btw I have a new tag book and not to self promo but I might leak some spoilers for this if you want. Also go listen to "Sing to Me Instead"

Right after the events of Chapter 10
Connor's POV

I have no idea what just happened. None. Kevin had to leave because this mom called him and I haven't left this spot on my bed since. I was shocked? Excited? Relieved? Scared? I'm not sure to be completely honest. I had so many questions for Kevin.

Are we "together"?
Is he gay?
Is he actually willing to give up and go against his beliefs to be with me? That can't be easy, and he barely knows me.

Even after what happened, I still tried not to get my hopes up, simply because it was so easy for Kevin to change his mind. He would meet some Mormon girl whose soulmate was also a girl and they would pretend. It would be so much easier for him. I wanted to text him, but then I'd seem desperate and I didn't want that. Relationships are hard.

Then my phone buzzed and I looked down to see a text from Kevin.

Kevin
I just wanted to tell you, even though I like you a lot, maybe we shouldn't date yet? I don't want my parents to know and they have had a really tight leash on us recently since some... Stuff went down.

Kevin
Please don't be under the impression that I don't like you, I'm just not okay enough with myself to date you yet. That and my parents are u l t r a Mormons and wouldn't exactly be ok with it.

Connor
That's fine, thanks for telling me why at least.

Not gonna lie, that kinda sucked. I'm pretty sure I like Kevin a lot, but he makes a lot of sense. I really wanted to ask what the "stuff" was but I decided I shouldn't do that.

I was about to get started in some homework when my phone buzzed again.

Kevin
How do you delete a text message?

First order of business as Kevin's friend (?): Teach him how to use his cell phone.

Kevin's POV

I left Connor's house feeling like a giddy 12 year old girl who just had her first kiss. I knew even talking to Connor right now was risky but I had to. And boy was I glad I did, Mom and Dad can fight me. (Whoa Kevin sounding a little too Virginia there)

I walked back to the library and called Jack to pick me up. I couldn't walk all the way from Connors house to mine, and I couldn't have Jack pick me up from Connor's.

I was really happy after finally talking to Connor and k i s s i n g him, but I realized as I was walking home that I couldn't date him. Not with this whole mess going on, it would be too risky. If mom and dad found out, I was done for, and it would probably make them lose it about Jo. I talked to him yesterday and he formally came out to me as transgender ftm. I was proud of him and a lot more ok with it than I would've been two weeks ago.

For some reason talking to Jo made me feel better about myself. Also about coming out to my parents in the future. If they hadn't kicked out Jo yet, they probably wouldn't do that to me.(*coughs violently*) I mean, if all they did to Jo was make him do more church activities then that's what I would have to do right? (*continues coughing*) Mom and Dad wouldn't approve of me and this whole mess I'm in, but if they took it easy on Jo, they'd probably take it easy on me. (*coughs like my dad that has pneumonia*)

I decided I should go to bed a little earlier because we were starting light and sound tomorrow and beginning to work with the orchestra (betcha forgot the play was happening)(I did too for a second oopsie).
Only two weeks until dress rehearsal...

About 650 words

Sorry for the super short and kinda bad chapter. I haven't been super ✨ inspired ✨ recently but I wanted to give y'all something. So I have a new tag book (back at it again with those promos) if y'all want me to give you a sneak peak of future events then I probably will lol. Alrighty don't forget to comment, share, and vote. Thanks for reading and have a nice day!!
          ~ Virginia