Hello people! I know this book has gone through enough of the troubles and it's really been underestimated by me  a lot. I know. I owe this book a huge ass sorry because seriously, Hands down this book is my life. I really want to write it with absolute that I have had. So from now on, a little pause to the other book and replay on this one. 

Hey! I love my babies! (Wanda, Fidelio and Flynn.)

* Flynn's POV *

The days pass, but it seems as if the time remains constant. Unchanged. Nothings seems interesting or attractive. Not even this place of my dreams I am living in. What good is this place if there is no happiness in it? 

"Ne! Sekai ni kaerou!" a voice bellowed. I came back to my senses only to find my boss giving me a death glare. I quickly stumbled to stand up, throwing the file of papers on my desk in the process so that the papers flew out of it and everywhere. Some papers landedat the man's feet as his completely horrifying gaze travelled to my face again. He stomped towards me, making me feel mortified. (Hey you! Return to the world!)

"Gomen'nasai!" I quickly muttered as he approached me. His fingers suddenly curled around the front of my shirt as he pulled me towards him with extreme force. (I am sorry!)

"Iranai! Anata ga kaiko sa rete iru!" He shouted at me and pushed me back. (I don't need it. You are fired!)

"Ie! Korekara mo daijobuda to yakusoku shimasu!" I panicked and started saying whatever came in my mind to save my job. I really needed it. Not for money. But for my sanity. I remember when I first came here and had no job. I used to go crazy staring at the walls and getting bored. I couldn't let it go like that. (No please! I promise I will be fine from now on!)

"No more chances...deteike!" He said in his Japanese accented English, turned around and left. (Get out!)

I can't believe I have lost this one too.

Ughg!

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I walked at the busy road, feeling nothing but emptiness hold me it's prisoner. The hallow feeling crept up my spine and then down it. I really had no idea what was happening to me. I felt as if I had nothing inside my body, no mind, no heart and no soul. 

But then how can someone be alive if he had nothing left inside him?

A sharp horn resounded my whole body as I turned to where it was coming from. A car screeched as it came to a halt right next to my left side, inches away as I shielded my eyes for the impact which somehow never came. But some other noise reverberated in the air around me. 

Some beautiful Japanese vocabulary of curse words.

"Yopparatteru no? Notarin! Baka!" He emptied the anger from his heart. Then calmly sitting down again in the car. I was quick to get out of the way this time. I really don't want to increase my vocabulary in Japanese curse words. This man already increased it beyond limits. (Are you drunk? Dumbass! Idiot!)

I can't believe my zoning out almost got me killed. 

 I walked to my apartment. Our apartment actually. I still hadn't gotten used to the idea that I was now with Amy. Living with her in the same apartment. I made my way to the elevator, saying a quick 'Kon'nichiwa!' to Yuhio, a girl who had an apartment in the same building as ours. She smiled a big smile, causing her eyes to almost close, as she waved at me. The elevator dinged as it took me up. The apartment door was exact opposite of the elevator door. When the doors opened, I made eye contact with a man standing in front of my door. An inevitable huge smile came upon my lips as I hurriedly jogged towards him, nearly throwing him off balance in the process of a rib-crushing hug. 

"Ughg...I don't wanna die before helping you..." He groaned.

"Oh uhh yeah...Sorry but which help? Why are you here John?" I asked him, my senses returning to me. I was so so extremely happy to see him after so much time. I dearly missed him. But where was Flora?

"Did Flora come with you?" I asked out of curiousness.

"No, I didn't tell her I am here." He replied.

"Why not?" I found myself asking.

"I am here to help you out of the scary scary situation you are in. I know you aren't happy. I can see it from your eyes." He said. John knew Flora loved him, she wouldn't be able to see him like this. She would be broken herself.

"Let's talk inside." I simply said, ringing the doorbell. A few moments later Amy opened it.

"Hi!" She greeted both of us, "I am so sorry I happen to forget your name." She told John. He told her his name as she smiled and gestured for us to come inside. She told us that she would make some coffee for us as we sat down on the sofa. 

