My legs carried me towards the back gate, towards her tree.

The bell that ended the lunch period had already rung and I was really risking being late for math. But that didn't stop me from walking further away nor walking faster.

I wondered what would she think. Would she be happy that I actually kept my promise? Would this accelerate our friendship on its path so she was comfortable enough to tell me things? Or would she reject me like Rose had rejected her helping hand?

I got my answer as I rounded the corner. There her tree full of thorns stood tall as if a guardian of the gate but she wasn't there.

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Mrs.Vlad (Yes, short for Vladimir) was not impressed by my punctuality and gave me fifty debits for late coming and disrespect towards educators. I didn't mind. I wasn't in the mood for the usual routine of my life.

I sat in the corner of our maths class. Ivory to my left and of course Charles in front of me. Rebecca sat on the other side of the class and Katherine in front of her.

Evenly spread out... Less likely to attack me.

I have no doubt they saw or even heard about what I did. They weren't exactly on the top of the hierarchy but they were close enough to be informed. That and Ivory probably told Charles already.

I only took my books out after Mrs.Vlad shouted at me for doing nothing. What was happening?

So why did I risk it? Why was Adeline so important to me all of a sudden? She hadn't done anything for me, to me, at all. My bestfriend...No,my girlfriend was sitting next to me. What did Adeline have over her to make me act like that?

As soon as the questions formed, I realized I didn't need to answer them. She was already important to me. My heart had decided that before my entire being could catch up. I had risked it and if given the chance I'd probably do it again. Was the why to these answers that important to me?

I turned and tried catching those miniature suns I had become so used to but they averted me completely. What was that stupid saying? Don't get used to something because as soon as you do, it'll be gone.

She was already slipping and I didn't want to be there to clean up.

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I laid on my bed, scrolling through my Instagram feed. One of the many direct feeds was a selfie of some hot girl. It wasn't my eyes that were fixated though but my ears. The feed had a music background of some guy named Xxxtentacion.

His music called to everything I hid. My darkest parts, my secrets, my insecurities. Something about him made me want to let it out but not even Adeline could handle that bad.

My fingers somehow found myself in Adeline's chat filled with messages but I didn't open it. Something told me not to. The fact that my whole body told me no spoke wonders.

Authors note

Life's so hard and I had originally planned this to be a happy chapter but it's hard to draw on happiness when everything's down. Enjoy your week and the trailer.