Yamato carried me all the way to his apartment and sat me down on his couch.

"I have some left over Curry I can heat up, sound good?" Yamato asked walking to his kitchen. I laid down on his couch, covering my face with my arm. I wasn't really hungry but I don't want to be rude to him, he did just carry my heavy ass all the way here without complaining.

"Yeah sounds good." I sighed softly, Kakashi still loves Rin, that much is true. Maybe I overreacted a bit. No. He was having sex in his sleep with Rin, but was actually having sex with me, he even called me Rin after I slapped him.. I groaned and sat up putting my elbows on my knees, and my face on my hands. I feel disgusting, my skin feels like it's on fire, I need a shower. I got up from the couch and walked into Yamato's kitchen, he was standing by the stove, his head protector was placed on the counter, and his Jonin vest is hanging over one of the kitchen chairs.

Holy shit he's cute. Why haven't I noticed him before?

"H-hey Yamato?" I asked blushing, he turned to face me, his sweet smile plastered on his face.

"Yeah what's up?"

"C-can I umm. Take a shower? And maybe borrow some clothes?" My face burned more, why is asking Yamato for some clothes so damn embarrassing?

He chuckled at me, "Sure come on."

He walked passed me and down the hallway, I quickly followed behind him and stood in his room. His room was completely clean, not a thing out of place, nothing like Kakashi's room. Yamato still lives by the Anbu rules I see.

He opened a few drawers and handed me a grey shirt, and a pair of black baggy shorts. He then blushed and looked around his room.

"I'm sorry about not having uh...girl underwear?"

I giggled and held the clothes close to me, "It's quite alright, even if you did have 'girl underwear' I'd probably think you were weird." He laughed but blushed more.

"Bathroom is the next door down."

I smiled and walked out going to the bathroom and closing the door locking it behind me. I leaned against the door and sighed heavily. I placed the clothes on the toilet lid and opened the curtain to the shower and turned on the water, I let it get hot and began to strip out of my clothes.

I looked in the mirror and traced every purple mark Kakashi left on my collarbones and chest. Tears threatened my eyes again but I blinked them away, I'm tried of crying.

I stepped in the shower and closed the curtain letting the water run down the top of my head and down my body. I closed my eyes and tried to clear my mind, but all that invaded my mind was Kakashi, Rin and Obito.
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Our team was at the training grounds today and everyone was working separately on their own Jutsu.

I was off to the side trying to freeze water in my hand by using my chakra, I've been working on it for the past few hours, and I was going to give up until...

"Ha! I did it!! Kakashi! Obito! Lo-" I turned to show the others but they were huddled around Rin praising her for learning the fire ball Jutsu, they didn't even acknowledge that I called them.

I stood there looking at my frozen ball in my hand and started to shake, they didn't even care, all they cared about was Rin. Rin this and Rin that.

I felt a soft hand on my shoulder and looked up to see Minato Sensei smiling down at me,

"Great Job Y/N! Now since you have that down, try to combine it with the Rasengan."

I smiled brightly up at him and nodded my head.

"Thank you Sensei!" I admired him so much, he was always compassionate and praised us all equally no matter how big or how little we learned.

A few days later we were back training and I was trying to use the frozen water ball and Rasengan together, and I finally did it correctly.

"Frozen Rasengan!" I hit a tree making it splinter off and break. A huge smiled spread across my face that I was actually able to do it, but I heard Rin scream. I turned to her and she was laying on the ground, a piece of bark stabbed into the calf of her leg. Kakashi and Obito were already by her side trying to calm down her cries.

I ran to them, shock written across my face as I saw the blood seeping through her pant leg.

"Rin..i-i'm so-"

"Can it Y/N! You're so reckless! What hell were you thinking?!" Kakashi yelled at me, anger pooling his in pupils.

"I-I didn't mean-"

"You should really watch what you are doing Y/N! You could have killed her!" Obito was just as equally as mad at me.

My chest felt like it was going to cave in, my body shook violently. I backed away and bumped into Minato, he held onto my shoulders and turned me around to face him.

"You okay?" He asked when he saw how horrified I was, tears running down my face.

"Don't worry about her Sensei, Rin is the one whose hurt! It's Y/N fault! This is why nobody likes the Yakani Clan, they are always trying to prove how strong they are."

Obito's words hit me like a ton of bricks in my heart. The air in my lungs seized up and I pushed out of Minato's grasp and ran away as fast I could. Ignoring Minato's calls for me to come back.
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A knock on the bathroom door broke me from my memory, tears were in my eyes and I wiped them away,

"Y-yes?" I answered.

"Food is done whenever you are ready."

"Thank you!"

