It was 2 weeks again before the 57th expedition outside the wall. All preparation was almost 90% done. Meanwhile the soldiers were just have to train to their bet for the best effort. While the higher ups had to reorganize and strategized to make sure that the expedition with Eren Yeager as their bet will succeed. 

Levi was one of the higher-ups who just finished his meeting alongside with the other veterans at the afternoon when he realize that the strawberry blonde hair woman was still out there on the HQ yard. Curious about what she was doing, the captain approached her.

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"Petra, it's getting late, why you still here ?" He asked behind her back 

"Ah-! I will but later after I pick up some flowers here Heichou" The young woman startled and quickly stood up with bunch of flowers on her hand.  

"What are those flowers even for , Ral?" He asked with bored expression as ever

"Just to put it inside my room hehe.." She laughed nerveously

"You rarely do that..But I guess thats enough of the ammount isn't? why you still here then" He cornered her

"I thought the weather is nice too right now..so i might want to sit down here a bit" She finally admitted herself

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He just realize how flowers are actually bloomed around the HQ yards as it was later spring already. A mixture between spring and summer flowers and also the warm weather will cool breezes. It wasn't a bad time to relax a bit. The next thing he did was sit down directly on the grass.

"Heichou ! It's dirty-" 

"No worries. I'll take shower after this..geezz Petra, I'm tired with all those hours of meeting earlier I need to rest" He scowled

"Um..if you want to rest i think your room and bed is the best place for that sir.." 

"You really like to start an argument with me don't you?" He sounded bitter

"umm..I'm sorry..I didn't mean to.." Her voice was low and there was silence after that.

"Just sit down here.. you are right , the weather is too good to be missed now" The man finally broke the silence. Petra nodded and sat next to him enjoying the weather and the soon setting sun.

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They just sit there silently enjoying the wind blowing their hair for the next minutes. While Levi relaxed himself, Petra was the opposite. She was infact kind of nerveous whenever she was close alone with her captain like that moment. She was afraid that somehow her beating heart would cause her to do or say stupid things around him. And how fool she thought about her feelings to him still making her blush sometimes. 

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"Petra" The man finally spoke and turned his head to her 

"Y---y--Yes ? She nerveously answered 

"What kind of flower are thoose" 

"Eh..This..?" She just realize that she kept holding the flowers she picked up before 

"It's small and Blue.. it looks beautiful" 

"Beautiful? Did he say that I'm beautiful ? No no  ! he meant the flower Petra. The Flower!"

"Petra, whats the name of the flower" He squinted his eyes examined her. She began to blush at their close distance

"um.. The name is actually kinda odd...It is called 'Forget Me Not' flower" 

"And what does that flower mean till you pick it up yourself?"

She turned her head and looked down to the flower she was holding.

"Well......there's a myth of two lovers walking along a River first seeing the bright blue blossoms. The man retrieved the flowers for the woman, but he was swept away by the river and told her not to forget him as he floated away. Whether the story is true or not, it's certainly made the Forget Me Not a lasting symbol of remembrance. It is a symbolize of true and undying love.."

The man keep listening to her "Continue.."

"But i refuse to see it that kind of lover way... actually it is my Late Mother's most favorite flower.. But now its my favorite too"

Somehow the way she changed her expression after saying the sentence made him even more curious.

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"Your...Late Mother..? You never mentioned her before.." 

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"Well.. I never actually know her yet... She died when i was just 1 year old.. So i guess i don't remember anything.. But my father keep telling me great stories about her.."

"May I know...how she died..?" He carefully asked her 

"She was part of the scouting legion actually.. yet when she gave birth to me, a year later she was called back to the military and..died when i was 1 years old.. barely know anything.." Her voice was a bit shaky 

"I'm sorry to hear that.." He apologized

"..hmm.. Don't be.. hahaha.. I barely know her.. well there are many other meanings from this flower actually.."

"Care to explain?" Somehow his voice went gentler, She found it hard to hide her blush 

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"Well... besides 'True and undying love' it can also mean as 

'A connection that lasts through time' 

'Fidelity and loyalty in a relationship, despite separation or other challenges'

'Reminders of your favorite memories or time together with another person'

and .... 'Remembrance during partings or after death'"

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The last meaning somehow stung his chest. They were silence for a moment.

"Why you refuse to see it in romantic way Petra..?" That question caught her off guard

"um...uhh..I believe its just not appropriate as a soldier to even think about that.. Not until the Titan gone from this world at least...umm..yeah...So i just think about My mother whenever i see this flower..."

"I see...she must be a great mother.." Somehow she felt empathy between his words.

"Sir..Can i have my turn to ask you.." She carefully asked him 

"Yeah..whatever.."

"um..I heard that you weren't basicly an orphan back in the underground... so does that mean.. you once lived with your father...mother...?"

"Mother. Just her. She died Like...when i was 6.. and then I was raised by my uncle and learned to survive.."

"6 Years old... at least thats better... you must remember things from her right..? Is she a kind person...?"

That question somehow made him feel heavy and longing for so long he haven't even think about his mother after all these years.

