to make a long story short i sometimes i wish i wrote something differently than what i published so this is how i would write certain chapters of fics or full stories that i have written because... why not 🧍

so... if you haven't read and want to read any of these i advice you just... leave

in order i'll be talking about

1.) the love club
2.) my song for you, lover, did i mention
3.) name game
4.) just wanna be with you
5.) glimpse of us

if you want you can agree or disagree with anything i say i don't care i would actually like to talk about it :)

i thought about this whole rewrite thing because i was writing my freddie benson fic and realized i can't post the chapter until i finish the five chapters above it 🤭

anyways

season one

i think i like how i formatted season one of the love club and that i got to express each member before setting the main focus on ricky and shiloh so that wouldn't change, but i think i would've changed the personalities of some of the characters i created especially dylan :/

dylan was just supposed to be this weird ex that wanted shiloh back but i think i made it a little too dramatic with his antics especially with how i'm writing/plan on writing him for season three of the show.

i also would've liked if a expanded on how shiloh befriended the members because if i can remember i think i only touched on how they became a club and nothing more 🧍 i think the love club is cute and though my ideas reach far and wide for them i can't be too happy because tim loves pulling the hair from my scalp

i also would discussed ej and shiloh's relationship a lot more than what i did even though they did break up after two weeks of dating. like why and how did ej and shiloh meet? why did they talk? how did they even get that far into a relationship to the point he bought her homecoming dress? like hello 😭

i adore the relationship between ricky and shiloh my favorite couple hands down, but i feel like i separate the characters from the show so much it's insane. i almost make ricky my own oc instead of making him ricky bowen if that makes sense. like him popping off a shiloh at points seems so random without much explanation so i wish i would've either explored that or ignored it completely

other than that i don't think i would've changed much of season one of the love club very much satisfied with my work you can't change my mind on that 🫡

season two

i think it's a common opinion that season two of the show is not the best of the series and i tried my best to make it work in my fic but tim really cried himself to sleep with season two reviews and AS HE SHOULD

with that said, i made the love club famous and i think the peak fame that got which was tv interviews, teen vogue, things like that may have been too much for the time. i debated whether or not the club should've been famous or not because overnight success seems rare and i didn't know if that was a good thing to try and even do but then tim basically gave nini her overnight success so... slay for me. i just wish i would've let the fame be small before building up because i think that would make shiloh's stress in season three seem more understandable and real than again... it's a fanfic so 🧍

as crazy as this sounds i think i should've kept ricky and shiloh broken up because that would've made season three more fun to write it seems that whole what do you know about love scene would've ATE if they had been broken up oh the regret just sat with me

i simply can't talk about season two anymore it just doesn't exist because it's so bad

season three

by the time i publish this episode 307 of hsmtmts should be out and that's the second to last episode of season three so...

i brought dylan back without truly knowing what i was doing and his presence seems awkward at times but i truly couldn't find a way to make ricky that mad at ej to slap him i wrote that slap scene 4 different ways...

• "Look, dude. I know we don't exactly see eye to eye."

"You think?"

"I know." Dylan smiled, "But I came here for Shiloh. To fix our relationship."

"Relationship."

"Come on, Ricky.

• "So, that Lily girl? That's her name right? Isn't it EJ? I think that's what he said in his very lengthy voicemail."

Ricky cut his eyes from Dylan to EJ as he continued.

"Let me guess... you broke up with Shiloh. God, good for you man. I never got the chance

• "Come on, dude." Dylan smiled, playfully pushing Ricky back, "The only reason why you started this theater stuff was for that girl right, Nina? I mean, that's why you came to the club in the first place. Couldn't get that girl so you moved on to the next best thing. Jenna wasn't available?"

• Dylan knew that Ricky wasn't going to slap him for no good reason.

"Look, man." Dylan started, resting his hand on Ricky's shoulder, "You're lucky."

"What are you talking about?"

"Shiloh, obviously. Look she's real easy."

"Easy?"

"Yeah, like easy." Dylan took a step back, "I mean, come on EJ you were with

with that said i feel like some of that shit was too far 😭 so i can say i'm happy with the route that i took instead because... wtf

anyways

i also wish i introduced victoria earlier because her crush on gina feel very random even though i tried to explain why it was okay for her to like someone so quickly because ricky and shiloh have been dating for like 6-7 months? in retrospect which is crazy because wtf

but i'm satisfied with how i written season three so far so nothing else to add unless tim starts pulling my teeth out along with my hair

season one

i feel like gideon's story is so dramatic and i hate it. i wrote my song for you literally when the episode of season one dropped i think and it was going to be an ej caswell fics because matt was the only face i could instantly recognize. anyways her story is very dramatic it feels

very cliché as well. because her, ricky, and nini we're all friends before ricky and nini began to date and leave gideon behind like... been there done that sorta thing

i also wouldn't have made the chandler family so big like why is she living with her 2 uncles, her father, her dad's girlfriend, and a sibling on the way... i'm pretty sure i was rewatching full house when i was making the cast so forgive me

i also think i wouldn't have hannah been so mean towards the end of book one. i actually like writing friendship scene because you can do whatever and it doesn't matter as long as they're having fun you know

also i give almost all my oc's anxiety because i have it and i had it for years so it feel so easy to write what i go through and tell it through them in a way if that makes any sense, but i don't think gideon would have anxiety like that like to the point where she's crying because people are arguing about her and her anxiety is brought up once which was and is terrible for me to do because like... anxiety isn't just gonna go away like that

