. This is what I'm talking about! What I was talking about" He whispered angrily and I looked at him.

"You're lying. Constantly about something which is irking you. You're distancing yourself from me as if I'm a stranger to you. You never step back from me when I'm holding you but see this!" He said pointing to the space between us.

"You're making me feel like I'm loosing the both versions of you. When I asked you what's bothering you, you said nothing. My Naina would never say that. If there was seriously nothing bothering you, your reply would've been something mocking like, You Arjun! You bother me a lot! But you didn't even say that! So, my best friend is distancing from me" He added

"Arj.. " I tried to say when he stopped me gesturing by hand.

"And you didn't even say a word about the reality. Do you even know Naina how difficult it is for me to right now not hold you knowing that you're distant! " He asked

"Arjun, I'm not same all the time. Sometimes I can be a bit different too right" I said

"Yes Naina. It's clearly visible since a week to me" he replied

"I'm just tired by work Arjun. It's nothing else" I lied

"I'm tired too Naina" He said

"Yes. It has been a work loaded week for you. So you must've been tired" I replied and he looked at me and scoffed.

"See! One who understood me without words, isn't even able to understand what I mean" He replied hurt clear in his eyes.

"Arjun... " I whispered

"Naina. I'm here waiting for you to speak but all you've done is distancing your self from me this whole week. I hate this distance Naina. And I hate you lying to me about it's reason. You aren't even telling me if I've done something which has hurt you. All you're doing is pushing me away. You're not telling me anything that includes every single thing which you used to tell me everyday. Your smile, look Naina, the whole week I got two smiles from you which were totally fake. And don't you dare give this crap of it's nothing or I'm just tired by work. I won't believe a word of it. I read you by eyes Naina Rathi. Don't even try fooling me" He stated and I looked at him as a small tear left my eye which he wiped before I could.

"Naina, I know the whole week I was really busy but whenever I got time, I wanted to be with you or talk to you but did you just look at the replies ? You're not so cold. Don't play these games Naina. I just need to hear the truth. I'm so tir.. " He was saying when I spoke.

"Because I LOVE YOU" I screamed and he looked at me.

For some seconds no one of us spoke yet kept staring at each other.

Even I myself was shocked at what I said.

I didn't want this to come out this way. Not when I knew this single feeling isn't mutual at all.

A sob escaped my mouth when I looked away from him and slumped on the couch of the suite.

"Naina" He whispered and I sobbed more.

"I love you Arjun. And I'm seeing the whole future with you. Which breaks every time I see it. I imagine you beside me everytime I see a couple but it shatters when I remember that there's no promise of forever. You don't believe in forever." I whispered and sobbed more.

"Every day I'm afraid that who knows tomorrow you'll come and say that Naina, it's not working. I'm not able to be in this relationship and it all shatters. And, I know, I know you don't want it. I know this since start. It's not your mistake Arjun. But what's my mistake that I'm not able to be like you" I cried when he sat near me wiping my tears.

"You don't need to be like me. And never even be like me" He whispered

"I know you're not someone who believes in any serious relationship. I know this theory of yours. I know you're practical person. And you cleared me this very well at start too and that day too" I said

"Which day? " He asked

"When you told me about Arika and your exact words were 'One should be practical that sharing tiffins, time and some moments doesn't mean there's something. I don't know how she can be so serious & immature about it' " I repeated and he looked at me.

"And I'm not a practical person Arjun" I cried and he sighed

"And it hurts. It hurts so damn bad. I'm so so deep into it now, so deeply in love with you that I'm afraid to get my heart broken. By You! And that's why I feel I should not think about it. But the more I try avoiding it the more I think about it. Every time with your every single message, every single call and even by imagining you, I find myself alone in the coming future because I...I'll eventually loose you" I sobbed more harder.

"You won't loose me an.." He was saying when I denied my head furiously.

