Reminder: Major Spoiler ahead including what will happen in season 3 anime, the twist is that special operation squad no longer there as Petra was the only survivor from the squad.

Don't read further if don't want to get spoiled

PS : Rating 18+ as there will be some nsfw included

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Timeskip for months, The timeline now is the night when they have returned to Trost after the battle of retaking wall maria and shiganshina, Petra fought alongside with Hanji squad and somehow survived from the blast , rejoined with the other remaining 9 people of the scouting legion.

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It was such a silence night. The main HQ of scouting legion now was too big for the only 10 people of this organization. Eren, Mikasa, Armin were prisoned from their previous day action agaisn't military command. Hanji who was now the commander had to stay in Sina for further report, Flocke, Jean and Connie came alongside with her, Sasha was still badly injured and taken care in hospital while Petra.. The commader said that she was fine to just be taken care in the HQ's infirmary since her injury wasn't that serious and because of that, The broken man needed to stay and took care of her.

Petra was still sleeping on the infirmary when the man went to the kitchen and grabbed some alcohol and savoured the night.

"I failed...again...I messed up..." Another bottle opened

"...i failed you Erwin..." Another glass

"...I'm sorry..."

The guiltier he felt, the more glass he drank hoping that the terrible feeling will go soon or later. He started to get dizzy from all 4 bottles of whiskey he just drank. He burried his face on the table for the next hours.

"Heichou.. You alright...?" the voice woken him up, and he looked to the voice source

The young woman who was only wearing white nightgown with some bandages here and there was standing on the doorframe looking concerned. He gulped.

"You're awake..don't you need to rest more..?" he asked

"I had enough...may i join you..?" She shyly asked while approaching him

"Look..you are no in condition to drin-"

"Please..." she begged with such a sad face he couldn't bear to see anymore.

And then he took another bottles from the cabinet alongside with the extra glass for her. Unlike him, she took some moment between her drinking as slow as possible since she wasn't used to alcohol like him. They silently kept drinking on the dim lighted kitchen with the only sound of candles around the room to be heared until Petra broke the ice.

"Heichou... I've heard about the truth of the wall earlier from the cadets.. that's scary isn't..? knowing that somewhere out there are actually wanted us to die.." She said in low voice

But the man didn't respond her.. She tried again

"What you did...with letting go of Commander Erwin... I also think it was the best...."

Somehow that statements angered him, instead to show it off, he quickly drank another glass before speaking.

"Did you think so..? Now what will we do without him.. War..? How can we..." His voice shaking. he began to doubt his decision, he knew that it was no point on discussing it again and again. He was dead.

Her warm hand suddenly above his and didn't say a word. He gaze at her. But quickly let go.

"Look petra.. It's not just Erwin.. I let Gunther..Auruo..Eld die..." He took another glass.

"I let two person who i grew up with the most died.." His voice getting bitter

"I let the man who taught me how to live die.. and moreover..!" Anger was obviously be heard

"I couldn't even do anything...when.. my mom.. suffered..and die...-" He sound defeated

Suddenly he went up from his chair heading to the cabinet again and took another bottle. As the dizzyness started to take over him, he dropped the bottle hard on the floor and crashed as he fell on to the floor too.

"Heichou..!" She quickly ran to his side and hugged him tight.

His body was shaken violently. His breath ragged, vision blurred, tremendous headache overwhelmed him. The pieces from the bottle somehow cut his palm.

"Heichou... It's alright...it's alright...please...don't be like this...please..." She cried hugging him.

His bloodied palm hold her body tight, He burried his face on her shoulder while she pat on his head. He began to grunt and cried no longer after that.. His voice was croaked, it was obvious that he tried his best to hold himself so that she wouldn't hear his crying voice. But he failed.

He wailed hard between his cries on her. Returned her embrace. She could feel pure agony and anger on his voice even if she didn't see it. She kept patting on his hair.

"I know...i know.. just let it all go... it's alright.." she tried her best to reassured him

They embraced each other for some minutes, just silently cried on each other shoulders

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"It's good now.. you should sleep now captain" She said as she finished treating his wounded palm and began to leave the room

"Wait.." He pleaded, She glanced back at him

"What if i lose you too..would you still say that it's alright..?" She was shocked at his saying.

He stood up from his bed and approached her. He pinned her on the wall, leaving her eyes widen in shock. She couldn't really escape, his strong arms blocked her way out. The steel blue greyish eyes pierced hers deep. His eyes were still watery with such a longing expression.

