on the way home your card settled open upon my knees
a stupid novelty one, but it's how we do this
meerkats this time would hide and withhold me
and I stammer on what to write to you, maybe if I say it all you'll break
again
you're reluctant and under-emotional, but mush, I know so
even though you don't show this, unless you're drunk
drunk as a sentimental skunk, then you'll cry
and I always think ten deep buckets of tears may just do you
until the next time, the next bout

the cover up trees on the motorways drift by
making the drive back seem more pleasant. I love them still
those trees, I do
even if I know their downcast secret too. I feel sad they don't benefit
in a forest, or a park, but to remain road sideliners rooted that way
it's miserable, don't you think? It's grim to me.

I may see beauty in a pylon, if I tried really hard, but...
well, you don't see so much beauty for yourself
won't let yourself feel that way, maybe you never had those eyes
to begin with you know? I don't remember spirited much
but that's okay too...
because i'll tell you what I have seen and see and see some more
and you'll mock me

dismiss it all almost (almost) but you can never lie to me
even though you try, you pique and I want more for you, always.
i'll try for you always.
from youth I believe you were settled in your ways and those eyes (I don't even know their colour)
yet for the gambling are of a magpies
but that's okay too...
because I have that trait and I learned those ways of yourself for myself
I am a better gambler than you
although i'll never tell you that
she knows though with a wink my way and a hush hush

and my he says you speak more as you will get merry
you speak I'm the apple of your eye
you'd die in a blink
biggest achievement
and you don't stop speaking
you don't say all this to me though
but that's okay too...
because you know he will pass your message
and I love that I know you know he will

this is all what I am thinking
as I watch those adorned motorway trees
this is what I am thinking
still looking at your blank card

this is what I am thinking as I simply write...

'happy fathers day'