"So...How are you liking Japan from your first view?" I tried to make some casual conversation. Dropping onto the real talk seemed way too creepy right now. Neither do I think I am ready for it.

"It's good. But coming to the thing I came here for...What are you doing?" He asked me. Surprised by his urgency to rush the conversation, I felt myself sulk into the sofa a bit. 

"I-I uhh...I am-was doing a job in an offic-"I started.

"No. I meant what are you doing with your life?" He cut me.

"With life...I am living it." I tried to sound as much genuine as possible. But it seemed as if he wasn't buying that at all.

"Cut the crap. Just tell me everything. From how much time, your current stress condition, don't skip anything. You know me. I know you. Just speak up" He said. I had to speak up now. If I keep on hiding it, Then it will build inside me more. I almost got into an accident because of it!

"John I-"I started, feeling the lump build inside my throat. "I am drained. Emotionally, spiritually, physically...in every way. I am seriously just done! okay? done with everything. It's been like this from more than a year and a half. Maybe more than that. I have no idea why. I don't even remember when was the last time I felt happy and content with my life. I feel like I lost that part of me" I felt tears sting my eyes.

"Hey Flynn..." John got up from his sofa to come sit next to me. "It's okay. I completely understand you. You are strong you know, I would never be as strong as you in the situation you are going through. Just one more question...Are you happy with Amy?" He asked me the thing I was afraid to answer to myself about. Turning towards him, I blinked back the tears. 

"I don't think I am" I spoke truthfully. "But it's not like she isn't good or anything. She is absolutely amazing human. She tries to keep me happy and even does the things I am supposed to do. She is trying her best on her part of this relationship...But...But I am behaving in a wrong manner. I don't do anything for her. She never complains. I put her through a lot. I am not even doing my part of the relationship. If she stopped then there is nothing holding us two together." 

Just as I finished, Amy appeared from the kitchen, holding up the tray on which three mugs were set.

"Here's the coffee!" She cheered.

She came towards us sporting her perfect smile, unaware of the tension in the room. She set the mugs in front of us, taking her own in her hand as she sat down on the chair opposite of us. I lowered my eyes, unable to look at her any longer.

"I have to tell you something" John suddenly said as my panic grew tenfolds. I grabbed his arm, staring at him in a manner to tell him no. He looked at me reassuringly, before speaking again.

"Flynn isn't happy living with you."

"What? I don't get the meaning" She said, shock and confusion written all over her face. 

"Amy...You are absolutely amazing. But...I don't feel happy. I have found out the reason for my emptiness. It is the inability to be happy here, to keep you happy. I think...I think I can't be with you anymore." I said at last. The thing I feared the most to even think. I said it today. 

"Y-You...I..." She started. 

Amy was speechless. She didn't know what to say! She had lived with him and never passed a day when she didn't fell all over in love with him again. She had tried her best in this. She had given her all. 

"Why?" it spilled from her mouth, a tear falling from her eye and onto her cheek.

"Amy I...I have no idea. I know you gave your whole to me but...I have nothing to give to you. I know I took so much time in deciding that. I am sorry. But I know that my sorry is not enough." I came nearer to her. She sniffed, wiping her cheek.

"Is it another girl?" She asked me softly. Only then it hit me. Yes! Yes it was  another girl, another woman, who my heart had chosen to love and refused everyone else. It was her all along. I had wanted her all along. Maybe all this pain is because of this.

"Yes...her name is Wanda." I felt myself claim the true feelings, my heart finally feeling at rest, the pain being slowly gone.

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Hello guys! I am so extremely sorry. I know that was a pathetic chapter but what can I say. When my characters are going through a pathetic time so the chapters will go through the same...BTW who is proud of Flynn for finally listening to his heart. Also I feel sorry for Amy, she really deserves someone who will bring her stars from the sky. She is absolutely sincere with Flynn...But I guess some matches are made in Heaven. Maybe Flynn's is with the girl he so fell in love with.

Till Next Time!

Bye Bye Beautiful Readers!

Wania Ejaz Abbasi.