It hurts so much,
It feels like every piece of my body is been shredded into pieces,
And all that is left is pain and a black
hole of emptiness,
leaving me alone in my own prison
of painful thoughts,
I want to scream but only hallow burst of silence comes out,
my voice is drowning in my tears,
I want to stop feeling, breathing...living

And why am I still here?
My own words are my biggest enemy,
The same words I told to so many people
are now hunting me down,
and every time I try to end it,
my mind plays tricks on me,
reminding me of naked words and broken promises that one day
I made to myself,
Those same words made me stupidly believe that tomorrow could be
a better day, that everything would be okay that I was worth something,
that I was someone...

Now all that is left is my own shadow of doubts and meaningless reasons.
My own words are now my deathly fault,
a reminder of failures and betrayal,
so why keep trying and hoping?
Why live when I'm not worth it?

Will it be an end?