I had Sebastian still in my arms, he had stop crying a few minutes ago, we were sitting on the floor a few steps away from my entrance hall. I absently run my fingers through his hair trying to bring him some kind of comfort, his head was in my chest, and he had his arms hanging lazily on my back.

"I... I..." He whispered with a sore voice, trying to tell me something.

I had notice that he was all sweaty and his face cover in dry blood, he looked uncomfortable about himself, and he even flinched a few times when I touch him in a few places. All this wasn't like him, so I was trying to figure out who had hurt him, because it was pretty clear this was someone's doing, whoever it was, had punched him in the face really hard to break the skin, the purple bruise was already showing in his cheek, his cut lip was also purple. I was frankly worried, having a difficult time fighting my demons to hunt and kill the person responsible for his state, and I couldn't imagine what had happened because Seb wasn't the kind of person to pick up a fight, what had caused all this, He was just fine a few hours ago when he called to check with me, that he had arrived safe and sound from Atlanta.

"Just breathe darling, you're safe here with me" I whispered back trying to get him through whatever was going on in his head, and mine to be honest.

"I... Please... I need... To... Clean up" he whispered so hurt while starting to cry again.

I was missing something important about this whole situation, and his behaviour, my mind couldn't stop pointing it out, but my priority was to comfort him as best I could given the circumstances "Shh... No need to cry gorgeous, alright? Let's clean you up then" I said letting go of him, so we could stand up.

Thought when we did, he automatically grabbed my hand in a vice like grip, he was definitely workup and afraid because it wasn't like him to grabbed me that hard, that set me off but we start walking, and then I noticed it, he couldn't walk properly, he was definitely in pain, and I froze, shocked about the conclusion I got, it couldn't be right, my guessing had to be wrong he couldn't be... He couldn't...

"Seb..." I whispered shaky and in shock, he turned to look at me with a knowing expression.

"Please just help me clean myself" he sobbed back with so much hurt in those beautiful eyes that I was breaking too.

"Alright darling, alright" I whispered composing myself and squeezing his hand hard to let him know that I got him. He needed my strength not my sorrow but my mind was overwhelmed.

The upstairs floor was entirely my whole room, my apartment was one of those modern concept that I love so much, where the principal suite was an open concept like balcony and so huge to even have my own big closet room where I even fit my beauty room too, I love my apartment. But that wasn't the point at the moment.

We slowly but surely walk up the stairs and got him to my master bathroom that was as big as they come, with a shower with glass doors and also a marble bathtub for two, one ecologic toilet and big twin sinks for my nonexistent partner with plain countertop space to fit the toiletries and skincare products, or whatever junk I wanted to put there actually and even more space on the custom made cabinets.

"Alright babe let me help you undress, and then we can get you on the shower, yeah?" I said in my sweetest whispered trying to help him feel comfortable while sitting him on the close toilet.

He looked up at me and nod but he was kinda lost in his own world, I unzip his gray hoodie carefully and to my surprise he wasn't wearing any shirt under it but what actually caught me by surprise, was the state of his skin, he was all covered in hickeys and there was a bite on his shoulder that was clearly too hard and had broken his skin drawing blood on the process, fuck I could see every tooth mark on it.

"OMG!" I couldn't hold the surprised gasp that had escaped my mouth and the horror in my face, I look at his eyes, but he was looking everywhere but me, avoiding my gaze, and he started trembling holding a sob "Shh... Shh it's okay I got you" I said holding his jaw in both of my hands, so he could look at me "look at me Seb" and he did it without so much hesitation "I got you, you're safe here in my arms" I assure him while cleaning some tears that were silently falling.

He just nodded, still chase by the horror that had happened to him, I hug him briefly to give him some kind of comfort before going back and remove his hoodie completely, revealing the other bruises like fingers on his arms, and the bites on his hips, that I could see because his sweatpants were hanging low.

I had always known that I was going to lose the battle of keeping sane when it comes to Sebastian well-being, but I never thought that it would come the day that I actually felt like going crazy all the way and killing someone for him.