"...I...If it's for humanity...then..I will be alright..with that..." she answered nerveously

"For humanity..? Like the others? Gunther..Eld..Auruo... like that..? You don't actually believe that they didn't die in vain right..?" His voice sound bitter than ever

"What..you mean sir...?"

"I told Erwin to die.. It was all my fault...All those meaningless death...Petra.. If i told you to die right now.. would you do that?!" He shouted

She was literally scared of her captain right now, she never seen him like that before.

"Heichou..this isn't you... you never doubt things like that..you never...you sss..should sleep now" She didn't dare to stare at him any longer

"THE HELL RAL , ANSWER ME !" he snapped. Single tear began to fall from her eye.

"If....if...it's for the best...then..I'm alright...to die..." She hold her tears the best she could

"Go die then now..prove it to me.." His shaky hand hold her cheeks.

It's not anger that shown from his eyes.. It was infact anxiety..and insecurities.. She realize now that it wasn't actually the thing he wanted to say. She began to understand the message behind his harsh words.

"I won't leave you.." His eyes widened

"Even if you told me to die... I'll make sure that i'll survive.." He let go of his palms

"And If i couldn't survive.. I'll be always watching over you..up there..." Tears flooded her eyes.

"Because you are the one who taught me not to regret.. so please-"

Before he managed to finish her sentence, His lips already crashed on hers leaving her shocked. She was pinned back to the wall as the kiss deepened. He hold the back of her neck close not breaking the kiss, while his other arm holding her waist. She couldn't released herself as she began to feel weaker each and every second.

Strong smell of alcohol overwhelmed their kiss, but she was surprised that his lips were surprisingly smooth. She given up and closed her eyes to return the kiss. Realizing that she didn't resist anymore, he slided his tongue into her mouth, savouring everything inside her mouth. The move shocked her as she began to moan on the sensation. Her knees failed her as she almost fell down, but the strong arms prevent her to.

He brought her to his bed not breaking the kiss and pinned her down. Knowing where this will lead, she tried to pushed him

"Stop...heichou...we shouldn't...!" He finally stopped leaving them both breathless panting for some air. He gaze on her with such tempting eyes

"Petra... listen.. I really don't know whether we will survive anymore.. I really don't.. you might die.. I might die.. soon or later..so.." He burried his face on her shoulder, his head hurt so much from all the drinks

"I'd like to think that tonight is our last day.." He kissed her neck causing her to moan at the sensation "He..ichou..!"

"Do you really want to see me broken again..?" He stopped waiting for her answer.

She took a moment before replying and prepared her heart.

"I...don't..."she said in low voice

He continued to showered her with all of his kisses around her neck and her collarbone. She didn't resist anymore and let the captain to lead the way. He was being gentle with her as he knew that she wasn't used of this stuff at all judging from her young age and occupation. He didn't want to hurt her.

He caressed her body gently, not breaking the kiss. No longer after that, his hand went up to one of her breast gently cupping it causing the woman to jolt. "Heich..-" "shh...its alright"

Soon he gropped on her breast harder causing her to moan louder "Heichou..that's..ahh.." He silenced her with another deep kiss not stopping his hand. His other hand behind her neck to make sure she wouldn't nudge.

Satisfied with her reaction, he lowered his hand again to caress her stomach. Her firm abs was clearly there reminding him that she was indeed a soldier, a really good one. She calmed down for a moment while having him kissed her collarbone. Gasping for air after those long kisses.

Not long after that, his hand began to caress down to her legs. Wearing only a nightgown that revealed her beautiful legs was so hard not to be missed. While his mouth kissing on her breasts and down to her stomach.

"You have such a beautiful legs.." he mumbled leaving her red from embarassment

He went up facing her again, then she realized that his hand was ready to take her nightgown up that's when her hand followed his.

"Heichou...you are very drunk..." She told him

"I'm very aware of that Petra..." Then he slowly took her gown up her body only to be stopped again

"Don't...my body.. isn't perfect..." she said it shyly

"I don't care...will you let me see it..?" He carefully asked her, she finally nodded.

Her nightgown went up till her head, she helped him to take it off and he threw it on the floor revealing her pale skin petite body with her black undies. All of those battle scars were indeed so visible even with bare eyes. He began to kiss all of those scars one by one.

One of the latest scar she got from the previous battle startled her as the pain striked. "Ah..!"

"..sorry.."

"No...no problem..heichou.. shouldn't you take off your shirt too...?" She carefully asked him.

"Well...take it off then..." He asked while kissing her neck again.

"Ah..!"

"You really like your neck being kissed huh...?"

She didn't reply, but getting her hand working on to take off the buttons of his shirt one by one. His abs now visible in front of her as he took of the rest of the shirt to the floor also. Same with her, he also got scars here and there, The moonlight that reflected the room shows it more and somehow it was such a beautiful sight she thought.

