His scent was the first thing that came to mind as I gained consciousness. I had imagined this memory so many times in my head, for years maybe. This felt like a dream. The warmth coming off from his skin made me want to stay still in his arms. 

I opened my eyes to see Harry still sound asleep.

The memories from last night slowly started flooding my mind. Our kisses. His touch upon my body. My desire for him. Our passion together. Things I thought would never happen again. Things I had missed so much. 

But Nathan...

Knowing that I had just cheated on him broke my heart. I clenched my jaw trying to hold back my tears in Harry's arms.

I slowly moved myself away from Harry and crawled out of the bed with tears running down my face. My eyes quickly searched for my clothes. I needed to get out of this hotel room. I picked up my dress I had worn the night before off the floor, still searching for my heels.

" Cailin?" I heard Harry call out as he stirred on the bed.

I stayed quiet, hoping he would just go back to sleep.But instead his eyes fluttered open and caught mine, staring right back at him.

" what's going on?" he asked in a hushed tone.

" I need to go home" I whispered looking back at the floor

" are you crying?" he asked and he crawled over closer to the edge of the bed where I was standing. His hands made their way to my cheeks, wiping some of my tears away. I couldn't help but lean more into his touch.

I already missed being in his warm arms and I hated myself for that.

" I cheated on Nathan..." I cried.

Harry sighed in sorrow as if he felt the pain I was feeling in some way.

" I'm sorry, Cailin" Harry shook his head.

He took his arms and wrapped them around me, immediately I melted into him. We laid on the bed as I continued to cry. I held onto him like I never wanted to let him go. Yet I wasn't his to hold. I had a fiance.

" I need to go home" I said desperately as I pulled myself away from him.

I started putting my clothes back on as tears continued to floor my eyes.

" don't leave" he begged.

I looked at him again and my heart stopped. A flashback came to mind. Years ago, I was in his position. I was the one begging him not to leave me for another girl. Now here I was leaving his bed for another man.

" we can work this out, Cailin" he said.

" what do you mean?" I snapped at him as an anger overtook me.

I could see it in his facial expression that he didn't expect me to do that.

" I love you and you love me, we're gonna work this out" he explained.

" we don't work, Harry!" I shouted at him.

I quickly put on my heels and searched for my purse as I tried to get out of there as soon as I could. I had to get away from Harry before I did anything stupid again.

" all we do is fight and hurt each other! Yes we created this beautiful little girl, but that's the extent of it. I won't let us and whatever we feel for each other affect my daughter" I shook my head.

" our daughter" he said as I reached for my purse on the ground.

I looked up at him and sighed.

" no, Harry. My daughter. I have been the one who has been raising her all these years. I'm the one she gets to call a parent I'm the one that allowing you to be apart of her life as of now. But don't think that it's a way to get to me. It has nothing to do with us" I said to him.

Harry stayed quiet. I don't whether it was because he couldn't find the words to respond, or it was because he was waiting for me to finish, so continued.

" yes, Harry. I will always be in love with you. But I know that it isn't healthy or any good. We're not good for each other. So let me move on with my life like I let you years ago. Let me start this new chapter in my life with Nathan. Leave me be with a man who is good for me. A man that makes me happy" I begged him with tears streaming down my face.

We stayed quiet for a moment just staring at each other.

It least until Harry spoke.

" just please don't keep Roy away from me" he begged. 

" I won't" I promised.