Even two days later, I still don't know what to say about the conversation with Zhan. It's hard for me to just say Wen Rouhan shouldn't have done that. Because if I put myself in his shoes, I probably would have reacted even the same, if not worse.

When I woke up in the morning, Zhan had already left. One of his maids had brought me breakfast and told me that Zhan had to leave early because of an appointment.

I honestly couldn't believe it. Zhan has been shot and should still be resting. But instead, he's carrying on as before and acting as if nothing has happened. I really don't understand him. And it made me a little angry, too. I would have liked to kick him in the butt for that.

After I had eaten my breakfast, I also went on my way. Not back to the dorm, though, but to my Dad. I drove from Zhan, on a direct route, all the way to the Agency and presented my father the envelope by which Zhan had provided me his answers.

I told my father what Zhan told me about my mom and Hai Kuan, and what Hai Kuan himself had told me on the phone. I kept the Wen Rouhan thing to myself.

When my father looked through the documents, he almost snapped and asked, "How can this woman do this to us? Has she gone completely crazy? She lied to us for years and fooled us!"

"Regrettably, you're right. And I honestly didn't even want to believe it. But then I talked to Hai Kuan myself and he told me everything. I don't know what to say about it. I'm disappointed in Mom and Hai Kuan and I'm pissed off."

"Believe me son, I'm pissed off too. Really pissed off, in fact! However, let's not tell your mother we know the truth for now. I'll call your brother myself and talk to him. I think it's time we looked a little closer at your mother."

"You think mom is suspicious?"

"Yes."

"Wow, really?"

"Yeah. She's been lying to us ice cold for years. She lied to the former chief prosecutor and even to everyone else. Here we have the evidence of her lies. She sent Hai Kuan away instead of giving him a chance to prove he was innocent. I could have helped him! He's my son too, after all!"

"I know dad. And that's another thing I don't understand. You, as a special agent, could have helped him back then to prove that he had nothing to do with Meng Yao's crooked dealings. Then he would never have had to leave. Sure, that's how he met his husband. But still, that's really too much, what he and Mom pulled."

"Right. But now tell me, how are things with you and Xiao Zhan? Now that you have your answers, do you still want to go into the deal?"

"Yes I do. It was a deal between the two of us and I'm going to stand by it."

"Okay. If anything comes up, contact me here."

"I will dad."

"So now tell me, what do you personally think of Xiao Zhan? From what I was told, you two had two hot nights together. And last night you also slept at his place. Do you perhaps have feelings for him?"

"I can reassure you Dad, it was just sex, very good sex, but there are no feelings involved." As I said that, I suddenly hiccupped. Very strange.

"So you're kind of like friendly enemies who share a bed every now and then?"

"Something like that yes."

"God, the world has really changed in the last few years. In the past, that would have been unthinkable."

"Even today, homosexuality is still condemned in this country. And so are consensual affairs. Even if both are single."

"Um, yeah. I meant more the thing about being friendly enemies. But okay, thanks for the clarification. And how are you doing otherwise?"

"I'm fine dad. Sure it's frustrating that I'm not getting anywhere in my investigation, but it just takes time sometimes."

"True. While you've been stalled in your investigation, you solved the case about your brother and even found out that your mother was deeply involved. That was exactly what I had forbidden you to investigate, that means where your brother is. But you found him anyway, and by pure chance."

"Yeah, right? I really wasn't up for it until Xiao Zhan told me about Hai Kuan and even made contact between us."

"Well he doesn't seem to be thoroughly evil, anyway. But still, always pay close attention and don't get involved anywhere."

"I know dad. I'll stay alert." I replied. We then talked for a moment about drill instructor Ran and my father told me that this is the last mission for Ran before he wants to retire. I hope this mission will be successful and he can say goodbye with pride.

When I returned to the dormitory, Seungyoun immediately asked me why I came home only now and how the conversation with Zhan went. I hardly told him anything. Only that I talked to my brother and said that Zhan was not well and so I stayed with him overnight in case he needed anything. I claimed that this was just to keep Zhan warm for me as an informant.

Two days have passed since then and I have not heard from Zhan yet. But Wen Rouhan sent me the instructions for the business dinner. It said in there what Zhan had already told me. That this is a meeting with two high members of the Russian mafia and instructions on how I should behave as Zhan's assistant.

At work at the police station, it was almost business as usual. Don Miles is back and working again as an assistant in the police department. And we got a new team member after my partner, Al, transferred to work on the inside of another police department. Now I have a new partner. It's the new team member Jackson and he's 26 years old.