"Take your shoes off sweetheart please" I ask him in a whisper.

And as expected he didn't have socks under his sneakers, he was in a rush when he dress himself to come here, and that could only mean two things, the first one was that he was at home when he was attacked, and the second one was that I perfectly knew his attacker, I was pretty certain that it shows on my face that I realized whose blood would be in my hands as soon as I could take care of Sebastian.

"Please" he said urgently and I meet his eyes "just focus on me" he begged trying to calm my psychotic mind.

"I am, you're my top priority now and always" I assure him with a dead serious voice and helping him get up.

I reach the elastic of his black sweatpants and look up at him for permission to take them off, he granted with a nod, I took them down slowly revealing the unbearable truth that he was brutally raped and I had to control myself not to show how angry I was, the inside of his thighs were cover in dry blood and bites, I wanted to scream and cry in rage. How could that selfish motherfucker do that to him, I was going to behead him in both ways if you know what I mean.

He slowly stepped out of his sweatpants and reach for my chin to look up at him "Please come to the shower with me" he begged trying to make me stop thinking about what happened to him, I just nod in response but it was clear that he knew I was losing my shit here.

I quickly undress myself and focus on him, he just needed me now, I have plenty of time to plan a murder, so I let go of my thoughts to focus on him, I took his hand and brought him to the shower with me.

"Warm or cold?" I asked him while he shut the glass door.

"Cold" he whispered back getting close to me.

I knew he was craving delicate touch, to be more exact he was craving a loving touch on him, he just needed affection, my affection to be precise, I knew him too well to exactly know what he was really asking of me, and he perfectly knew I wouldn't hesitate to give it to him, that's what we always have being for each other the only love that could heal our wounds.

I reach for him and put him directly under the shower spray as I open it and let the cold water cover him; While I grab my bath sponge and put a decent amount of vanilla shower gel, and start scrubbing him as tender as I could.

He had his eyes close and just let me do as I please while cleaning him, even when he was cover in all this nasty bruise he was breathtakingly beautiful, I slowly work from his neck to his collarbone, down his shoulder, over his arms, his firm abdomen, to his dick, over his abuse thighs always caressing him and giving him some kisses here and there. I turn him around and start scrubbing his back covered in hickeys and scratches but I never stop giving him my ministrations to make him feel better, until I got near his lower back, and he tensed up.

I stoped and whispered in his ear as calm as I could not to let him know how affected I was about seeing him like this "Do you want me to stop?"

"No, please clean me up" he sobbed and I hug him from behind.

"Shh... Babe I got you" I said while giving kisses to his bite shoulder, It was devastating to look at him all broken and hurting "I got you beautiful, just breathe it'll be over soon" I said caressing his chest in an attempt to calm him down, he relaxed just a bit and I got back to clean him.

When I started to clean his bottom I noticed the bite on his left cheek and how red his butt cheeks were, probably from some merciless spanking, the water start turning pink from all the blood that was on his lower half, the dry blood was all over from his anus to his inner thighs where I could see bites too, I just wanted to go tear apart piece by piece the motherfucking bastard who I never like to begin with, holy shit! I was craving his blood in my hands so much that my mouth start watering, that was pretty dangerous. I finish as quickly as I could without hurting him anymore and lean down giving him a few kisses in his lower back attempting to make it better and center myself in the here and now.

"All clean beautiful" I said hugging him from behind kissing the back of his neck and resting my open palms on his chest to caress him affectionately, he leaned to my touch for a brief moment before slowly turned around on my embrace to face me.

He grabbed my hips a bit rough, and push me flat against him, his ocean eyes were looking at me with so many emotions, anger, sadness, suffering, pain, hurt. But even with all that he was still silently begging me to make it better, to give him love and I knew it before he could say it aloud.

"I know that is too much to ask" he whispered in a broken voice "but please erase his touch and make love to me" he sobbed hugging me even tighter.

"Shh... No need to cry gorgeous, I love you" I said sweetly.

