long chapter ahead :>

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"Ye?" I heard a voice from outside. I looked at the door of my room. I've been stuck here for a week now.

"Ye? You should eat." I think that's Yuna. I ignored her and stood up. I sat down on my chair, facing the window. I looked up at night sky. How long will I be like this?

I quit my job. I avoided my brother, Yuna and everyone. I broke up with Taehyung. I sighed.

Up until now, ever since Jungkook died. I always blame myself for his death. I closed my eyes.

Taehyung keeps on calling and texting me. Who wouldn't? I broke up with him. I actually don't want him to be included with all my problems. I want him to stay out of it.

I looked at my phone. Dead bat. I decided to charge and open it. After dew minutes, lots of text were flooding. I sighed and opened them.

my bro jiminie

taehyung's outside, it's raining!

aren't you gonna go out there and just ignore me?

if you want someone to talk to oppa is here :)

ye? come out please, you are making me worried here.

I smiled and started crying. I miss my brother so much. So as my other siblings. But wait, you mean to say he was there when it was raining?

sojungie <3

ye, your boyfriend keeps on coming here for 3 days already, come out

And a lot of text coming from Jimin, Yuna, and Sojung.

my winter bear♡

baby, can we talk?

please come out

i miss you already :(

did i do something wrong? ye, please talk to me, let's fix this

how is my baby? i hope she's doing fine because i miss her so much

I just missed him more. Then what are you doing Yerin? You broke up! I tried so hard to stop my tears from falling. I looked down and cried.

I heard the door opened but I didn't botherto stood up and see who came in. I continued crying.

I feel so bad. I feel terrible.

"Hey," Jimin's voice. I looked up and didn't waste any chance and hugged him.

"J-Jimin-ah..." I called name. He hugged me back and caressed my back.

"Yes? Hmm? Oppa is here. Tell me what's bothering you." he said. I looked up to him and he wiped my tears.

"I'm sorry..." I said.

"It's okay. I just know you needed time and space Ye." he said. I felt him kissing my head.

"I'm so sorry I left work. I was just hurt oppa. It was a rush decision. I was too pre occupied and I said those words." I said and sobbed. He chuckled.

"I know. And I know you wouldn't just leave work like that. I know you, you like guns and rifle more Ye. " he said. "But you need to get out and face the world. You don't need to be alone in here, fighting your own problems." I nodded and break from the hug.

"I'm so sorry." I said. He smiled.

"Shall we go out and eat now Ye?" He asked. I smiled and nodded. I wore my hoodie and a pair of shorts. My legs are long huh.

We went down.

"Unnie/Noona/Aunt Yennie!" The kids called me. I smiled and hugged the three of them.

"Hey. I missed you kids." I said and kissed their heads. "Did you do good?" I asked as we went to the kitchen.

"We missed you unnie. Let's have a vacation!" Minty said. I said and looked at my brother. He nodded and smiled.

"Let's eat!" Yuna came out the kitchen. With Sojung. They smiled at me. "Hey ye!" They both said. I smiled.

"Hey!" I exclaimed and smiled. "Sojung-ah, you're here." I said. She smiled and hugged me.

"Of course. I missed you." She said. "And Taehyung let this foods delivered. He wanted  to come but he's sick." She added. I stopped from what I have been doing and looked at her.

"W-what happened?" I asked.

"Let's eat first." Jimin said seriously. I sighed and eat.

We talked a lot and decided to have a 3 days vacation at our rest house. I didn't talked that much because I was bothered about Taehyung's condition.

After eating, the kids went to their room. Jimin was beside me.

"Do you know that the kids were sad oppa?" I asked. I looked at him. He was shocked.

"Why?"

"Minty and Alec was bullied at school." I said and sighed. "They were sad because of you. Because you ignored them." I closed my eyes.

He blinked many times.

"W-what? Why I didn't noticed that? You never tell me." He said. I sighed.

"Because you didn't have the chance to. You were too busy." I said. "Please don't left them out oppa. They're still our siblings." I said and left.

I'm gonna go to Taehyung.

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"Where are you going Ye?" Yuna asked. I looked at her and smiled.

"Taehyung." I said. She smiled and nodded.

"Take care." she said. I nodded and went out the house.

I drove my car and went to his apartment. I bring some food and a pair of clothes.

Later on, I arrived at his apartment. I knocked many times and it opened. It reveal the general's face. I blinked many times and bowed.

"Sir." I said and looked down.

"Yerin... I'm glad you're here." He said. "Come on in." He said and opened the door.

I was awkward. I sat down on the sofa and looked around. He's using just casual clothes.

"Taehyung got sick for 3 days already. That's why he hasn't been going to you. Are you okay now?" He asked. I nodded fast and smiled.

"Yes sir." I said.

"He said that you two broke up already?" He asked. I blinked many times and sighed.

"Y-es sir."

"Can I know the reason?" He asked. "If you don't mind Yerin. My son was also curious why you broke up with him."

"I don't want him to get hurt Sir. It's better of he's without me. I don't want him to deal with my problems also." I said. He sighed and nodded.

