Today or yesterday
I don't remember when I stopped to hate
So sick to try, to push you from the other edge

I just feel sad now
Now, you know,
I feel so sad
Just sad, so sad ~

But the fact is I remember everything

The way you open the door, I wish I could make a stop at it
And clean your feet, you enter in my world please respect it
You leave these wet clothes, take off the work's glasses, but I don't see your father's costume hung
Where is it ? Did you miss something from the beginning 'til your room
" Hello ? How are you ? Goodbye ? "
It seems that time flies and I forgot who you were
The mouth stays shut, any thoughts swallow by your hardened face
Happy ? Sad ? Only angriness exist when you need it
She gnawns your lungs as much as money give birth to conflicts

Its hurt but I should talk
Don't used, I'm scared of a smile
Don't used, I'm scared of any reactions you'll do
Its hurt but

The fact is I'm already used of everything

That's true, memories of my childhood come crashing over my nights
I'm not this lil' boy to who you could make believe life is a joke
I felt so high on your shoulders, now it's better alone with a cigarette far from you and mom
Time built a border when words stopped to make sense
The wound seems too deep that I wish to have never had a dad, to never have to know someone like you !

Mom you too.

I'm not envious of the others, I don't know how to do a conversation with any father
It's to late for us, we seem froze at that state
I'd like to still search in my fucking head, but our soul of dad and son is literally gone

The fact is our relationship is nothing.

It might be my mistake ? Who' s knows ? The problem is we're vain
Stuck in that fatality pain, we never tried to change
Become closer now would be like seeing our true self in the mirror
Nobody can accept to drop the armor, yeah let's hide our weakness !
Even a glimpse, let it slide in a corner,
Eyes down I can't stop to think about that fear : the new me who' s growin'.... being you !
I should give up the family, throw pictures, throw smiles and the fake ones
Yes while we play, let's drop the bad cards
See that at the end
When the game is over,
Everything is left,
Everything is over !

Listen,
I'm happy to dedicate you that song
Even,
if only anger can bind us,
I'll let the lil' child I've been join at your afterlife