Jackson doesn't talk much, especially about himself. But that may come. After all, today was only his second day. But something about him tells me that, like me, he has a lot more experience in the service than he lets on. The way he acts, the way he moves, indicates a lot of experience in the service. But according to the file, he only left the police academy last year and has only been employed as a police officer in a small quiet town.

I think as far as my new partner is concerned, I should be very careful. Who knows why he is really in the police department. Because I just don't believe that he is a simple police officer.

After I told Ran about my suspicions, he also advised me to be careful. He too assumes that Jackson is not a police officer. It is always a delicate matter when two agencies are working in one place. No one wants to get in the way of the other agency. But often they're working on the same case, and there's no way to avoid interfering with each other's investigations.

When I got home earlier, showered and ate, I was sitting in my room alone. Seungyoun continues to try to convince Wooseok, so he always stays close to him. I thought like this, I could take the chance to call Zhan and ask him how he is and if we want to meet on the weekend.

But as soon as I was about to call him, my father called me and told me that he had talked to my brother and also to his husband, it's hard for me to call a complete stranger my brother-in-law, and my father told me that he thinks Cheng is very nice and that the two of them want to come to Beijing together soon. So that this Cheng can also finally introduce himself officially.

Then my father told me that the investigation against my mother is going on now. I still can't believe that my own mother is being investigated now. This is totally surreal. Especially because she is a chief prosecutor and constantly insists on following the law.

My own mother is suspected of breaking laws. Besides what she did to my brother to protect him. I didn't even think I could believe my ears when my father said, "Your mother is suspected of making her own laws sometimes." Is she perhaps like Wen Rouhan in the end? Does she also believe she is above the law and bends them to her liking?

After my phone call with my father, I was finally going to call Zhan. But then Seungyoun came into the room and told me how great his Wooseok was and that he was sure that he would soon have him ready to go on a date with him. I better said nothing to that.

About half an hour later, I went to the bathroom and called Zhan. I don't want Seungyoun to butt in all the time anymore, so I don't want him to know when and what I'm talking about with Zhan.

When Zhan answered the call, he sounded tired. "Hey Yibo, what's up?" He asked.

"I, I just wanted to ask how you're doing?"

"You don't have to worry Yibo. I'm doing just fine. But thanks for asking."

"How's the pain? Is it still very bad?"

"No, it's getting better."

"What are you doing this weekend?"

"Why? Are you going to spend the weekend here?"

"I was thinking more of an evening."

"Mhhh, if you want, come here on Friday and stay until Sunday. Or come on Saturday. Whatever you want. I'll be home all weekend."

"Um, I'm thinking about the weekend. But I would definitely come on Saturday night. If that's really okay with you."

"Sure, feel free to come over. Then we can talk about your new partner, Jackson."

"How do you know about him already?"

"I have my sources my handsome friend." Is Zhan flirting with me?

"And you're not going to tell me who those sources are, right?"

"Of course not. Some things are best kept to myself."

"Thought so. And?"

"And what?"

"Have you been thinking about me for the last two days?"

"Mhm, for sure Yibo. I was wondering how you were handling the information I gave you."

"I haven't told anyone about what you told me about your father. Nor will I. After all, we are now friendly enemies."

"Friendly enemies? Haha, that's good. I'll have to remember that. But somehow that fits us too."

"Yeah, I think so too. My dad used to call us that."

"Your dad?"

"Mmm. He knows about our nights together, and also about our agreement."

"I see. And I'm sure he's worried about you."

"Yes, of course. But he trusts me and gives me free rein."

"Good to know. And by free rein, does he mean just our agreement there?"

"Probably. But he probably wouldn't mind if we spent a night or two together, either."

"Oh Yibo, oh Yibo. Seems to me like you really need it again."

"I do, I stand by that too."

"Then come here this weekend and spend the weekend with me."

"I'll think about it. All right, unfortunately I have to end now, or they'll think I dropped in the toilet."

"It sounds like you want to talk some more."

"I would like to do a lot more with you than just talk."

"Oho, and what?"

"You really want to know?"

"Sure, tell me. I'm lying in bed and I'd love to hear what you would want to do with me right now." Replied Zhan. And before I knew it, the conversation ended in phone sex. My first phone sex and I must say I liked it a lot. And everything I told Zhan on the phone, I will hopefully be able to do with him this weekend.

It may sound strange or even crazy, but Zhan is the most beautiful break from my life as a special agent for me. With him, I can just be myself, let myself go, and not have to pretend. It does me good just by our conversations. And I have the feeling that he understands me very well and can also put himself in my place.