Her body was numb.

Just an Average Girl,

Her limbs limp.

She Always wore a smile,

Her blue eyes dull and lifeless.

She was cheerful and happy for a short while,

Her Blonde hair spilled down, her pigtails no longer in use.

Now she's older, things are getting colder,

Her bandages unwinding, showing the ragged scars that danced across her cold arms.

Life's not what she thought, she wished someone had told her,

Her pale face, pale and emotionless.

She told you she was down, you let it slip by,

In her shadow, Blood dripped down.

So from then on she kept it on the inside,

In her now limb hands, was a sharp, now ice-cold knife.

She told herself she was alright,

Behind her, a chair, one of which had fallen.

But she was telling white lies,

Around her neck, Was a rope.

Can't you tell? Look at her dull eyes,

On the table in front of her was a note.

Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night,

The note stated.

But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright,

'I know I am facing death,'

Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves,

'I am sorry if I made you cry,'

'Cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see,

'This new world has no need for killers,'

She knew she was depressed, didn't want to admit it,

'I have sinned, I cannot go on living,'

Didn't think she fit it, everyone seemed to miss it,

'I have sacrificed others, for what I believed was the right thing,'

She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound,

'I was wrong.'

Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed,

'I killed children, for no true purpose,'

She had no friends at school, all alone she sat,

'Don't be sad,'

And if someone were to notice she would blame the cat,

'I don't deserve to live any longer,'

But those cuts on her wrist, they were no mistake,

'I am a killer.'

But no one cared enough to save her from this self hate,

'I am the person who helped bring darkness into this world.'

Things were going down, never really up,

'If I couldn't get rid of the others,'

And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut,

'I'll just get rid of myself.'

She knew exactly what she had to do next,

'I tried for months,'

Just stand on that chair and tie the rope around her neck,

'And months,'

She wrote a letter with her hand shaking wild,

'And months,'

"Look at me now, are you proud of your precious child?"

'Until, I couldn't keep going...'

But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame,

'My time is running out,'

It was the world that should bow down its head in shame,

'I am sorry,'

She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon,

'This isn't your fault,'

Just don't think, it'll all be over soon,

'It is mine.'

The chair fell down as she took her final breath,

'My fault that Anna and Eren died.'

It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting death,

'My fault we're running out of food.'

Her Mom walks in, she falls down to the floor,

'My fault the light is fading.'

And now nothing can take back what she just saw,

'My fault people are starving.'

The little girl that she raised is just hanging there,

'My fault people are fighting.'

Her body's pale and her face is violently bare,

'My fault my parents are dead.'

She sees the note and unfolds it with care,

'My fault the air is going to some useless cause.'

All she does is stare, "How can this be fair?"

'My fault food was being wasted.'

She starts reading as the tears roll down her face,

'My fault space was being used up.'

"I'm sorry Mom but this world is just not my place,

'My fault the water is taking up the land.'

I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in,

'The reason being,'

I've come to realise this world's full of sin,

'I was the reason.'

There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space,

'I am running out of paper,'

I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race,

'Just grant me this one last wish,'

It's a disgrace, I was misplaced,

'My last, My final wish,'

Born in the wrong time, and in the wrong place,

'My last request,'

It's Okay though, 'cause you'll see me soon,

'Before Death,'

You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon,

'Look after everyone,'

And As it shines bright, throughout the night,

'All the people I never could help,'

And remember everyone's facing their own fight,

'To Lexie and Lana; Help the Helpless,'

But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter,

'To Maia; Keep the innocent ones safe,'

You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter,

'To Sam; Protect everyone from the darkness that consumed me,'

So let the world know, that I died in vain,

'To Jude; Keep going, Don't let the darkness consume you like it did me,'

Because the world around me, is the one to blame,

'And lastly,'

And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone,

'To James, My Best-Friend; Don't let anything hurt you,'

'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on,

'Even me,'

That's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school,

'I never thought I would write this,'

So I'm going by the law majority rules,

'To Adrian; Thank you,'

My presence on this earth is not needed any longer,

'For making it so that I gave up my life,'

And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger,

'Thank you to everyone,'

You're the best friend, that I ever had,

'And I am sorry,'

Such a shame I had to make you so very sad,

'For making you waste your time,'

But just remember that you meant everything to me,

'Truly sorry,'

And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key,

'For all the pain I have caused.'

Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write,

'Nobody will even read this,'

And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight,

'But, I will finish this letter.'

I'm watching over you, from the clouds above,

And sending down the purest and whitest dove,

To watch over you, and be my helpful eye,

'So this is it, world, goodbye.'

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First Death of the FAYZ; Namaki-Hikari

Cause of Death: Suicide.