"Yes...she is..." His voice was husky, She realized that his expression was pained at that time.

"Well...I don't know what does it feel like to have a mother...technically i was too young too remember..hehe... So how does that feel heichou..?"

"She..is like...the toughest woman i've ever known to survive in the harsh underground..well.. they do yell a lot and just being too overprotective over anything..." He missed those days

"Hahaha that's what I heard too...Well but now my father must have taken the role"

"Speaking of him..what does it feel to have a father anyway Petra..?"

"Well... I think any father would be overprotective too to a daughter.. Im not sure if it was to a son..Probably more freedom hahaha... Father is like somone you look up into.. kind of like that.. maybe that's what differs them from a mother.." She smiled at him 

"Is that so..." he was surprised at how she gently smiled at him as the afternoon skies somehow made her hair and face glow so bright.

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"Hey Petra.. would you like to have a family someday...?" Her eyes went wider , shocked at how that question came out of nowhere from her captain 

"Its just impossible right..." She avoided his face hiding her blush hard

"Well your mom gave birth to you..even as a soldier and thats not really illegal.."

"And she died after that..." He stopped for a second

"I believe that having a family will just ruin our performances outside the wall...and I already devoted my heart for humanity.. not for somebody special in my life in the future... And.. I might die soon or later after all..." She sounded bitter

"Hey watch your words.. remember I won't let that happen to you.."

"Really..? Well thank you and i know that from the bottom of my heart..but it still just won't change the fact.. And when it comes the time when i died.. you probably will just forget me.." She sound even broken

"Oi..where does that comes from.. you know thats not true ...of course i will never forget you, any single one of you. " He tried to made it up with her

But She just went silent all of sudden and closed her heart, hiding her tears. But soon he finally understood. Seeing her reaction just made him forget about what he was actually going to say on the first time.

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"If that's so...I respect your decision then.. I actually almost think that it's not a bad idea at all to have a family after we had this family kind of conversation... who knows if its too late with this Titans going on around us.. But you have a point. I almost change my perception.."  His answer somehow triggered her. 

What does he mean...?

He stood up and started to walk inside the HQ. Petra followed him 

"Heichou Wait-...!"  Hard wind suddenly blow as the tied flower she hold before flown in mid air to his direction.

He caught the flowers and began to examined it closely under the sunset glow

"Hey Petra... what if i told you... that I refuse to see this flower the way you do now...?"

"....what you mean.....?" She was a bit confused at what he implied.

"'Fidelity and loyalty in a relationship, despite separation' Well.. Whatever you say...I..-"

He stopped mid way and painfully smiled at the thought while holding the flowers before returning it back to her again.

"Nevermind..." And then he went inside leaving her dumbfounded.

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"Lets make this bitch pay!"

"Petra Auruo , cut the arms now !!!!"

"I'll take the nap- !!!!!"

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Suddenly.... A sight of a herd of flower she always love was there on the ground near the big tree ahead of her while she was in mid air maneuvering. The blue color was so vividly as it looked contrast between the greens. She looked back 

"Mother...?"

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"ELLLLLDDDDDDD !!!!!!!!!!"

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"HOW...IT HASN'T BEEN 30 SECONDS YET....!"

"One eye only... How is that possible ???"

"PETRAAAA LETS REGROUP !!! HURRY UPP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGHHHHHHHHHH"

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The Blue flower now changed into crimson red arround her as the Blood of hers was everywhere around the tree trunk. It was a fast death. She didn't even had time to see flash of images of her whole entire life before. She didn't remember anything. She didn't even have time to forget things. 

And how awful she felt that everthing she said to her captain that day... didn't come from the true heart...

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Lie... It was all Lie.... She did want to have a family... she wanted to believe...

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He finally found her... Ironicly surrounded by the flowers she loves most.

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'A connection that lasts through time'

Sometimes he still feels her around him . haunting him . but somehow  she made him believe that they will find each other again someday no matter what . no matter how long will it takes

'Fidelity and loyalty in a relationship, despite separation or other challenges'

Despite having many arguments . Eventually she always trust the decision he made when they were outside the walls. She was loyal to him. He just knew that when he read her letter

'Reminders of your favorite memories or time together with another person'

Those silent night.. Her Coffee and Tea..Walking side by side on the town.. Talking to each other.. sharing things that only she knows... Hearing her laughter.... Her birthday present to him... everything he likes..

'Remembrance during partings or after death'

He took her death so hard like never before that made everyone worried. "Why...? Why....?"
"Why she have to die....?!" Her lifeless body keeps hauting him everytime, Never he felt this broken before. His entire squad died.. She died...What kind of a captain he is...

'True and undying love' 

He was unsure about what he was about to say to her when he caught the flower from the wind. And how he regret not telling her early. But even so, he didn't have the courage again as she made her position clear. Somehow it pained him that day.

But now he do.... And it just made thing worse for him now..

'Forget Me Not'

Why would he tried to remember it. 

When she keep trying to forget it ?

Why would he tried to remember his feelings. 

When she keep trying to forget  her own ?