It wasn't the first time we had involved sexually and it wouldn't be the last time either, we love each other in another level beyond boundaries or judgement. We had always been there for one another since day one, when my mom first introduced us when we were kids, well to be exact when I was still a toddler, and he was already a teen, but ever since, we have taken care of one another even if it meant to engage in a sexual activity to comfort the other.

I got him out of the shower and walk him back to my room still naked and partially wet, I sit him on the edge and help him put himself in the middle of my huge bed horizontally, getting myself on top of him without putting my weight on him just hovered above him brushing my nose with his, while looking at his pretty eyes that were only focus on me, his mind wasn't in other place, he was there with me seeing only me, exactly what he needed now, a little distraction.

He was looking at me with wonder because I didn't hesitate to do as he asked me to, he always got surprised at my actions even though I never hesitate to make his wishes come true every time he voice them to me, and he knew it, but still he always got surprised about it.

"You're the only person I would do whatever it takes if it means that you'll be happy" I said before giving him a sweet peck on the lips to not hurt his already cut lip.

"I'll do the same for you" He said sincerely putting me even closer to him, and I already knew it, we had always been unconditional to each other no matter what or who.

"I know that gorgeous, let's make some loving" I said sweetly.

"Yes please" he said pecking me on the lips as well.

"You're so handsome" I whispered when we got apart, and he hummed in contentment.

I smile and then I start giving him butterfly kisses over his cheek bones while caressing every inch of naked skin my hands could reach, in the softest of ways, finally straddling him without applying my whole weight to avoid hurting him even more, because his pretty hips where brutally bruise and bitten, fuck he was a sadistic piece of art and even though he looks beautiful to my deprived mind, all these marks weren't made out of love, they were made to humiliate him , and I wanted to erase it all for him, so I made a trail of sweet kisses that mix with the tender touch of my hand, making him moan quietly in pleasure.

And I love it so much, the way he was becoming liquid under my hands and lips, I slide between his legs and kiss his inner thighs so reverently erasing any trace of the rough touch he was victim of, Seb was putty in my hands and I like it that he was enjoying it to the point of moaning a little louder.

Getting closer to the base of his dick, I grabbed his already hard member on my hand, and lick a stripe from the base to the head, making he groan loudly, he caressed my hair and tangled his hand in it, I worked slowly just sucking the tip, and then getting him as deep inside of my mouth, as I could, it wasn't that easy with his huge dick but I did it for a few more seconds before, getting back up his body makin a trail of kisses back to his neck, kissing up getting to the back of his ear, licking and sucking, ripping out a pretty loud throaty moan out of Seb's lips, and I hum in approval.

"Now gorgeous please turn around for me" I asked whispering while looking at his pleasure darkened eyes, he was completely at my merci.

He obeyed without complaining and I started by kissing the back of his neck, leaving a trail of kisses, tender bites and licks down his spine, and slowly I made my way down to his butt cheeks that I kiss reverently, and he became an even more of a moaning mess, I opened them just a little to see his entrance making him tense up again.

I got up and look at him as best I could while he had his head to the side "I won't get any further if you don't want me to" I said caressing his shoulder while giving him kisses on the back of his neck.

"No, it's alright keep going please" he whispered still in that sore voice lease with pleasure and a bit of fear.

"We could skip it babe, you don't need to push yourself to the edge" I said still kissing him tenderly on the back of his ear.

"No please, don't stop I need it" he begged desperately.

"Alright darling just relax, you're safe in my arms" I assure him running my fingers through his hair just like he loved it.

He nodded and I go back to his beautiful ass, I touch him sweetly and tender giving him kisses as well, and slowly I open his ass cheeks tenderly giving him a teasing lick on his abuse hole, something I had never done before but he needed and I was going to do it without question.

He moaned in a shaky breath encouraging me to continue, so I resume my ministrations licking his hole tenderly, until he was once again an uncontrollable moaning mess, while he was lost in pleasure sensations I got my tongue inside him ripping out of his mouth a really loud moan, that left all his body vibrating, I keep on eating his ass tenderly as good as I could from my inexperience, but he was definitely enjoying it as he kept moaning and thrusting his hips on the sheets looking for some relief.