i also wish i wrote the interactions between the chandler family different because i can see how and why some of what i wrote was worded wrong and to this day people are arguing in my comments about what's good parenting and what's not which was never my mindset when i wrote that chapter out

i also wrote out the interview parts in season one which some people liked but looking back i hate that so much 😭

overall i really wish i wrote my song for you differently because i do like gideon and i think i ruined her by making her feel dramatic in ways

season two

book two doesn't help my case either 🧍

i bring up gideon's mom in season one which i find highly unnecessary because it truly made not different because i sent gideon off to live with her mother who she and literally everyone who read hated i feel like it was pointless and it shouldn't have been in the first or second book whatsoever

but having ricky and gideon break up and get back together is something i would keep i don't think i would change that and with how i have season three of this book written down i think it's gonna benefit them so not a flaw good for me

i also like how hannah and gideon are slowly getting back into the groove of things even though i said i wish she wasn't so mean but i wanted them to have a falling out either way 🧍

i don't know if book two is written better than book one but regardless i wish i wrote both stories differently

whole book

first off this story shouldn't be called name game i was lazy and couldn't think of anything good and i just so happened to be listening to "name game" you know "judy judy bo budy bonana fanna fo fudy" from american horror story which i've never seen 😭

i also think gabriela and kendall were hella toxic towards the end of the book and that's because i wrote her in place of jo and jo should've left kendall at the end because that shit was ridiculous 😭

i don't mind the slow burn of the two it doesn't bother me at all i just wish a lot of it was different and i couldn't tell you why

i was literally going through something so bad when i was writing this fic and i was updating it everyday at one point so i truly didn't put my self first like i should've so i think that's an added factor of why i wish it were different

also her name is gabriela machado. i got machado from that one youtuber dez machado and just ran with it 😭

i would write a different kendall fic but i simply can't because... i met him and after meeting him i feel awkward writing a fic about him and two i don't think it would be a good idea

finally, i did end up changing gabriela's career path mid fic from wanting to be a singer to being a songwriter and this reader was holding this tight ass grip on my neck for changing it like it was not that serious babe i was actually satisfied with my change because it meant i could write more scene with her and kendall but like anyways

whole book

i had big plans for lennon in season two trust me but the show got canceled and now people are saying it's coming back but girl i do not think it's coming back 😭

anyways i also gave lennon anxiety because i felt like it fit her but i did struggle writing it because i simply didn't want to place myself in her shoes which i didn't towards the end anyways but i tried my best to write it in a way that was sensible

i love how i wrote lennon and carrie's relationship because i truly did hate carrie when i first watch but that girl literally did not have one true friend by her side and i just had lennon sitting there

i also don't mind that i didn't write much of lennon, flynn, and julie's friendship because i didn't care 🤭 and i still don't care if a season two were to come i would expand on it but whatever at this point

i do however wish i got lennon interacting with reggie and alex more specifically reggie because i wrote him as wanting to her lennon singing so bad and though he did i wish she would've sang a little tune for him sooner

now, luke and lennon. i feel like i completely erased luke towards the end of the story like i was writing him as my own oc instead of luke patterson. i do however love how i wrote the story of luke and lennon that plot was sickening and everyone ate it up i girlbossed with that one i literally haven't seen anyone do a fic like that with this show and if you have please let me know i wanna read it /gen

i would however change the title of the story. i love the title being just wanna be with you BUT you are the music in me was right there and i didn't even glance it's way

i like the relationships lennon does have with carrie, luke, her father, and caleb. especially caleb. i feel like i wrote that very well and wouldn't change that. i like how it takes time for carrie and lennon to open up to each other.

also almost killing lennon 🤭 not slay i think it was extreme at some points but luke and lennon are literally soulmates if he was zapping hers would be worse because she's human 🤩

overall, nothing to really complain about other than writing that damn kissing scene at the end fuck that

ALSO lennon's playlist 🫶 my true savior it was fun picking random song that i felt fit with what was going on and the lyrics to match my personal favorite

whole book

i had the name olivia lovell set for a chad dylan cooper fic but i wanted glimpse of us out immediately and just switched the name over to her

i watched the show as i was typing chapters out which was lowkey dumb of me to do because i ended up changing the love interest to the brother last fucking minute BUT i always knew that jeremiah and olivia were gonna break up that was my whole thing before even seeing the show that if i wrote a fic i would have my oc date someone and they would break up

i don't have much to say about glimpse of us but i do wish i wrote more for conrad and olivia before the romance between them started

with how season one ends which is still really weird in my eyes i don't think i could've done much differently than what i had put if it had been anything different

some people liked that i was putting in my authors notes how i was slowly switching from jeremiah to conrad it genuinely is funny to me because i thought jeremiah was gonna be it for me but conrad i love that white man

now, i got SHIT on tiktok for cast anna cathcart as my oc but 🧍 it's the internet and i did nothing wrong because she's 19 and so is lola tung do like argue with that wall at that point

i wish olivia wasn't so shy but there's a reason for that and that's because she's been cheated on too many times and that affected her for real

so whoever season two does come out i hope i watch before i start writing because 🤭 silly me tbh i hope conrad doesn't do any stupid shit

and for now that's it 🤭

— lucy has something to say !!

this is 2606 words this is longer than every chapter i posted yesterday 😭

gina <3

bye :))))