I heard Yamato walk away and I sighed grabbing his shampoo. I quickly washed up and got out of the shower drying off and getting dressed.

I walked into the kitchen and sat down at the table where a bowl of curry was waiting for me, along with a cup of green tea.

I bowed my head to Yamato and picked up my spoon to eat, as the first taste hit my taste buds I almost cried tears of joy.

"This is so amazing.." I said with the spoon still in my mouth.

Yamato laughed and took his own bite.

"Thank you. I try, but honestly I can't really cook." He blushed and looked down at his bowl.

I smiled and kept eating,

"So I couldn't help but notice that you only have one room...where am I~"

His eyes widened as he looked at me.

"Oh yeah... Umm... Well you can sleep in my room and I can take the couch, or you can sleep on the couch.."

"I couldn't possibly take your bed Yamato, the couch is just fine. Thank you."

We finished eating and I helped him clean the kitchen and sat on his couch facing the living room window, it was raining outside and I felt relaxed as his house was quiet. I felt the couch dip behind me and Yamato clear his throat.

"So you gonna tell me about this boy problem or what?" He asked with an awkward chuckle. I kept looking out the window and sighed.

"Well... Me and Kakashi kinda-well you know." My face was burning with embarrassment.

"Mmm hmm."

"And well we were asleep and, he was doing things in his sleep to me-" I sighed again hugging my knees to my chest.

"Go on."

"And he kept saying...Rin's name, and I slapped him and pushed him off of me, and again he called me Rin. I was so angry and disgusted that I didn't want to hear anything he said. I told him that he hasn't changed that it's always been Rin since the start." I played with a loose thread on his couch

"So I went to walk out of his room and he grabbed my wrist, and out of anger I threw an ice shard at him, I cut his cheek but I didn't care. I went to my room and locked the door, that's when I noticed that my body was being covered on ice, kinda like an armor. So left through the window and went to the K.I.A. monument and kinda broke it.."

"You broke it?"

"Out of everything I just said, that's what you're concerned about?" I asked turning to him irritated.

"I'm sorry. You're right." He looked down and then back up at me. He looked me in my eyes and just stared intently.

"Well anyways thank you Yamato, for everyth-"

Yamato cut me off by pushing me down on my back on the couch and connected his lips to mine in a soft kiss. My eyes widened, but I kissed him back for a second then I softly pushed him back, his face still close to mine.

"Tenzo... I cant-"

Thunder and lightening struck at the same time causing me to yelp and jump head butting Yamato in the process.

"Ow! Son of a bitch!" He held onto his fore head.

"Shit. I'm so sorry! I got scared and and.."

"It's okay Y/N." He laughed it off but then an awkward silence settled between us.

"I'm sorry for kissing you." He sighed.

"No it's okay... It's just I-"

"You like Kakashi, I get it. No hard feelings." He smiled and stood up and opened a closet and handed me a pillow and blanket and told me goodnight.

"By the way. Kakashi does really like you. All he's ever talked about since you've been gone, is you."

I sighed as I laid down on his couch still looking out the window, I'll give it a few days and maybe go meditate to clear my mind, and go talk to Kakashi. As I was closing my eyes I swore I saw a figure standing by the window but when I blinked it was gone.
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It has been three days since that night with Kakashi, Yamato has let me stay at his place and even went shopping for some new clothes for me, even bringing me my own Jonin uniform from Lady Tsunade.

I decided to go to train while Yamato was out, so I changed into a blue shirt and my Jonin pants and went to go train.

When I arrived no one was here which is was good. I stood a few feet from the trees that were used as targets and pulled out my kunai. I steadied my breathing and closed my eyes, I took fighting stance and threw four kunai at a time and each once hit dead center, I smiled and plucked them out and did it again, I did some push ups, and sit ups and I even did some taijutsu on the logs that Minato sensei tied Obito too when we were kids.

9 hours later and I'm a pouring sweat and panting hard as I sat leaned up against the log I beat to death. I caught my breath and stood up facing the log again and that's when I saw it, carved into the log were all our initials.

R.N
K.H.
O.U
__. Y.

I traced the letters thinking about them, how much I missed them but then anger racked throughout my body, ice encased my fist and I punched the log, snapping it in half, I walked to the piece that had our initials and kept punching it, the ice crawling farther up my arms the angrier I got.

"I think you made your point Y/N."

I jerked my body around and standing a few feet away from me was Kakashi, his arms folded over his chest.

I didn't say anything to him, the thoughts from the other night came flooding back into my brain.

"I see you learned something new." He pointed to my hands and arms.

My body shook again, I couldn't control my anger towards him, I lowered my head and got in a fighting stance.

