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Affan's pov
"I don't know how to say this,but ever since i met you,you have been the only one in my mind and heart. Do you know the effect you have on me? Even in time of stress,I find myself calmer than usual . I always seem to find the lighter side of things and situation. This is so unlike me,the pessimist I used to be. I want to let you know that love is something eternal,the aspect may change but not the essence. I love you hauwa. I love you soo much Noorie." I confessed my feelings for her. I am currently with Noorie and I decided to tell her how I feel about her after a long lecture from Ya Maijida.

"I...."She trailed off.

"I want to get married to you Noorie. I just want to make you mine. I want to be part of you. A part of your life forever. I know saying' i love you'is powerful,yet I feel it is not enough. I want to be your halal. I want to be legally married to you." I said,smiling at her.

"I..i...don't know how to say this but..."

"You can give me a reply when you are ready. You will need some time to think about it." I said cutting her off.

"We can't be together." She said looking at everywhere but me.

"Why?" I asked calmly.

"My marriage has been arranged by my grandparents and I sorry I can't say no to them." She said with teary eyes.

I  felt a piercing stab in the chest. I can't even describe the heartache I am going through right now. I can't believe my ears. I love her so much. How can her marriage be arranged. I know I sound selfish now but I want to be selfish just for today. I want to be happy again. I never wanted to fall in love with anybody because of what I went through 8years ago. When I met Noorie,I had this feelings for her. I liked her instantly. I can't control my feelings for Noorie. I love her. After I decided to move on from the past, all I get is another heartbreak. In spite of all I faced 8years ago, I confessed my feelings to the woman I love and all I get as a reply is 'I am sorry, my marriage has been arranged by my grandparent' I like punching something. I can't handle this pain.

"It is okay Noorie. Please don't cry. If we are meant to be together then nobody can stop us from being together,but if we aren't meant to be together, I wish you all the best in life." I said trying to control my emotions.

"I am sorry Affan! I am sorry. I am sorry! I should have said no to them."

"It isn't your fault Noorie. You should respect their decision. They know better." I said giving her a half hearted smile. "I want you to go inside and rest Noorie but promise me you won't cry."

"I promise you." She said amidst tears.

"Good girl. Now wipe your tears." I said giving her my handkerchief.

"Thank you." She said giving me a small smile. "Bye." She muttered, avoiding eye contact. Why does it seems like she is saying a final goodbye to me? She is getting married so what do I expect? She should keep seeing me?

"Bye and thank you for giving me the best time of my life Noorie. I will only remember our good times together and I will try to live happily. I pray for your happiness too. Even if we can't be together,I want you to be always happy. I can never forget you in my life Noorie. I will always cherish our memories together. I wish you all the best. Bye!" I said giving her a sad smile.

"Bye" she said and made her way back to the house.

After staying there for about 30minutes,thinking about my messed up life. I deciced to go home.
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"How did it go?" Ya Maijida asked,excitedly. I went to Ya Maijida's house instead of going home. She found out about the feelings I have for Noorie and she advised me to tell her about it before it gets late. Unfortunately it is late.

"She is getting married." I replied her.

"What do you mean?" She asked with her brows furrowed . I narrated everything to her from the beginning to the end.

"But...."she trailed off. "Is there something we can do about it?" She asked after some minutes.

"I don't know." That was my response.

"You mean there is nothing we can do about it"

"I don't think we can do anything." I replied sadly. "I love her so much Ya Maijida. Why is my life so messed up? I want to be happy like others. I want know what it feels like to be happy again. Why is this happening to me Ya Maijida?" I asked trying to fight back my tears.

"Don't say that Affan. Your life is not messed up. You are just going through a tough time and it will all pass In sha Allah. If Noorie is meant to be with you then it will happen but if she is not,Allah will give you someone better." She said with glistening eyes. I don't want to look so weak infront of my sister but I can't control it. Ya Maijida has seen me in worse situations. She has always been supportive. She is someone I share my problems with all the time. Ya Maijida hardly talks but when she does,she says sensible things.

"Thank you." I said giving her a small smile.

"Have you eaten?" She asked.

"I am not hungry."

"But you have to eat it something. You haven't eaten anything today." I got really angry today. All because of Ammi's problems. She had an argument with Ya Maryam today. I tried talking to her and she transferred the aggression to me. I don't like the way she treats Ya Maijida and Ya Maryam. She always have something bad to say about them. Ammi was not like this before. She just changed all of a sudden. I know she is blaming them for what happened 8years ago. It is not their fault. I have tried my best to explain to Ammi that it is not their fault,but she is always adamant. My sisters have been nothing but supportive. They don't deserve Ammi's hatred.

"Affan! Affan!" Ya Maijida called tapping on my shoulder. "What are you thinking about? I have been calling you." She asked.

"Nothing. I was just thinking about work." I lied.

"Okay...."she trailed off. "Eat" she said pointing at the snacks and orange drink on the table. I didn't even notice when she got up.

"Thanks." I said giving her a small smile. Honestly I don't have appetite,but Ya Maijida won't leave me alone if I don't eat.

"Assalamu'alaikum."  Yumna said coming inside the livingroom.

"Wa'alaikum sallam." Me and Ya Maijida replied.

"Ya affan?" Yumna called unsure. "You are here." She said and jumped on me.

"How are you Yum Yum?"

"I m fine Ya Affan. When did you come?" She inquired.

"I came here since in the morning. Your Mami said you went to your granny's house."

"Yes. I went there since in the morning. I had lots of fun today." She told me about all the things she did at her grandparent's house.

"That is enough for now. Tell Rabia to check on Mahir and Mahira . I think they are awake." Her mum said. I think rabia is her housemaid.

Shortly after,Rabia came to the livingroom with the adorable twins.

"What are you giving these twins? They are so chubby and cute." She chucked.

"The normal food we eat and baby food. They eat alot."

"I can see that. Your family likes food alot."

"What do you mean?" She asked glaring at me.

"I am telling you the truth. You,your husband,Yumna,Mahir and Mahira you all eat alot.

"You are a joker. She said and rolled her eyes. After chatting with my sister for about 30minutes,I decided to go home.

"I am going home . I have unfinished work." I said.

"You are always working. Take a break." She said shaking her head.

"It helps me take my mind off things." I said looking at the center table.

"Don't think about it too much. Pray to Allah for guidance."

"In sha Allah." I said curtly.

"Should i drive you back home?" She inquired.

"Nothing is wrong with me. I can manage."

"Okay. My regards to everyone" she said smilling.