"Stop please... I want to be inside you" He said breathless.

Without any hesitation I got up and let him turn around, he didn't waisted time, and sat me on his abdomen, looking up at me, he extended his hand to  touch my cheek tenderly, looking at me with so much adoration, and I knew it shows on my face how work up I was from all his moaning, but there was adoration in my eyes too and it only shows for him, and no one else, I was exclusively him in so many ways, and I couldn't explain why or even question it.

"You're so good to me" he whispered amuse.

"I'm only good for you" I said automatically, it was my natural response whenever someone address my behaviour, and he knew it was true, I was kind with the people surrounding my life but I only bow my head to him willingly, I only behave for him and no one else, not even my mom could make me behave.

He just smiled and I felt so happy that I could make him smile even if he has gone to hell and back recently "Please ride me to oblivion like the good girl you are for me" He whispered in such a sexy way that it rip a moan out of my mouth, making his tongue dart out to lick his lips.

I knew it at that moment that he was lost in our moment, lost in us and it made me feel good, I stretched my hand to reach the nightstand on the other side, and grab a condom out of the second drawer, ripping it open I took it out, he help me putting it on himself, I line him up to my entrance knowing that it was going to be a tight fit because of his size, I slowly start going down on him while moaning in pleasure and a bit of discomfort but never stop looking at him.

He pulled me toward him so our lips connect in a kiss, I try to move away to prevent hurting his cut lip even more, but he stopped me while deepen the kiss instead, he pushed slowly all the way in to me, making me moan in his mouth so deliciously.

The world could be ending and we wouldn't have noticed it, he put his hands on my hips and help me go up and down slowly, while my hands were in his shoulders and our eyes were half-close in pleasure, but we never stop staring at each other while sharing this intimate connection that happened so rarely.

I looked at him adoring his features, he looked so breathtakingly beautiful even though I knew he was broken, and that hurt me deeply because I hate to see him suffer, somehow it must had shown on my face because he turned us around, so he was on top of me.

"You're so beautiful and pretty" he said to me in that raspy sexy low voice while making a particular deep thrust and I couldn't help the loud moan that escape my mouth making him smile.

He got closer to my face and kiss my lips tenderly trailing down to my neck while still slowly thrusting in me, kissing down my collarbone, and lower to reach my nipples, caressing them with his lips tenderly, and lick them briefly before putting one inside his mouth to suck softly making me moan so loud.

We slowly work ourselves to the climax while kissing and caressing each other like our lives dependent on it, just drowning in our affection; it was beautiful in his own broken way.

However, I couldn't stop thinking about how life was unfair to him, why it had to be him in this situation, he didn't deserve it, we were engrossed in the afterglow just touching each other sweetly when I came back to reality.

"We need to take a shower again" I said while still laying on his chest, and he chuckled.

"I don't mind not taking one" He said looking at me and giving me a tender kiss on the lips.

"Well either way we're going for the shower again so we can put some clean clothes on" I said playfully before standing up.

"Yeah I know, but I still don't mind" He said standing beside me and hugging me from behind giving me a kiss on the shoulder.

His touch was so gentle, affectionate that I just hum in approval of his ministrations, we took a quick shower and dried ourselves,  while still in the bathroom I notice he was looking at me with an intense look that I couldn't pint point.

"What?" I ask him getting closer to where he was sitting on the close toilet.

"Nothing just that I feel so grateful to have you" he whispered attracting me to the space between his legs, and he hug me by the middle.

"I'm grateful too" I said hugging him and caressing his hair.

He just nodded and kiss my lower belly and I giggled "How are you?" He asked still dragging his lips through my lower belly, I love it when he used to do that when I was on my period.

"Work it's stressful and giving me headaches but I'll manage" I answered still caressing his hair.

"And now?" He asked looking at me with those beautiful ocean eyes of his.

"I think I'm alright now that you're here with me" I said with a smile, and he returned it "Why don't we clean your bruises, and then we can cuddle in bed, yeah?" I suggest while still caressing his hair.

