I close my eyes,
I purposely slow down my breathing,
In my stomach, I can feel butterflies,
It feels like I am drowning in dreaming,
But I am wide awake,
I am trying my hardest to clear my own mind right now,
But why am I so afraid?
If my own ending I've already
once attempted and my own sanity
I have already betrayed,
I do not want to open my eyes again,
I don't want to feel one more thing,
From living another day
I want to abstain,
My life has been held up by
a very thin string,
I can feel it breaking slowly and painfully; I'm done fighting back!
I'm done trying, I'm done living...
Just like that, I opened my eyes,
Apparently, this is only the beginning...