Two chapters in one day. Things you do for the people you love. I mean my readers. 🤓😘😘😍😘😍😘

Though it's been awhile now

I can still feel so much pain

I know I could have saved our love

If I had known what to say

Instead of making love

We both went our separate ways

Back when Aman and I were happy, back when everything was fine, there was one night when he made me a promise.

I was sleeping peacefully. I had gone into a deep sleep after doing something with Aman that got us both exhausted. But I couldn't feel his arms around me and as I felt around at my side, he wasn't there. I sat up on the bed with half open eyes, half asleep but craving for him to be on the bed with him.

I looked towards the bathroom but the lights were off. The living room were off too but I could see a lot more than usual light coming in.

Too sleepy, I wrapped the velvet comforter around my naked self to go check.

There was Aman, sitting on the window sil, smoking. He looked deep in thought.

He saw me come in and got up. "Baby, what are you doing awake?"

"Come to bed," I heard myself say. I was too tired to make sense or form any coherent thoughts. "I can ask you the same."

He sat on the couch. And gestured towards his lap. I walked towards him and settled myself on his lap. His right hand lightly rubbed my back. "What's wrong ?" I asked him.

"I had a nightmare."

"What was it about?"

"You were leaving me."

I kissed him on his cheek. "I won't ever do that."

He smiled. "Mira.."

"Yes?"

"There is something I need to tell you."

"Is it going make me happy or is it going to make me sad?"

"It can make you sad," he said.

"Then don't tell me. Not right now.." i said and he looked confused. "This moment is too perfect and I don't want to ruin it."

He considered that for a moment.

"Mira."

"Yes honey?"

"I can't promise you that you won't ever cry but I promise you that you won't be alone when you do. I can't promise you that we won't fight but I promise we will solve it anyhow. I can't promise you that you will be always smiling but I promise I'll do my best to make you smile whenever I can. All I need you to do is promise that you won't leave. Promise me?"

Almost emotional I replied, "I promise honey."

He smiled then carried me off to our bedroom.

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"Let me make you happy," i heard Raven say.

"What do you mean?"

"Hang out with me. Get to know me."

"You mean date?"

"We don't need to label it, I understand you are not ready."

The driver stopped. We had reached my destination.

"Talk to you later, Raven. Thank you for everything. Bye." And then I rushed out the car.

What was happening all of a sudden ?
I kissed Aman today and this time I wasn't drunk.

That has to be something right?

I need to speak to him. I went up the stairs, opened the door with the extra set of keys that I had. All the bedroom lights were off.

Maybe he was asleep.

His bedroom was empty.

"Aman?" I called out a couple of times. No response.

He wasn't home.

Defeated I sat down on the living room couch.

Where was he ?

I love him.

I can't be without him.

And he is out at night..

He didn't even bother asking me where i was going. He was dressed himself when i was leaving.

He didn't call me or text me. He said nothing after the kiss.

He is doing exactly what i asked him to do.

He is moving on.

Exactly after I revamped all my feelings for him again. He is probably having fun, enjoying while I was just thinking of him all night.
Why did he have to kiss him ?

I don't know when exactly but  after a couple of hours, I fell asleep on the couch.

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I woke up in the morning. I checked the time. 8.

I fell asleep on the couch itself. Was Aman back yet ?

I looked around and saw him come out the bedroom. Our eyes locked in and the he ignored me.

Why was he ignoring me?

"Good morning, Aman." I said.

"You are talking to me?"

Why was he being so rude? My phone buzzed.

Hey, you should have told me if I hurt you.

This is no way Mira.

Texts from Raven.

All from  Raven. He is probably mad that I rushed out without saying proper goodbye.

I kept my phone aside.

"Why won't I?"

"Well, I am glad you are."

"Why did you kiss me yesterday?" I asked. I couldn't keep it in any longer. Better brace up and ask.

"Forget it. It was a mistake. I am sorry."

"What do you mean ?" I felt extremely hurt. He thought kissing me was a mistake ?

"I am sorry. I won't do it again. 35 days to go."

"For what?"

"For you to leave and be free from here."

He said and walked away. Breaking my heart in a million little pieces.

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