Recently, I've been having bad luck even though I'm supposed to have good luck according to my horoscope?

(am I really an Aries?)

Bad things have been happening these few weeks.

But that's not the main point of this haha...

My piano skills have become worse and I'm losing motivation.

I can't play like I used to...uneven notes and a lot of mistakes.

And with the string of unlucky events happening lately, it just makes me feel worse.

Like "oh you can't even do a simple thing", "how did you get those results before"

Those thoughts swarmed my mind and I started to think that playing the piano was a chore. Really hope I can get my act together soon...

Furthermore, my father wants me to learn this song to play at my cousin's birthday party. Feel like he's trying to show off and I hate it. Showing off is something I hate because it makes me feel that my father doesn't care for me? (It's probably not the case...sorry for sounding like a b*j)

It gives me more stress and piano shouldn't be like that. It's a way for me to express myself and forget about whatever's troubling me but no. My father had to pressure me into learning this song in 2 weeks.

Yes, it's my fault for procrastinating half the time. Should've been serious about it from the start.

Oh and another thing that kind of placed a bit of stress on me was the fact that he kept saying things like "so many mistakes how are you going to play this on your cousin's birthday party?" And "you can just stop learning it because you're not going to be able to play it in time anyway".

He had a good reason for asking me to play famous pieces but that's not really what I like? I like to play songs I actually listen to...

Being very selfish and a b*j sorry...

Edit (26/10/17):
Wow i made it sound very bad...it's not that bad please don't misunderstand ;;