JAKE'S P.O.V.

"This sandwich is hella delicious, man." Nick says as he takes an enormous bite from the sandwich I made him. "Want to be my private cook?"

"Whats in it for me?" I grin. He seems surprised by the question.
"Hmm.. Let's see. you get to live with me, You-"

"Live with you? Hell you better pay me well!" I say impishly and poke his stomach.

"Hey, We'd be amazing roommates, man! he answers. "Don't you think?" His electric eyes burn into mine.

Roommates, hmm? God I wish nothing more than to live with him, but I can't just say that or things will get weird between us. I mean we can't really live together. What would he think when he figures out I never bring a girl home, or that i watch greys an anatomy. No we can't live together.

"Nah there'll be no place with you and all the chicks you bring home." I groan and thrust forward, reenacting a sex scene to prove my point.

"Hey Jakey, I can't help it that I'm so irresistible." He winks at me and licks his lips in a seductively way.

The gesture hits me totally unexpected. I feel myself blushing. I can't let him see that. Oh god what do I do?

"Eh, be right back, pee break." i say hastily as i flee towards the toilet and hide myself in there.

I look in the tiny little mirror on the wall. My cheeks are red and to be honest I kind of feel a boner coming up.

"Ugly grandmas, think about ugly grandmas" I whisper to myself. That always does the trick. Why did I even get a boner? Was it the seductive wink? Nah, 'cause I'm attracted to every inch of him. As long as i can remember. 12 years I think.

I replay the scene in my head. Did he just call me Jakey? He never did that before. I loved it.

"Don't start dreaming Jake, He's as straight as a fish." i say to myself. patting my cheeks. "wake up from this dream. It will never be."

I'm so damn hopeless. I wonder what I would do without Nick. Just thinking he's mine gives me a surge of happines, of pure, intense joy. Imagining his body gives me enough energy to cross the world in a day, and cook him dinner after that, just to see him smile. Oh, that smile.

A random thought pops into my head, as if i received a text message, and it suddenly feels as if it has started to rain on a clear, hot summer day.

"What on earth am I going to do when he finds a girlfriend?"

It's going to hurt like hell for sure. I wouldn't be able to hide the jealousy. He's mine, even though he doesn't know that.

There's no life without my sun.

I look at myself in the mirror and give myself an encouraging smile, but my sad, brown eyes tell a different story.

A story of boundless love unreturned.

I check myself out in the mirror one last time and flush the toilet to give the impression i really went to pee.

"God Jake, I thought you died in there. Is anything wrong?" He gives me a concerned look, and something flickers in his eyes,  but when he realises it he straightens his face again and lowers his voice a bit.

"I'm fine, bro, just not feeling so well. Guess it's the sandwich. Aren't you feeling bad?" I lie and go sit down next to him.

"No man, your sandwich was delish!" he cocks his head a bit. "You know, bro, i'll go home, you get back into bed, it's not like we have to worry about school." he puts his hand on my shoulder, sending a tingling feeling through it, like a surge of electricity i shiver a bit.

"I appreciate that, Nick, we're best buddies for a reason." i bring out with a soft voice.  "

"Tommorow's  Britney's sweet sixteen, right? Are you going too?" I supress the desire to move closer to him. It's clearly visible that I'm struggling.

"Yeah, I'd pick you up at 9 PM." He says. "Now get back to bed, you're a bit pale."

His sudden concern for me makes me feel very loved. If only he really loved me.

I started to stand up when i feel his strong, rough, hand grabbing my slender wrist.

He pulls me in closer and pulls me into his muscled chest. His embrace was warm, and his big, strong arms seemed very protective when wrapped around my body. The world around me melted away as I squeezed him back, not wanting the moment to ever end.