To the restless nights we lay awake
To the tears that leave our eyes
To all of our forgetful mistakes
And all our twisted lies

We cry, we love, we learn
As you hold me in your arms
And you leave me to fly
But i keep crawling back to your peaceful ern.

I'm infatuated with your scent
The way you would touch and hold me.
How our hearts were never bent
But my mother would still scold me.

I never want to lose you,
I need to be able to choose.
And I'm almost at the point of giving it up
But i don't think you can see there is no other love

So i think back to the restless nights
Where we would stay up and fight.
I think back to when you were just one call away
But now you're just another face in the crowd.

But then i remember...
I remember how you were the only one,
Who could see through my fake smile.
They only one who knew that i wasn't fine...

Or maybe you were the only one who cared

So i think back to a time and a place
When i still recognized your face   
'Cause now your voice is faded.

And i can't remember a time
where i wasn't waking up screaming and crying, and clawing at my throat because the thought of you just wouldn't let me breathe.

I can't remember a time when i wasn't trying to forget you
And all the pain and suffering you put me through.

I can't remember a time where i wasn't hating myself
Because i just couldn't bring myself to hate you
As much as i should.

I can't remember a time where I wasn't slowly dying
Because your smile would leave me in tears.

I can't remember a time where I wasn't content.
Content with the fact that you were mine and i was yours.
Because no matter how many times i screamed and cried,
You still managed to bring glee to my eyes.