I smiled.

I gazed at my reflection in my mirror. I had no idea how much time I spent in front of my mirror narrating a part of my life.

A happy part.

Wait! NO!

Not a happy part...

"Luna you should say, a fake part!" I corrected myself ;still looking at my reflection.

"Since it was all fake. Right?"

"From the very beginning. From my arrival on this planet Earth till I don't what."

My lips were smiling but my eyes were not. They were sad as usual.
as always.

So it was a fake smile, a sad smile -  a smile which doesn't depict happiness!

I again tried my best to smile. I really wanted to smile the way I used to when I was a child.
But I failed. again.

"Luna just stop this drama" I said while looking at my reflection.
"Just stop it!" I yelled in frustration.

"It's not like people really care. They don't care, you remember! Right?
You still remember that time right?!"

The pain!!
The sorrow!!
The tears!!
The heartache!!

"If they don't care then you should stop caring  as well!" I advised myself while forcing a fake smile again.

"Why the hell my fake smile looks so damn beautiful!" I exclaimed while looking at myself.
For some unknown reason it looks real!
almost real!
"That's why they never noticed how broken and injured my soul is because they always noticed my damn fake but kinda beautiful smile!" I snickered in a scornful way.

"But I always wanted them to notice... Its not like I need some special attention or some crap like that... It just feels like they never really looked at me...as if I was not worth noticing..or they never wanted to do that... So that one day they all can just drop their act and play innocent" I sighed.

"But you know what I never wanted this to end like this. Never" I said while a great amount of melancholy started spreading inside my heart, the way lightening explodes in those dark grey skies during rain storms.

"I want to be happy... I really want to be... I really miss my real smile..." I mumbled while caressing my own face in the mirror.

I gazed at the dark brown eyes of  that girl in the mirror. Those eyes were begging something. They are craving for something. Something which is known but still feels unknown!

"I sound pathetic right?
I was pitiful. I'm pitiful. But I don't need sympathy!
I. really.don't.need!"

"And now I sound like a maniac but you know what I'm not a maniac... I'm a fool... You know Luna..  A FOOL"

"Because I believed... "

"Ugh..forget it... I think I should continue with my story...  So... When Alex told me that he told Adrian..."
I continued my story while looking at my own reflection in my mirror.

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"Wow! Alex is incredible! You know he told Adrian that I like him... And the worst part is he told him when they were in the toilet..and then when I asked him what was Adrian's expression or how he reacted after hearing it.. He just simply told me that they were inside that freaking toilet so he never noticed his expression because he was... Ahhh.... Ohhk that's it..." I told Ivy. I think I'm not supposed to say that in front of her since she is younger than me.

"ohh... hmm..." She said after a long pause. And then she was quiet like the clear dark night sky which was clearly visible from our window.

I opened the window. As usual a cool wind greeted me by ruffling my hair away from my forehead. I closed my eyes for few seconds and then I smiled gleefully at the moon. It was crescent but still it was shining with its full vigor. Cold winds and dark night skies with a shiny moon  just make a  perfect combination.

I gazed up at the moon. I blushed when it reminded me of today's incident. I saw the moon with him.

He was there, I was there,the moon was there and even the sun was there.
We all were together.

And that's when something popped inside my brain.

I took my pen out and searched for my diary.

Yes! My diary!

When I found my diary with black glittery covers, I opened it and softly turned those decorated pages. I decorated them myself with things I love the most like -  stars, hearts, flowers and sparks...
Poems were written inside it,
My first poems which were dedicated to him. Only him.
My diary was filled with him.
Just him.

I know I'm not a poet or someone who writes well but I always enjoyed doing this... I enjoyed writing about him...

I opened a blank page while a small smile lingered upon my face.

And then I wrote ---

“The moon met the sun in those skies...

When the winds were so free...
And the birds sat on the trees...

Those songs and croons of bird...
In hushed and happy dawn heard...

And that's when my eyes met his gaze...
That moment my heart raced...

His beauty was towering high...
Oh God! He's a home to heaven anigh...

There was nothing which my hands withhold...
But I swear that moment felt gold...

And then rang our school bell...
But there was no sadness of farewell...

Because
I was with him under those skies...
Where
The moon met the sun with shies... "

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I closed my diary. My smile was still there on my face. I sat on my bed while hugging my pillow. I inhaled. It still smell like lavender. I don't know why I love this smell so damn much. I slipped inside my duvet.

'How will he react.. Well how am I supposed to act when I'm in front of him... This situation is kinda weird because now he know that I like him...hmm I'll ask Alex that how am I supposed to act... Hmm its a good idea! ' I thought.

And that's when something or someone inside me told me that something bad is bound to happen very soon....but I again ignored this feeling and drifted off to sleep.

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"I was a fool who ignored the voice of my inner soul!"

"Something very bad was bound to happen in my life... After this..." I said while looking at my reflection.

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It's not always the tears that measure the pain...
Sometimes it's the smile that we fake...

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AUTHOR'S NOTE :-

I hope y'all still remember that Luna was narrating her own story to her own reflection from the very beginning...

This chapter contained a lot of emotions right?
But still I hope you all liked it!
And one more thing that poem above is written my me... Yeah by me... *giggles*
I know I'm not a poet so obviously my poem was not that good... But still I hope you liked it...

Thanks a lot again... For your love and support!

stay bright~
stay blessed~

~Mahi✨

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