"Zoya, are you crying" I heard Adi ask, wiping my tears quickly I pulled back to face him

"No, not at all, why would you think that" I wanted nothing more than to tell him how I felt and what had happened, but I knew if I gave myself the option to pick him over my family, I would never make a choice

"Your conversation just seemed stressful, was it your parents, because I can talk to them if" I put my hand over his mouth, not wanting anymore reasons to see him as the wonderful man he was, I knew that would make my decision far to difficult

"I just need to go home, that's all, so im going to book my tickets" I pulled my phone out of my pocket, hoping to avoid eye contact

"Why, has something happened" his forehead wrinkled in concern

"No, my family just need me to return, I have a life to live Mr Big Shot, you know that, as do you, this trip has been great, but I must return to my life at some point" I nodded, more so trying to reassure myself, hoping that my slight humour would serve as a distraction

"Well when are you going" his question broke my heart, knowing this was our final goodbye made me feel ill. Yet, I knew if I told him he wouldnt let me go

"Tomorrow, early morning, so I will have to leave soon" I leant up, brushing my lips against his "Dont forget me will you"

"Now why would I forget you Zoya, im going to see you at work right" his response was so innocent, he had no idea and I felt terrible, but atleast he didnt love me like I loved him

I patted his arm "Of course you are, have you ever seen the film kabhi khushi kabhie gham"

Adi laughed "You ask the most unusual questions at unusual times, no I haven't"

I pulled him to sit down "Mind if I tell you about it" without waiting for him to reply I began "There was a guy Rahul, adopted by a rich family, they loved him, he loved them, one day he met a woman Anjali, she's of a lower class than his family, he's fascinated by her, falls in love with her, but his father says no, he tries not to love her but when her father dies, he marries her, leaving the house until his younger brother comes and finds him, bringing him home, they all make up in the end" I breathed out watching his reaction

"Are you trying to say that's like us" his hand rubbed my thigh, it was soothing but also had the opposite affect, his presence in my life had been a blessing, knowing I wouldnt be able to have these small moments with him again

"In a way yes" I sighed, running my hand across his cheek "Kabhi kabhi aisa kyun hota hai, ki paraye bhi apne lagne lagte hain"

"Your family, are they mad at you, because I can sort that out" he nodded, he was always so sweet, so kind and so selfless

"Badhon ka gussa badhon ka pyar hota hai, they love me and I love them, that's why I have to go back"

"To calm them down, then when I return we can sort it together" he lifted my hands, pressing his lips to my knuckles "I wont let you deal with this alone" he promised

But it was something I had to deal with alone, some things weren't his struggle to handle, and sadly I couldnt have both. I wrapped my arm around his, resting my head on his shoulder, if only moments like these could last forever.

XXX

"Aapi, you came home, oh Abbu and Ammi called, im so sorry" Noor wrapped her arms around me quickly

I patted her hair "Its okay Kohinoor, im back now"

Noor pulled back, holding my hands tightly "What are you going to do, you can't marry someone else when you love Adi" the fear so visible in her eyes

I gasped "How did you know"

"Honestly Aapi, I know you better than anyone, so what are you going to do, i noticed you came back alone, so are you going to try and speak with them"

I shook my head "You know how strict Abbu can be, he will never allow me to see any of you if I pick Adi, he will move on, I know he will, and I will have to aswell, for a few weeks I lived out my dream, but not everything is meant to be"

Noor shook her head "I cant sit by and watch you go through something you dont want to" her eyes filled with tears

"Life is full of surprises Noor, I got a chance with him, and he gave me the time of day, what more can I ask for, you know what happens to us all if Abbu loses his temper, he will up and move us all, a crush is not worth losing my family for"

"But is love, because this isn't a crush anymore"

"Sometimes, you can love from afar, I really just want to sleep now before Abbu and Ammi get here" the pain of my decision haunting me already

Noor huffed "If Adi comes knocking, I wont lie to him"

I turned back to face her "He wont, trust me" I closed the door behind me before getting into bed, muffling my sobs into my pillow

XXX

"Zoya, beti, how are you" my Ammi hugged me, cupping my face

"Im fine, you" I smiled

"Im good" she nodded "But you're not, we told you Zoya, not to chase pointless dreams"

I rolled my eyes "There was nothing pointless about Adi Ammi, say what you like about my decisions but dont insult him, please, he deserves so much better than that"

She frowned "You fell in love didnt you, why Zoya, we warned you about this, he isn't good for you, you know what his father did to our company"

"No Ammi, he isn't good enough for you, no one is, but im here aren't I, so please can we just leave it be, I just want to move on" I could feel tears springing to my eyes, I blinked fast in hopes I wouldnt cry again until I was in the safety of my own room

"Zoya, beti, come and meet him" my Abbu smiled, guiding me forward

My heart was racing as the man looked my way, I watched as he outstretched his hand "Hey, im Rajveer, you must be Zoya"

I shook his hand "Yep, the one and only"

"We have spoken and would really like your engagement to happen in four days" I heard my Abbu speak from behind me

I inhaled sharply "Four days, that's quick"

"Well why wait, you both are ready, so why make this longer than necessary" my Abbu rubbed my back and I nodded

Noor stood up shaking her head "Excuse me"

"Noor, where are you going" asked someone

"I feel unwell, im going to lie down" and I knew she hated this just as much as me, yet I wish I had the strength to go up against the people I loved the most, but how could I? When everything was at stake, I couldnt pick a side my heart fully agreed with

I do not like how I wrote this chapter at all, so I apologise for how rubbish it is! But I needed to upload!

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