"Yes, I like that" he said quietly.

I did as I said, cleaning every bite on his body, and then clean his cheek putting healing cream as well as a few little pieces of medical tape on his cut cheek to help him heal better, even though it was a tiny cut.

"Ready gorgeous" I said kissing his good cheek.

"Thank you" He said standing up.

We went back to the room so we could go to my huge closet room, and put on some close, I grabbed my comfy sport underwear, and Sebastian look for the change of clothes he has at my place just for when he sometimes spends the night here, but he just put on the tight black boxers.

"Hey sexy" I said while wrapping my arms around him from behind and kissing his back, he flinch at first but then relaxed.

"Hey beautiful" He answered turning around to face me and hug me tightly to him, but I noticed his nervous tone.

"Let's cuddle up in bed" I said looking up at him, trying to distract him from his mind, and walking backward to my bed still hugging him.

We snuggle in bed as comfortably as we could, he was lying on my chest with his left arm under me, hugging me by the waist while his right hand was making circles on my lower belly, a nervous habit that always makes him feel better,  I had my right arm around his shoulders, and my left-hand caressing his hair that it was a little longer at the time even though it was still short.

"I don't want to sleep" he whispered as if he was afraid to say it aloud.

"We don't have to, it's already five in the morning, and we could go for breakfast" I said.

"Yeah, I like that idea but I want to stay like this for a bit more" he answered, and I just hum.

In this quiet moment when I was absently caressing his hair, my awareness of the situation came back and the analysis on my mind start again, I knew Seb had some deep shit going on in his relationship with Chris that had made them fight almost all the time, Seb was upset every time when he was around Chris lately, but we never talk about it because he didn't want to.

Every time we spent together since he had been having troubles in his relationship was an escape from his apartment, and it was because of Chris being there, I knew it without him telling me, this crumbling situation on their relationship had been going on for a couple of months but apparently things had escalated quickly.

"I know you're not going to ask because you already figure it out, the abuse and who did it" He suddenly said bringing me back to reality.

"You don't have to tell me anything if you don't want to” I assure him.

"But I want to, because all this is so fuck up in my head that I can't seem to understand it, and I'm tired of pretending that it's alright, I'm tired of not telling you because I don't want to face it, clearly there's not point in that anymore, so I guess I'm just going to let it all out starting with his weird behavior that should have been a warning, and I should have pay attention to it" he said starting to sob, and I felt my heart breaking all over again embracing him as close as I could to make him feel some comfort.

"Shh... Take your time" I said rubbing his back "Just breathe through it, I'll be here with you all the time, you're not alone babe" I said encouraging him to tell me what was going on in his head.

He took a shaky breath and continue "Ever since he came back of shooting knives out he's been acting weird, mean to me, moody and disappearing for hours without saying nothing, I don't really know what's wrong with him or what's going on, the truth is that I let it be because I was busy too with my filming and all, to be honest I didn't want to admit to myself that I had another relationship failure" he said a bit more steady.

"So yeah we begin fighting for stupid things back and forth but I try to put it behind ourselves and keep going through the motions, we still had good times with each other, from time to time, so I didn't make it a big deal" he kept on going but I knew he was getting to the nasty part, cause his hand on my belly stop moving, and I hug him more closely to me trying to make it better.

"So yeah, I arrived yesterday evening from Atlanta as you know, and I went to our apartment, he was acting weird like he was mad or something, I didn't have a freaking idea what was going on this time, so the truth is he picked up a fight with me about my lack of interest for his projects, and how our domestic life wasn't working, at the end he left the apartment" He said quietly.

"I was exhausted from the fly, and all the filming that had taken place early morning, so I just let it go, call you to check in with you that I was safe and sound so you wouldn't worry, I made myself something light to eat, to not sleep with an empty stomach and went to bed" he started lowering his voice.

"So the next thing I know, it's that is pretty dark and someone is on top of me taking my clothes off, I realized is Chris, and he's drunk as hell, so I fight him and ask him to get off of me, but he doesn't listen, I keep on fighting him, but he punches me and I blackout for who knows how long" he started sobbing between words and I hold him tighter.