"Had enough starring..?" He asked her

"Ah..Sorry...your body is just...beautiful..."

"So you are.." He locked his lips on hers again. The sensation from the direct skin contact of his body agaisnt her was appealing. She didn't realize somehow her bra was nowhere to be seen again as he skillfully threw it off aside revealing such a firm breasts. He breasts weren't too small nor big, just the right size for him. He broke the kiss to look at her lustfull face.

He gently round his fingers around both of her pink soft nipples. She felt tensed, he kept his eyes fixed on her to see her expression changed.

"..aa...aah...heichou..." She opened her eyes a bit to see his passionate face. As he felt that her nipples gone hard, Not waiting any longer he went down to suck one of her breast while squeezing the other gently.

"Ahhh..hei..chou..."

Then he sucked and squeezed her mounds harder. Her body jolted up at the sensation while her legs locked around his legs.

"Ahh..!! Heichou..! No...! It hurts..! ahhh....ahh..ah..!" She gripped the sheets hard panting.

He released his mouth and began to work on the other brearst repeatedly giving her the same amount of lust each sucks and each squeezes. She felt hot inside especially her lower part of her body.. The temperature around them somehow began to raise, They both feel hot.

"Petra...Just call me Levi when no one around.." He said between what he was doing

"...mmm...okay....Levi....ahh"

Hearing her calling his name sounded so perfect to his ears. His other hand which previously squeezed her slowly went further down her abdoment. But his mouth still licking on her breast.

She shot her eyes open when she realize where those hand stopped at.

"Heichou...!" She pleaded

"I told you to call me Levi..." His hand began to caress the most sensitive part of her body down there only to be blocked by single sheet of her underwear. He was surprised at what he feel

"Petra..you are already this wet even with your underwear on..." He began to play around her clit with his fingers causing her to moan more.

"Ah...Levi...please...stop...Levi.....I can't...." Not only his fingers down there , but his mouth still sucking on her breast. Her voice calling out his name sounded so beautiful that he couldn't take it anymore. He slowly began to take down her underwear feeling the juices that came from her pussy.

"Shit..petra..you are so wet now..." He stopped sucking her breast to kiss her once before he continued to stroke her wet clitoris around

"Heichou.....ha....ha...please...don't..."

"I told you to call me Levi.." A finger entered her and she jolted holding his back hard and breasts bumped up

"AH !! Levi..!!"

"You will feel good later...trust me..." He carefully fingerfucked her inside. She tried to hold her moan

"Don't hide it...no one is here.. you can let it go.." He scanned her face that filled with pleasure.

Her face was so beautiful and enchanting. He really wanted her. He really wanted her. He began to put another finger inside of her, She jolted hard once again

"AHHH !! It hurts..!!" Her body trembled so hard at the sensation. He tried to calm her down again by kissing her. Her body were completely gave up to him. She couldn't resist anymore. All she thought that moment was to become his forever on.

Feeling the wet was enough, he went further down..and down again until his face was now infront of her vagina. "No way....!! Wait...!"

A tongue began to enter inside of her. The burning sensation inside of her keeps growing

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh......Ahhhhh..Levi...No...wait...Ahhhhh !!!" She moaned so hard at what he was doing. She was sure that her moan could be heard from the first floor. Her hand tried to hold his head hoping that she could release him from that weakest spot of hers but she failed.

He licked all over her clitoris inside her savouring the sweetnest that came from her juices. Her body arched up each time his tongue inside of her. She never imagined that such clean freak like him would go down further just for her.

"Petra...are you ready..for me..?" She opened her eyes panting hard. Her expression was priceless. Full of lust and pleasure, and so with him. She finally nodded didn't care anymore about what they actually doing.

He began to take off his pants and his undergarments revealing the hard thing above her vagina. She was shocked at his size despite his small body feature and found herself beating hard at the sight.

"Wait...!" She asked and rised from the bed to kneel infront of him

"Let me...help you first..." She shyly said leaving him dumbfounded

"What...are you doing...."

She brushed her hair behind her ears before taking his thing inside her mouth.

"f...fu..fuck...Petra..." He grunted

Her tongue skillfully licking around his hardened crotch and sucking him deep inside until the edge of his tip hit the wall of her mouth causing her to moan.

"Fuck....petra....fuck....that feel so fucking good....ahh....ahhh..." He out his hand on her head holding her not to stop at what she was doing. Her teeth slightly stroking him inside too. He felt dizzy at the sensation. Feeling that his thing would burst any moment, he stopped her.

