We were on a road trip just the four of us because we felt that we needed a trip just cause.

"Hey, there's a hotel there let's stop and rest." F
"Good idea." M

Felix drove into the parking lot and Mark went with him to sign us in which left you and Jack in the car, alone, you were just watching some Jack, Mark, and Felix  edits which made you smile till your cheeks hurt.

"Whatcha watchin?" J
"Uhm, just some edits."

He looks over and sees that's it's them and it just so happen to be at a part where they were shirtless n stuff, you blushed madly because you knew he was watching and you guessed he was blushing too, you were just too embarrassed to look at him.

"*clears throat* d-do you watch those often?" J
"Y-yeah."
He smirks.
"How often?" J
"Very."
"Did you like what you see?"
"Oh shushie!" Of course you did.
"Oh wait until I tell them!" J
"Oh my god, please dont!"
"So, it will be our little secret?" He said doing the eyebrow thing.
"Uh-uh um  yeah sure." You say staring into his eyes and blushing while remembering that fucking quote and the eyebrow thing.

Luckily Felix  and Mark returned and we headed twords  our rooms, we only got two since there would be pairs.

"So, who's gonna be with Y/N?" M

They all look at you.

"Uh, um, it's up to you people, I don't really care who's in the room with me."

They discuss it between them and you end up with Jack.

We separate and head to our rooms.

"What are we gonna do when we get to the end of our road trip?"
"I dunno, but we're gonna have as much fun as possible!" J

Mark and Felix come over and we play board games and listen to music until we're tired. They both left after like 3 hours or so because we arrived at 11 so yeah.

"Are you seriously tired?" J
"No I just got bored playing board games."
"Haha, is that what you really feel? Or...is it something else?" J
"Actually, I just wanted to read some fanfic  before I sleep and I'm halfway  there already so, yeah, I can stay up for like another 2 hours or so."

You get on the bed and start to read then you feel the bed dip and Jack was reading with you...which was really embarrassing for you because it was a Jacksepticeye x reader fanfic.

"Is that a Jacksepticeye x reader?" J
"Yes..."
He continues to read while smirking a little and you just continue reading.

You ended up blushing madly because it got to an...interesting part...they were kissing....you felt Jack scoot closer to you and you froze because what you were thinking was the impossible.

"Hey Y/N...I wanna try something..." He whispers in a deep voice.

"W-what is it?" You face him and stare into those...*sigh* beautiful eyes. He leaned in you start to blush madly, you were waiting for this moment literally forever, you only read it about it in fan fiction, he leaned closer and closer, your lips were about to connect then you heard a knock at the shared door between yours and Jacks room to Felix and Marks room.

"I DONT HEAR JACK TALKING! WHAT ARE YOU TWO DOING IN THERE?" Mark says being a douche waggle.
"IT CALLED WATCHING A MOVIE DOUCHE WAGGLE!"
"Douche waggle? Really? Wtf is a douche waggle?" F
"Mark Edward Fishbach."

You hear laughing from Felix and Jack and even though you can't see it you can tell that Mark is pouting and you're just giggling because hearing Jack and Felix laugh made you smile and giggle yourself because Mark, Jack, and Felix's  laughs were always one of the things they did to make you smile and laugh a little.

"OH MY GOD MARK! YOU JUST GOT OWNED!" You hear Felix say through laughter.
"Y-YEAH! OH MY GOD! THAT WAS HE BEST!" Jack says through his laughter aswell.

"Anyway, we're you really just watching a movie?" M
"Yes, until you interrupted us."
"Sorry" M
"It's okay Markimoo, next time just assume it's a movie or something like that."
"Fine." M

"I still want to try something..." Jack says.

Since you were looking away he turned your face twords him and leaned in again and you thought your cheeks were burning off because they were extremely hot, you kept staring into his blue eyes, you froze not knowing what would happen.

He kissed your cheek.

You were both relived and disappointed  at the same time.

"W-why did you do that?"
"I've never kissed your cheek, I wanted to try it." J
"Oh, okay."

We eventually got tired and decided to call it a night, we Jack did at least, I fell asleep on him...or so he thought, I just wanted to see what he would do.

"Oh Y/N, you're too precious for this world, I know you like me, Mark, and Felix...and I've seen your pictures of us on your tablet...it's sad to think what goes through your mind every second...you could be killing yourself in you head and we won't even know...I hope you can tell us whatever goes on in your head...I want to tell you what goes on in mine, you'll probably freak out but who knows...I love you, y/n." Jack said and kissed my head then rested his head on mine.

You were almost on the brink of tears because of what he said, you were about to fall asleep when Mark and Felix came I to the room.

"We heard what you said." F
"We agree, she's just too precious." M

You could tell they were all looking at you while you were "sleeping".

"What are we gonna do?" M
"I don't know." J

Were they really freaking out this much? Over me? You felt flustered at their words and emotions, luckily you're a great lier and actress so you can hide your emotions pretty well but can't really control blushing.

"Hey, do you guys remember that she never shows us her arms?" F
"Yeah, d-do you think she?" Mark said referring to self harm.
"Who knows, but there's only one way to find out." J

You were laying on you right side facing Jack so they only had one arm to inspect. They lifted your arm and saw all the scars that you had...there were a lot of scars...

