I always wondered what was
wrong with me,
I always felt like I was never in the right place at the right time...
I never did, and I still don't,
I always tried to understand why,
but the truth was that I didn't belong...

I feel like I failed you in so many ways,
I didn't fight for you...
I was pushing you away because
I felt trapped inside this maze
I was trying so hard to forget about all the bad things that I went through.
All the bad things that I did to you...

The last words out of my mouth
On that dreadful night.
The words that for so long I was scared to say it out loud
Were that I was not good enough...

I thought that I could be tough,
I felt that I could be strong.

But I was so wrong...

I was always told to put on a mask
to cover the true me,
a side that I didn't want you to see.

A mistake that took you
away from me...

But before you, I had already
given up on the real me...
This world I didn't want to see,
things got worse and I couldn't
count on you, so I said my goodbyes,
And without you, I didn't want to
stay alive...

On that tragic night,
After I told you goodbye,
I took my last breath,
And finally, I realized
that I was wrong...

I thought that I could be tough,
I thought that I could be strong.

I was all of those things,
I was good enough...

But I was too late to fix my mistakes,
In the end, the real me died that night,
And the only thing on my mind was that I shouldn't have told you goodbye...

Now I'm standing in front of this mirror looking for my old self...

I am sorry for dazzling you with lies,
When I tried to convince you that you could just be yourself...
And now... Ironically I can't even recognize myself.

I'm sorry for the pain,
but I promise you...
that you haven't died in vain.

A/N

In life, you lose so many opportunities, happy endings, and irreplaceable people, but don't let it be you...losing yourself is hard and so painful, remember that you are worth it, not just on some moments...you are worth it every second of every day ♥️