"When I woke up again, I was naked and he was being rough with me biting me, and slapping me, when I tried to get out of his reach he restrained my hands with one of his, and I was so scare and as much as I try to fight I couldn't seem to get free, he turned me around and fuck me merciless for too long, and he did it repeatedly until he went unconscious, the intoxication finally getting to him" He said still sobbing at full range now, and I was crying silently too.

"And I was free to run from him to get out of there, so I dress as quickly as I could, and came here to find you" he finally said, and hugs me so tight that I can barely breathe.

"Shh... You're safe now, here with me" I said trying to not let my voice break "We could charge him and put him in jail, make sure he couldn't hurt you again" I said in a whisper.

"No I don't want to tell anyone about what happened, just you, I don't want to involve anyone else, and the media would go crazy if it ever comes to light" He said urgently in a panic.

"Shh... shh... it's alright we don't have to do anything you don't want to, just let me take care of you" I said comforting him as good as I could.

I'm going to kill that bastard so slowly that he's going to beg me to end his misery, oh good lord help us, because I want to let go of that fine line between my sanity, and the devil within.

"I want to move out from that apartment" He said with so much sadness.

"You're welcome to come live here, my room is big enough to fit the both of us if you want to, but if not there still is my guest room that could work too" I said letting him know that I got his back.

"Yes I'll like to stay here with you in your room" he said hovering above me to look me in the eyes.

"I'll go bring your clothes and belongings after breakfast" I said with a look in my face that means trouble because I couldn't help it, I wanted a one on one with Chris.

"No I won't let you go there, he's dangerous" he said worry and afraid.

"Babe you know I could end him, and he'll never know what hit him, but for you to calm down I was going to call Dan to accompany me, because for sure I'm not letting you get near him" I said to him seriously.

"I still don't like the idea" He said stern showing a bit of his dominant side.

"Don't be like that, I'll be safe, I promise but I can't say the same about him, if he does as much as to breathe wrong, I'll put him out like a light in no time" I said to him dead serious but with a bit of madness.

"I know you're going crazy about him hurting me, but please don't do anything that can potentially put you in danger, I can't stand that much" he said still in that commanding tone, that a bit louder could make me bent to his will.

"Dan would be with me, I promise you, I'll stay as calm as I could, and I won't go all psychopath on him... Just yet" I said sincerely putting on my best behavior.

Truth be told I had hurt so many people before because of my volatile mind, I even hurt a now well known celebrity pretty bad because she hurt Seb, and that was when he was still pretty new in the show business, I have an excellent lawyer that made a wonderful deal allowing me to bury the incident and leave it on the past.

That was the breaking point for me though, my family found me the help I needed and I serve my time on a special clinic recovering my mental health, I still keep on check by going to therapy twice a month, so I hadn't gone out of my mind since my teenage breakdown, but he perfectly knew how crazy I could be, and not even hesitate to break some bones to make my point clear if someone pushes all the right buttons.

"Do you like him?" He suddenly asked bringing me back to reality.

"Who?" I asked him confuse.

"Daniel" He said with a playful smile but there was something else hiding behind those pretty eyes.

"Yes I guess, his a nice guy, that's why I trust him with my safety" I answer him nonchalantly.

"No baby girl, I mean romantically" he said sitting up on the bed.

"What! Gross No! I mean he's just a friend and I don't like him at all in that department, besides he has a girlfriend, why are you asking me that?" I ask sitting up too.

"I don't know, I Just thought since you two seem so close" he said nonchalantly but there was a hint of hurt, or was it jealousy.

"Gross Sebastian! never said that again, really I can picture that without vomiting" I said playfully.

"Alright kiddo no need for dramatics" He responds laughing just a bit.

"You’re and idiot sometimes, let's go put some clothes on, and go out for breakfast, my treat" I said smiling.

"Sounds great" He said all smiley again and I knew he was good as long as I could focus his mind just in our interaction.