"Oh my god, but she seems so happy when she's around us." M
"Maybe because we were the ones who made her stop...she did say in her memos and stories that we were the ones who made her truly happy."  J
"That's true....*smiles*...we really did save her." F

You felt Jack squeeze you tighter as if he was hugging you tighter.

"Do you guys wanna stay in this room for tonight?" J
"Yes." They said in union.

Jack stayed with me and Mark and Felix shared the other bed.

You woke up first surprisingly and sat up and looked over at them remembering last night and smiled, also they were shirtless. You blushed while looking at them because you've never seen them shirtless all at once, you've seen edits but his was real life, so you took a picture, you had the perfect angle so you got all three of them but it also made it look like they were naked so bonus right there. You giggled slightly and put away your tablet and did your morning routine, you took a shower and heard shuffling and light whispers, they were awake, you kept the shower going for a little then shut it off and you heard the talking stop, like time froze all of a sudden. You got out and dried off everything and put new clothes on and had brushed your hair and took a deep breath and walked out. They were In their boxers. You fucking blushed like crazy and really wanted to take a picture but you liked your first one so you just took this moment for what it was, besides, you'll probably get separate pictures of them like this later, being the spy-like fan girl that you are.

"Did you enjoy your shower?" F
"Yup."
"We need to talk." M
"Okay, what about?" You say sitting on one of the beds.
"We saw your scars last night." J
You winced slightly and grabbed you arm.
"What do you want to know?" You say looking down.
"Everything." F

"Well this was only like the 5th time it happend, the first time it happened, my best friend said she hated me so I just went into the bathroom and started to...you know..." you started to tear up because the memories were coming back and so were your thoughts. "I kept doing it and I wrote the words: SORRY, I'M FINE, HAPPY, and HUMAN. I wrote sorry because I said it too often and I hated that I did that, I wrote I'm fine because that's what I told people, I wrote happy because it was the mask I showed everyone, and I wrote human because humans bleed...and...and bleeding was the only thing reminding me that I was alive and human...it tortured me I also put a sad face and a dead face because I felt like I was dead and nobody cared so it made me sad....it happend for about 2 weeks then my parents found out and I immediately started crying because I never wanted anybody finding out...they tried helping, it worked for a bit but I still felt lost, confused, empty....dead....then I found Pewdie and things got better, he made me smile, laugh...then I stopped it got bad again...then I found Mark...I didn't watch him as much but when I did...he made me feel like I wasn't alone, I stopped the bad things returned, that lasted for about a month...then...then I found Jack....oh the things that I felt, I felt happy, I smiled till my cheeks hurt, I laughed till my throat ached, he made me feel alive and human again, I started watching all of you guys again and then I stopped because my mind said "There not here, they're just a screen, you're all alone, let us help you....get the knife...you know what to do." They said that as I cried for hours and the words. "You're all alone." Kept repeating in my head...eventually I gave up and this happened after being months clean...they made me think it felt good...I soon came to my senses when I saw myself shaking uncontrollably with the knife in my right hand and blood dripping down my left...I watched the blood leave my body and was quick to clean it up and tend to it, luckily nobody noticed until you guys did, so you're the first to see these...from my perspective it looked like I murdered somebody...afterwards my arm stung like I burned it but I ignored it and went on my tablet and I looked up fan art of you guys and I found this picture...it was of Jack...." you showed them. "Then I found more and more until I found one that had all of you on that said "You're not alone."

I was shocked and tried to find more and I did, I also found one that said "Not all heroes wear capes."

Then from that moment on I started thinking and I came up with that you guys are "My knights in shining headphones.", "My Youtuber warriors.", and most of all "My heroes." You finished and looked up at them, they were smiling with tears running down their cheeks and I'm sure you looked similar because you were crying your eyes out too.

"I...I didn't know that." Jack says clearly flustered.
"I don't know what to say." Mark adds to the conversation.
"Nobody ever told us that before..." Felix says probably at a loss of words himself.

"Thank you, just thank you so much...it feels good to have told somebody that...thank you so much.."

"You've never told anybody?" M
"No, I always thought that nobody would care or nobody would understand...so far I've met nobody who completely understands me, that's one of the reasons I watched you guys, even if you didn't know what I was going through, you always made me laugh or smile and made me forget about any situation no matter what."

They smile and sit next to you, reminder they are still in their boxers.

"Well now you found three." Jack says.

You look up and smile at them and hug them so tightly you never wanna let go but...you have a road trip with them.

"Thanks you guys." You give them all a kiss on the cheek and head to the car with your stuff wanting to continue this road trip. About ten minutes later they all come out with their stuff and fully clothed and we head off to wherever we were going.

Hey people, the self harm story is mine...I literally did all that and more, they helped so much and whatever thoughts and things said are true. I haven't found anybody to understand me, sure I have friends, but I want close friends, or a friend, someone I can talk to without judgement and someone who I can talk to and we can come to each other for a conversation or comfort, anything really.

Anyways, thank you guys, so much for reading this if you liked it, stick around, there's more to come! And as always

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