" I will. I know, I know this because even if you deny to get married everytime to aunty or your family, my family will ask me the reason of first person they see for me! Arjun, it's not just your life. It's my life too. And I can't... I can't loose you. My belief system will just burn into ashes. And I see this happening. I don't have any idea about future. I.... I know again I was the one to just think about present not the future but, I don't even know that you want a future with me or not. I know you gave the commitments. I know Arjun, you've even pushed your limits for me. But, I can't afford to get heart broken by you. And knowing the fate, I will be. I'm afraid for myself now. Still I don't want you to change your decisions showing me pity. But, I'll eventually get heart broken by you. And I'm afraid that after you, I won't ever, ever be able to move on. I'll just be doomed. As much as I want a future with you in it as the main character of my story, I know this reality too that for you, future doesn't mean settling down. Marriage, kids and a family aren't in your dictionary. You're my home Arjun. You're my family but I need a permanent home which I can run into at even midnight too. The fucking dilemma is, you can't give me that and I can't even imagine that with anyone else" I screamed as I cried and till now I was a mess.

A mess that was not totally his mistake too!

How can I blame him when he didn't ever, ever tell me that this is forever! It's me who built it inside myself and it's me who didn't just fell for him.... Who fell in love with him.

So fuck this love!

"I'm sorry" He whispered

"No! You don't have to be. Because it's not totally your mistake. It's fucking my mistake. Because you cleared it very well. You never mentioned of a future. You always told that let's live in present. You always committed for a present. You made yourself very clear Arjun that Nothing Lasts Forever! " I said and he looked at me.

"And you don't need to change anything just for me. Because it'll be so out of pity that essence of what we feel for each other will vanish into thin air. I'm already loosing much Arjun. The least I would want to loose is my best friend. After this all, I know nothing will be right! I fucking lost my best friend too" I cried more when he wiped my tears pulling me to himself.

"Don't hug me Arjun. I'll never be able to just get the fuck out of it" I sobbed

"No one told you to even do that. You silly, silly girl. There was so much filled inside you and you didn't even speak for once to me. Just kept going alone. I feel like a loser as a best friend right now. Didn't I tell you, complain about me to me. Then why! Why you just kept moving with this" He demanded

"Because I've broken all my rules for you Arjun. Yet I know, I'll never get a forever with you. I don't even know how many days or weeks or months are left before you really break my heart. And, I'm signing in for it. I've signed in for it" I whispered and he sighed holding me.

And this was going to happen! Because even if Arjun says he would never letgo off me, one day eventually he will. Because he can't give me what I want!

I wasn't sure of how much more time we had left together. I wasn't sure that what will happen after today. Because I put such insecurities in front of him whose solution he too didn't have.

Because there was only one solution of my problem which was... Forever.

And for Arjun Singhania there was not a term named forever!

And I don't blame him for not believing. His past made him that way. I tried a lot to make him see a future too. But it's like he's adamant to not let that particular door of his life get opened again.

For me my past was a lesson to not settle for anything less then respect, time and commitment but I didn't close the doors for love. Where as, he shut them down.

And I don't want him to be the reason, I shut the doors of love forever.

None the less, I had to face the reality. Reality of anything, anything which Arjun would say after this all.

Reality of Arjun telling me that he doesn't love me!!

Reality of Arjun telling me that he doesn't believe in marriages!

Reality of Arjun may be, breaking up with me!

And I know, after this, I won't be able to ever, ever love someone else this way.

May be I'll love someone but this ferocity won't ever come.

And this man had such a hold on me that I was stuck! Stuck so badly that either I wanted life to stop here anyhow or else him to see a future with me.

But that wasn't going to happen! Even though I knew there was no future of us, I couldn't let go off him for now because look at me.

Fucking look at me burying my face into the chest of the same men about whom I'm crying all my heart out, complaining and yelling and screaming!

Someone was so damn right when they said...

Love Is A Dangerous, Dangerous Thing!!

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And oh my God 🙈🙈🥺🥺

Did Naina just pour her heart totally out to Arjun? Even adding that she loves him🥺🥺

She poured everything what was filled inside her!

And her insecurities has one answer!

But, will Arjun be able to give her that answer?

What if he couldn't 🥺🥺

What if everything shatters after this as Naina is worried!

Let's see what happens!

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