"I understand. I know you blamed yourself for Jungkook's death. And I understood why you quit the job." He started and sat down in front of me. "But this is part of our job Yerin. We dedicate ourselves and life for our job. We know the risks." He said. I blinked many times.

"I am also sad and hurt with Jungkook's sudden death. And I am also sad seeing my son cry, asking why anf where he went wrong." he said. I looked up to him. I feel teary eyed. I blinked many times and gulped.

"I-I'm really sorry si-sir. That's why I came here because I wanted to fix it." I said. "I feel s-so bad."

He smiled. "I really like you for my son Yerin. So please, fix it." He stood up and looked at his wrist watch. "I'm going now. He's in his room, sleeping." He said. I stood up to and nodded.

"O-kay sir." I said and heave a deep sigh.

He went to the door and stopped. He looked at me. I stopped and blinked. Does he have anything to say? Please. I'm so nervous.

"Please take care of Taehyung. And go back to the station. I'm expecting you to come tomorrow Officer Park." he said and left. I blinked and watched Taehyung's dad walked away. And smiled.

W
W

ell then expect me to come back General.

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I went in and fixed the foods I brought. I smiled. I wanted to fix everything between Taehyung and I. I want us to last forever. Even though it's impossible, I am gonna do my best.

After fixing the foods on the container, I cooked some soup and bring it to his room. I opened it and there I saw him sleeping peacefully. I smiled once again.

I put the food down below and sat down beside him. I stared at him.

Goodness, Taehyung Kim. I missed you so much.

"I missed you..." I whispered.

"Dad, I told you I don't want to eat." and he coughed. I shook my head. Stubborn. I caressed his face and kissed his forehead.

"Hey..." I said. He slowly opened his eyes and blinked many times. I smiled as he open his eyes widely. He suddenly sat down which made me shock. "A-are you okay?" I asked.

"Are you for real?" He asked. I smiled and laughed. "Damn, I must be dreaming." he said to himself. I smiled again. Crazy guy.

"Ah, Taehyung-ah. You just missed your girlfriend. Sleep back." He told himself and turned his back on me. My eyes widened and held his arms. Damn.

"Hey! You should eat!" I exclaimed. He looked back and his eyes widened.

"Love?" he asked softly. I smiled and nodded. "You're here?" he asked. "You're here! You're really here." he said and held my cheeks. He hugged me. I hugged him back and caressed his back.

I felt his shoulder moving. I blinked many times and continued to hug him. "Hey? Are you okay?" I asked. I felt him nodded. I felt something wet on my hoodie. My eyes widened and realized something.

"Are you crying?!" I hysterically asked. He looked at me and chuckled. He really is crying!

"I'm sorry. I just can't help it. I miss you so much love." he said and grabbed both of my hands.

"I'm sorry." I said and started crying. "I was not thinking. I'm sorry for hurting you. I am so sorry love..." I said and broke down in front of him. He held my face and wiped my tears.

"I love you..." he whispered. I nodded and hugged him.

Yerin-ah, when are you gonna tell him those three words?

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"You need to eat!" I scolded him. He pouted. "Taehyung, don't make me mad." I said and he sighed.

"Okay. I'll eat." He said as he opens his mouth. I smiled sweetly to him.

"Good boy." I said and smiled. He rolled his eyes and eat the food I gave him.

He keeps on blabbering words. I just rolled my eyes on him.

"Rest now." I told him. He looked at me.

"Are you gonna leave?" He asked. I smiled and shook my head.

"I'm staying here. You'll love that won't you?" I told him. He smirked.

"Of course, we can do something steamy." I punched his stomach and smiled sweetly.

"Shut up." I said and went out his room.

"Yerin-ah!" He called me but I didn't listen. I'm gonna wash the plates first and then change my clothes. I also texted Jimin about me sleeping here in Taehyung's apartment. He agreed.

"Love?" he called on me once again. I shook my head.

"Hmmm?!" I exclaimed and went inside his room.

"Good. I thought you left." he said. I rolled my eyes. I grab my phone and went beside him. He snuggled me closer and kissed my head. "Damn. You smell good." he said. I chuckled.

I touched his forehead and smiled.

"Good. You don't have fever anymore." I said and chuckled.

"Of course, my nurse is good at taking care of me." He said and winked. I chuckled.

"Can you smile for me please?" I asked him. He looked at me.

"Why?" He asked.

"I'm gonna post it on my instagram." I said while scrolling my phone. He nodded and posed.

Goodness gracious. My boyfriend-- wait, I broke up with him right? I stopped from what I am doing and blinked many times.

"Hey, what's wrong?" he asked. I looked at him and shook my head.

"Ah, uhm... you see,we broke up already right? We shouldn't do this." I said and looked away. I heard him chuckled.

"Silly. Love, I didn't agree on breaking up with you. You're still my girl." He said and grabbed my hands and hugged me.

Yerin-ah, pabo.

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if i can't post chapter 50, I'll post it tomorrow.  Anyways, thoughts?