JOHNS POV

String.  

Its blue.   

Hes dating Eliza.

He doesn't want me

But I'll be fine

They won't get married

All these thoughts are swirling in my head as I hear a knock

Knock.

I open the door to ...Alex!
He seems happy....Whhat happened

"HI Johnny!"he yells

"What?!"

"IM GOING ON MY FIRST DATEEEEEEEE!!!"

"Oh cool. So what did you want?"
I ask
"Can you help me get ready!"

"S-sur-re"
I feel a tear running down my cheek
"G-GOTTA G-GO"
I scream and run I lock myself in the bath room

Sob

Sob

Sob it out.

I do as the voices tell me,but one is screaming

CUT

DO IT

YOUR NOT GOOD ENOUGH

I cuT

I bleed.

Repeat.

I do this 12 times up and down my arm

I walk out

I'm Okay.

I'm fine...

A/N
WHOOOOO ANGST