content warning: sex and sexual themes :)

i have said plenty of times that i should stay away from dating apps but my life is so boring that i can't resist

so i downloaded bumble and deleted it 4 days later so good for me

i always do this thing where guys get my snap and then i block them later for either being nasty as hell, being hella sexual, or they are boring me

the last guy i was sorta not really talking to only wanted to have sex with me and then told my friend he didn't know who i was so i had to block and run

anyways new guy we'll name him: weed

anyways i matched with weed on bumble the day i got it and had been a few hours and then we messaged each other and i deadass read his message wrong and told him after that he got my snap

we didn't talk the first day he added me but we talked for 3 days after... sent snaps 3days after and we were supposed to hang out tomorrow

but i'm getting ahead of myself

we had a normal conversation at some point which he somehow turned around and made it sexual

he asked me what i was into and when i told him i've never done anything with anyone he managed to tell me his kinks

HIS KINKS OH LORD SJJSJSJA

which included but aren't limited to: spitting, choking, and using toys, plus some other stuff i don't remember lol

friday comes and we don't talk a lot and he'd leave me on delivered for hours and the same with today (saturday april 16th) and he said he felt like ass but i think i'm just boring him at this point who knows my friend says i'm not and they are pretty blunt with me so ill believe them :)

so why can't we hang out on sunday :)

he said his best friend that goes to college (weed doesn't go to college ) was supposed to come today (saturday) but he's coming tomorrow

and while i'm relieved that i have more time to prepare myself for this meeting i'm lowkey disappointed because i was preparing myself and almost missed a family function for him
(this family function i'm still trying not to go to because my great grandma said some shit to my mom like HELLO)

idk i was just telling my friend that i'm not desperate and i will never ever be desperate but i would like to have more irl friends or something because i really only have 2 irl people who i can count on and stuff so it kinda sucks idk lol help

but who knows maybe some other time i guess :)

this is why i never let my oc's be sad for too long

BYE I JUST REMEMBERED SOMETHING

when i told him i've never done anything with anyone he said that was fine and he didn't want to push me into doing something i didn't want to do and he proceeded to go back and say "yeah i would make out with you though you have nice lips"

NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I HEARD THAT 😭😭

— lucy has something to say !!

am i the problem? no men just don't know they want me yet!

will there be a part 2 we'll see my friend told me to invite him to the party so i did 🧍

bye :))))