'When I was 16, I was in love with a boy who went to my school.  He liked me too.  But every break he snuck out to smoke weed and when he came back he never saw me again.  We ended up in a relationship, or so I thought, but every time we hooked up, he was stoned.  Then there was no conversation with him and he was just laughing.  I don't think I've never seen him not stoned.  One night I went out with my best friend and he with his friends.  It was downright scum.  Half of his friends had already been kicked out before I even got in.  When my boyfriend went to get us a drink he came back with two Bacardi's.  He gave me the one with ice cubes, and my girlfriend the one without.  I hate cold drinks so I traded with my best friend and got her drink.  At one point my girlfriend wanted to go home, she wasn't feeling well.  I then went with her to arrange a taxi but I did not came home with her, because I wanted to stay with my boyfriend.  When I got back into the club he was grinding on the dance floor with a girl.  Just when I was about to walk up to him they started kissing. I ran away crying and also called a taxi. '
Now that I tell this like this, all the memories that I had put so far and deeply come back to the surface.  I swallow and then continue with my story. Ethan is still gently rubbing my back which makes me very calm.  'When I was at home crying in bed, I suddenly got a call from my best friend's mother.  My bestfriend was in the hospital and her stomach had to be pumped out because she had an overdose of drugs in her body. "I'm starting to sob and Ethan is holding me tight now.  'I went to the hospital as soon as possible. It later turned out that my so-called boyfriend wanted to drug me, and if we hadn't switched those drinks, I would indeed have been drugged.  I feel guilty to this day for wanting to swap drinks with my girlfriend.  He was later arrested by the police.  That same evening he had drugged two other girls.  It turned out that he got a kick out of that and did it several times every weekend. If he was lucky those girls would go with him and god knows what to do with them.  He was planning to do that with me because I didn't want to go further than kissing.  I'm so glad he's in prison now. '  I wipe the tears from my face.  Ethan reaches for my cheek and sheds a tear before he can fall on my cheek.  'That's why I reacted so strongly.  Sorry.'  I sob.  "No you don't have to say sorry, I understand."  Now I see Ethan suddenly get angry.  'If that kid ever gets out again, I'll beat him up.  What a filthy sneak.' Ethan says angrily and clenches his fists.  I put my hands on his fists and he calms down a little.  "Es, I will never offer you drugs and certainly not drug you."  He says softly.  "Now you only have to stop smoking weed now."  I say with a laugh.  He smiles back and gives me a hug.  All the grief leaves my body because of his touch and I feel wonderful in his arms.  "Still hungry?"  Ethan says and takes the bag.  He takes a box of chicken nuggets from the bag and hands them to me. My stomach grunts and I quickly open the box and grab a chicken nugget and put it in my mouth.
"I was ready for this, thank you."  I say with my mouth full.  Ethan laughs and puts a quarter pounder in his mouth himself.