"Fight me Kakashi."

"What?"

"I said fight me!!" I screamed and ran towards him throwing a punch at his face, he easily blocked it and pushed me away.

"I'm not going to fight you Y/N!" He exclaimed and dodged another one of my attacks.

"Do it!" The ice now covering my whole body as I used more chakra in my attacks.

"You need to calm down!" He grabbed my arm and twisted it behind my back, his grip was hard, I could tell he was getting angry.

I slammed the back of my head into his face and he threw me down yelling in pain and holding his face.

"Use your Sharingan, fight me you coward!" I ran and actually landed a hit, hitting him in his stomach. As he fell back I straddled his hips and began throwing punch after punch, landing a few and some he dodged, it's kind of like he wants me to hit him, to take my abuse.

Again. Just like when we were 14...

He finally had enough and hit me hard in my back with his knee, knocking me off of him and sliding in the dirt. I pulled myself up and faced him, his had lifted his headband and had both of his eyes open.

Yes get mad Kakashi

I smiled and charged him again, my punches and kicks were easily dodged by him. But he blind sided me and got me in my ribs with a kick sending me flying back.

"Damn it." I groaned standing up, the ice around my body began to melt away.

No. Damn it!

"Now stop this nonsense. Let's talk." He was breathing hard.

"No." I brought my hands back up and smiled darkly at him, water began to form in my hard and then it froze over as it began to spin and grow in size, Kakashi's eyes widen.

"Oh so you remember this Jutsu huh? Now you wanna pay attention to me Kakashi? Huh?! Now that Rin is dead!" I screamed and ran full speed at him, he quickly brought his Chidori to his hand and got ready to defend himself. Our hands clashed and we fought back and forth with our Jutsus, me trying to hit him, and him trying to defend.

"Now I surprise you?! After everything I did!" I could feel my body began to weaken, my chakra burning out.

"I did everything to get you to notice me! I trained hard, I worked even harder for our team! I protected you, Rin and Obito countless of times! And after all these years I thought you'd actually care about me! I thought you'd start to love me! But I was just second best to Rin, that's why while you were fucking me when you were saying her name!!"

I tried to hit him one last time but he blocked it and kneed me hard in my stomach knocking the wind out of me and I fell to ground, my body giving out on me.

"You were never second best to Rin. You were powerful enough, you didn't need my help. She was weak needed all the help she could get. Yes I loved her, but I loved you too."

My heart pounded in my ears as I got on my hands and knees, catching my breath.

"I thought that if I didn't praise you then you would continue to grow stronger, you would surpass me the more you trained. But Rin, she was so helpless and too gentle. She cared too much about what other people thought, and would cry too easily. You know that."

I did. She cried about everything. She cried when she failed at a Jutsu, she cried if she got hurt, or if someone else got hurt. Hell she would even cry if she dropped something.

"I can't control my dreams Y/N, so yes I was dreaming of Rin the other night, but we weren't having sex in my dream, it was the same nightmare that reoccurs almost every night of me killing her. I felt a body next to me in my sleeping state and I don't know what I was thinking after that.. but that night when we were together, I was finally happy. I loved every damn second of it, I craved you, I needed you. Hell I need you now."

He was pouring his heart out to me and I couldn't even look at him, I did overreact, I said some very unnecessary things to him. I hurt him back because of my jealousy towards Rin.

"I do love you Y/N. You and only you. I always have loved you. Rin is dead and gone, and it's my fault, and I have to live with that for the rest of my life. But this, right here, is real and is happening. It doesn't matter what you say, I'll always have your back, No Matter what."

I felt Kakashi behind me, the front of his body pressed against my back, his hands snaking their way around my waist as he hugged me tightly.

"Say it." He demanded.

"Say what?" I whispered.

"Say you forgive me."

"Kakashi I dont-"

He then shoved his hand down the front of my pants and into my panties, rubbing a finger around my sensitive bundle of nerves, I cried out and bit my lip.

"Say it Y/N."

He was merciless as he pumped two fingers in and out of me, his free hand gripping my breast harshly. I was a moaning mess under his touch.

"I for-forgive-you." I moaned and spread my legs farther apart. He chuckled in my ear and moved his fingers faster.

"Say you love me." His husky voice sent shivers to my core, I couldn't take much more. I did love him, I really did, and damn it, it hurt to love him, but I couldn't stop.

"Say it. Say "I love you Kakashi."

"I-I-I love you Kakashi!" I cried out as I reached my orgasm, my juices dripping down his hand. He smiled against my neck and left loving kisses.

"No matter what?"

"No-No matter what." I panted.

This man is going to be the death of me one day..