My body was cold as ice, something heavy laying on my back. I could feel heavy footsteps fastly approaching me.

"Find her now! I want every stone checked, every roof checked! No one eats, no one sleeps until we find her, got it!!" Gulliver's voice was loud, angry, and full of panic, a loud metal on metal sounded through my ears, "Yes sir!!" And more footsteps sounded off.

I turned my head, cold snow covering my face, I turned to move the rest of my body but a sharp burning pain courses through my body. I sucked in a breath and moved my head again, moving more snow out of my way.

"Captain! She's over here!" Ground trembling steps approached me and strong hands grabbed onto me and pulled me from the mountain of snow that I was buried under, "Milady! There you are! What happened?" Gulliver held me close to his chest, his hand touching the kunai still embedded in my back.

"G-Gunta...Levi. T-they went with Madara Uchiha.." my brain was all fuzzy, my throat dry as the Hidden Sand Village. Gulliver wrapped his hand around the kunai and pulled it out in one swift motion, I groaned in pain clutching his shirt robes.

"This kunai was poisoned. We've been looking for you for almost two days. It doesn't help the snow started to fall heavily, it must have covered you completely before we even made it this far into the castle."

"I've been out that long? Ugh that sneaky rat bastard." My body started to return to me, I moved my legs so I could stand, Gulliver helping me stand straight up and not fall.

"I have to save the twins from Madara." I moved away from Gulliver, taking a step and fell. He picked me back up carrying me bridal style, "First you need to recover from the poison, eat something and shower. You stink." He cracked a smile at me and I glared at him, "I will hurt you, ya know?" He chuckled as he effortlessly carried me.

"I'm not too worried about that Milady." I rolled my eyes at him. I was fine, the poison would work itself out the more my heart pumped blood, but I could tell I wasn't going to get any leeway in getting to walk.

He carried me all the way to my room and demanded that I be served a hot and heavy meal. Gulliver set me down on my bed and told a servant to run me a hot bath that he would return shortly.

"Milady? Your bath is ready." I stood up on wobbly legs and slowly made my way to the bath, a servant helped me into the bath an I immediately relaxed, letting out a sigh.

She cleaned and bandaged the wound on my back. "The poison should be gone now, you will be fine." She patted my shoulder and left me alone in the bathroom.

Everything that had happened ran through my head, how could Gunta and Levi leave with Madara? Which one had stabbed me in the back? Why was Madara even there? I groaned in frustration and rubbed my face with my wet hands.

I needed some advice, I needed someone else's opinion.

'Kakashi?'

Silence. It felt as if I couldn't reach him anymore, our seal was still black, but I couldn't feel anything from him. Not his chakra, not his emotions.

He's locked me out...why?

My heart pounded hard in my chest, why did he lock me out? Was it because I had locked him out while I was talking to the Council? Was it because he read the letters sent to Lady Tsunade?

If that's so he would have confronted me about it... I had preparations to make to for this war, I don't have time to sit here and wallow in relationship problems. I finished my bath and dressed in a black long sleeves shirt, white pants and combat boots. I walked into my room and Gulliver was sitting at the table, the food already spread out waiting for me to eat it. The look on his face was one of anger, betrayal, and also nervousness. He didn't look at me when I sat down, he didn't even move an inch.

I took a bite of my food and stared him down. "Talk." I demanded, but he just flinched at my words.

"Gulliver. Look at me " he lifted his head, a lone tear slipped down his cheek, "There's something I've been keeping from you Milady, and I thinks it's time I tell you..." The grip on the knife in my hand tightened. If he's also working with Madara I will kill him right here and now. I'm sick and tired of being betrayed, that's all that has happened since Sakura found Gunta under the ice.

"What is it?" Our eyes locked onto each other, his breathing had picked up, he had sweat on his brow, his hands tightly made into fists in his lap.

"Gunta and Levi...are..." He took a long deep breath, "Are my sons."

My grip on the knife loosened, my eyes wide in shock. "Gulliver I thought you said-"

He cut me off, "I'm not finished Milady." His eyes shifted to my lower stomach, "The twins mother... The one they never met, is you."

My chest caved in, my whole world crashed around me, a sense of anger shot through me,

Kakashi had heard, he unlocked our seal at the worst of times. But he locked me out again..

I jumped up from my chair, across the table and shoved Gulliver to the floor, holding the knife I had to his throat.

"You're lying!" I growled, tears pooling in my own eyes. He didn't flinch, he didn't shake. "I'm not lying Milady. The day you went back home, and found your clan slaughtered, there was a man there-"

"Orochimaru." I pushed the knife closer to his throat, pricking his skin.

"When he stabbed you," his hand reached up and splayed it over my lower stomach, "He not only took the blood that he needed to help the twins grow, but when he stabbed you he cut through your reproductive organs. Mixed in with the blood he took was a few of your eggs."

My body was shaking, I dropped the knife to the ground. The tears I was trying to hold in poured out of my eyes.

"I was employed to protect Orochimaru. When he returned from your Village, he told me that he had what he needed to make a child of the Yakani clan, to use the power you possess and make another Ice Warrior to control and destroy the Hidden Leaf. He needed a male counterpart, and I willingly obliged."

I was feeling dizzy, I sat down on the floor besides Gulliver, he sat up and sighed heavily, "I watched as the first two fetuses didn't make it past the first 6 weeks, but Gunta and Levi thrived together. I watched them grow bigger and bigger, until it was time for them to be 'born' in a sense. Orochimaru took them from the woman he implanted them in and killed her and refused to let me hold them, I saw them for all about 15 minutes, but a few days later I took them away and ran. I ran to the Hidden Rain Village where I raised them, taught them how to fight, taught them how to use their chakra nature's. Gunta has always been a sensitive child, while Levi was always hot headed. They protected each other like brothers should. But when they were 12 they started asking about their mom, I just told them you were shunned from your Village for having half blooded children and you gave them to me. At 15 they ran away, leaving me a note stating they were going to find you. I never looked for them, I packed up everything I could and came here for work."

This was too much to take in, I had children at 14 years old and didn't even know it. I had children in this world who longed for a mother who wasn't there. I wasn't there.

"Did you know...how old I was at the time?"

"Yes. I knew what you looked like, I knew your name. When I was told I would be protecting the new Queen of the Land Of Snow, it was just a normal everyday job until they told me your name. I watched you walk up those stairs and I instantly fell in love with you, you grew up to be this beautiful strong woman. When I saw all the scars on your body I wanted to kill anyone who hurt you, I wanted to tell you everything right then and there, but then I found out about you and Kakashi Hatake, and I couldn't take away your happiness for my own selfish desires."

I stood up and turned my back to him,
"If we have to face them on the battlefield, and are forced to fight them, could you do it?"

He poundered for a moment before standing up his self. "Yes Milady."

"Good. Now leave. I-I need to think." His footsteps sounded as he opened the door, "Please forgive me...Y/N..." Then he left closing the door.

I dropped to my knees and cried cradling my lower belly, even though I didn't birth the twins, I was still their mother. They was still apart of me, the feelings I have towards them was nothing but paternal, I did want to protect them, but how can I protect them from me if the problem arises? Could I kill them if I had to?

More importantly, had did Kakashi feel about all this? He did lock me back out, and in two days we were to meet for war with the Five Kage and the Allied Shinobi forces.

This war is going to be one hell of a struggle...