-"If I could turn back time."-

Benito

One week later, I was booked and busy at the studio. I was recording a new album and therefore I had little to no time for my brothers and for Isabella. She must've felt like I was playing with her since I had cancelled our plans the third night in a row. It was late and I felt stuck on a song - I had a writer's block -, so I decided to distract myself with some social media. Isabella had posted a new picture, which caused a small smile to spread across my face. I wasn't following her but her post was suggested on my page. It showed her, wearing one of my basic black hoodies in a cute pose. She hadn't tagged anyone but the caption made me smile even wider. When he gives you his sweater, it said. The comments were going crazy and of course people were assuming that she had finally found a boyfriend.

For another two weeks, I had to cancel every single time Isabella wanted to come over due to me recording non-stop. When we had finally finished the last song, I felt relieved. Bysael had invited me to a party at the house and I was incredibly late but at least I did show up. There were a lot of people. Other Youtubers, singers and even some actors - all of them were Bysael's friends. As I was making my way through the crowded kitchen to get to the backyard, I spotted Isabella sitting at the dining table with a group of streamers. I only knew them because Bysael had done some projects with them but I hated the way they were laughing with Isabella, so I tried to distract myself with one of the girls my brother had invited. For as long as I was there, it seemed like Isabella hadn't even noticed that I had shown up. Very much to my dislike one of the streamers seemed to flirt with her and it made me mad. His name was Trevor, he was relatively new in the scene but had made himself a name with real life streams. What bothered me wasn't that he was very obviously attracted to her, it was that she seemed to flirt back. Ever since we had started hooking up, I hadn't seen her talk to other men anymore. I frantically tried to concentrate on something else, like for example Tim who was talking to me in that moment but I couldn't help myself and glanced over to them every now and then. Out of spite, I started flirting with that girl, just to get back at Isabella.

Later, when the streamers made their way home, I went to the door with Bysael to say goodbye - I wanted to take the chance to get a moment with Isabella alone. The more I had drunk, the more I had felt the urge to just grab her and smash my lips into hers. Isabella, Bysael and I walked Trevor and his two friends to the door. After she had hugged all three of them, I said my goodbyes as well. Bysael excused himself back to the party, while Isabella closed the door behind the guests.

"Come with me." I whispered towards her, as soon as my brother had walked back into the kitchen. Without saying a word, she grinned and started following me towards the small bathroom in the hallway. As soon as we reached the room, I locked the door behind me. The grin on her face grew even bigger. It wasn't long until I grabbed her and smashed my lips into hers. I knew that the risk of getting caught was high but I was tipsy and I didn't care in that moment.

"You're passionate today." she commented, when I had pushed her against the door pretty aggressively. I didn't answer since I was way too busy with kissing her neck in that moment. At first she let out quiet moans but soon after, she placed her hands on my chest and pushed me away.

"Okay, Benito, what's wrong? That's definitely not just the alcohol." she said. I let go of her neck and looked at her.

"Tell me what that was with Trevor earlier." I demanded.

"What was that with Lily?" she counter questioned. My heart sank into my stomach.

"I like her." I responded and shrugged. She had seen it and it had made her react exactly like I had wanted her to but I wasn't prepared for what she was going to say.

"Are you gonna get into a friendship with benefits with her too?" she questioned.

"Just because I'm flirting with her doesn't mean I'll fuck her!" I gave back shocked. I don't know what came over her to fight with me in that moment, it hadn't been my intention at all to get her this mad but the sheer thought of her with someone else made me irrational.

"I've seen you do it multiple times." she said. I stared at her in shock. Not even a second later, I pushed passed her, opened the door and left the room. My reputation had made her say what she had said but that didn't change the fact that it had hurt me.

Isabella

I will probably never forget the look on his face. It seemed like any kind of joy had left his body, the second those words had come out of my mouth. I had never actually seen him hurt and I regretted being an idiot in that moment.

"Fuck." I mumbled to myself, before I went back to the kitchen. All I could see was how Benito stormed passed Bysael who then called after him. I felt like an absolute fool in that moment.

"What's wrong with Beno?" Bysael asked me. Of course, he had a feeling that it had been me - he still believed we hated each other -, so I just shrugged and acted like I didn't care.

For the rest of the night, I tried to find a moment to go upstairs and call him but Bysael was constantly with me. I hated myself for not being able to control my obvious jealousy. My mood was bad for the rest of the night. I was barely smiling and tried to drown myself in vodka jelly shots to the point where Bysael had to take the alcohol away from me. At around 4am, he brought me upstairs.