I am perplexed, abandoned in a shopping street in Cambridge. I have such mixed feelings. I'm actually over the moon with Ethan, he's just told in scents and colors what his feelings are for me. Then we almost made love in an alley and I had so many butterflies in my stomach. But now that I've seen that he got a call from one Valerie with a heart behind it, I fell hard through those clouds with my fat ass. The butterflies are still there but I have become a little suspicious. I decide to walk quietly to the subway and sort everything out.When I arrive at the subway I see that the subway to Ethan's dorm has already left.I get on the next subway and have decided on the way that I won't keep thinking about that Valerie girl anymore, but will just ask him point-blank tomorrow. The butterflies come back a bit and I feel a loving wave go through my body. I almost skip to the dorm.

When I enter the student house I go straight to the living room. I want so badly to tell Abby about the kiss. In the living room I only see Bas and Lorenzo sitting. I greet them with a nod and then continue to the kitchen. There I see the two other girls who also sleep on the girls' floor. I've only really seen them on the Downton Abby night. "Hi, Piper and Poppy, right?""Yeah right," Piper says and they both nod kindly. "Did you happen to see Abby?""I think she went to McDonald's with Julia, James, and Ruben." Piper says and Poppy is still nodding. Well, she's not very talkative either."Okay, I'll wait until she gets home. Thank you girls!' I say smiling and then walk to my room. I should have said "thank you Piper." because Poppy kept her jaw tight.I started doing some homework but can't concentrate very much. I keep repeating in my mind what I want to say to Abby about the kiss and get very distracted. I decide not to tell her that I specifically kissed Ethan, and stick to "the boy from the subway." I'm secretly afraid she'll disapprove because at first glance he's not my type at all, and I'm not his type either. At first I thought she didn't know him, but now that I know he's at our school I'm not taking any chances. Suddenly I hear voices in the hallway and I stand up. I walk to the door and try to listen to the conversation going on in the hallway. 'No, James, go lie down in your own room. After all, I've long since cleaned up your mattress.' I hear Abby say. Then I hear James say something but I can't understand what he's saying. I become curious and put my ear to the door, hoping to understand better. I look crazy. Then suddenly I hear a smacking sound and I let out a soft scream. I quickly put my hand over my mouth, afraid they heard. I hear James shuffle off down the hall.When I'm sure James is gone, I jerk my door open and knock on Abby's door so hard my knuckles hurt. I don't stop knocking until the door opens. "James, cut it I told you that..." she stops talking when she sees it's me, instead of James. I look at her with a big grin. 'Oh Esmee is it you, I thought you...'"That I was James?" I ask with wiggling eyebrows and I walk inside. There I indeed see that she has put the mattress James always sleeps on upright against the wall and the pillow he always sleeps on is on her bed. 'Did you and James French kiss? I heard a loud smacking sound so you can't deny it.' I cross my arms, thinking she has to tell the truth now. 'No, no goddamn, he just gave me a kiss.' I look at her with my mouth open and want to scream. I sit on the bed and Abby follows me. "On my cheek, on my cheek!" I close my mouth again and give her a nudge on the shoulder that almost knocks her off the bed. I quickly grab her hand and we burst out laughing. Abby grabs James's pillow and slaps my back hard. "Look out Es, James has been drooling on this." And she hits again. "IEEEL." I scream and I grab the pillow from her hands and throw it in the corner of the room. "Okay seriously now, I have something to tell you." I start.'Tell!' Abby sits cross-legged on the bed and looks at me with wide eyes. "Well, Abby, so I did kiss that boy from the subway." And now we're both screaming with excitement. 'Tell! Tell me everything.'I clear my throat and start talking.