"Alright..that's ..enough..!" He strongly pinned her back onto the bed again. Her face was as red as tomato as he found it cute and sexy at the same time.

"Are you ready...now...?" He saw doubt overwhelmed her. He hold her hand tight

"I'll be gentle..I promise.." She finally nodded..

Soon he repositioned himself ready to make love to her. First he teased her outside her walls to check up on her once again asking for permission. And she nodded again.

He began to thurst slowly inside and she moaned hard at the feeling.

"AhhHHhHH!!" Her body all tensed up causing her back arched up again

"Shit..you are so tight inside...petra..." He checked up on her pained face that was ready to filled with tears

"Petra..you alright..? Does it hurt too much..?" She began to cry a bit gripping on his shoulder.

"It hurts.....Levi..." Tears became more visible now

"I'll stop it then..." He began to panic ready to released himself. She gripped his arm

"No....please...continue...I'm no longer...care again..." She opened her eyes a bit

"You sure...?"

"Yes...."

"Alright then... you will feel good later.. I promise.."

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He thurst deep inside of her again and pulled back gently causing her to moan harder again. He repeated it again on and on until they finally felt more comfortable as her vagina finally adjusted to him. He began to thurst far deeper inside to feel her.

"AHHHhhhHHHhhhh Levi...no....No.. Ahhhh!!" Her nails digged her back hard.

"ugh....should i stop now..aah...aah.."

"Please.....harder......"

Did he hear her wrong ? Did she say harder ? He couldn't believe at what she said that moment

"..y...you sure...?..I won't be able to stop myself again after this..." He hesitated for a moment

"...please...Levi..." She pleaded between her ragged breath

Soon he went inside of her to prepare himself again. He cupped on her face and began to thurst hard inside out her deeper and faster causing her breast to bounch hard folowing the rhythm. Her hand gripped on his back harder.

"Ngggghhhhh.......ahhh..Lev...AAHHHH....AH..AH..AH..HHGGGHH.....nnnggh....AAH...LEVI...! ...AahAAaAAH...Mmmmmgghh...Levi..Le-..Annnghhh...!"

Her moan was so beautiful on his ear, he felt hear heartbeats clearly on his ear each time he thursted hard making love to her.

"..Petra...you...nggh...ha....haa.....you..feel.. so fucking.. good...........ahh !" He panted

She felt herself getting crazier every thrusts inside. She didn't really care anymore, she just want him right here right now.

"...NNGGGHHHH...! LEVI...Your.....Your...! Ahhhhhhhh...!!" She could feel that she was ready to burst any seconds by now

"..fuck...I think im going to cum....haa...haa..."

"AHH...ah...Leee..vii...Ahhh..Hnngggghh...mmmggghhh...aaaaaaaahhhhhh!!"

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They finaly came together inside. Causing him to filled her full inside. She wailed louder holding him tight. His body shutted down as he fell on top of hers. The weight surprised her. They both out of breath , chest went up and down.

It was their first time together leaving petra with so much questions. What did she just do with her captain what the hell did she say to him earlier... She just realized it all now.

"Petra....hgg..." He burried his face to her shoulder

"...yes...?"

"I'm sorry...i wasn't myself tonight...I didn't mean to shout at you..." he mumbled

"...we all...need to break down...sometimes..." she caressed his hair

"You know...i was really afraid when the colossal titan transformed and blow the shit like hell.. must be terrifying.. the fact that i couldn't check on you just made it worse..."

"....hmm..but moblit-san saved me and hanji right on time...sometimes... i thought that it would be just easier to die..."

"tch...don't say such things..." he kissed her again

"the world now is prettymuch upside down right ...levi..?"

"yeah... we don't know anything about this Marley shits beyond the wall... what they are capable with.. i just want you to be safe..."

"you know i can't...we can't.. until my last breath , I'll die with the wings of freedom.. and I believe in you.." she gave her best smile at him with hint of tears

His expression changed, he tuck his head beside hers again

"..hmm..thankyou.."

"For what...?"

"..Making me believe myself again..."

She felt her heart warm by his words.

"Hey petra...."

"..yes?"

" ..can i believe in you to be there for me...?" Those words surpised her

"...what..you mean...?"

"..after this war ends....Please...petra...only yo-..."

Felt the weight getting heavier, She tried to shake him off

"Heichou...? heichou..?" She pushed him aside realizing that he felt asleep.

"that's right...he just drank so many bottles earlier..." She smiled at the peaceful face in front of her.

She pulled the blanket all over their body gazing at him again one last time before she sleeps

"Of course I believe in you"