I was thankful for starting my new full time job. It kept me away from home. Things had been awkward since that week. The week that Changhyun had confessed to me, I almost kissed Kevin without consent and I learned that I wasn't just feeling a "one time thing" with Changhyun. I let my forehead collide with my desk as Changhyun had decided to stay home on his day off and Kevin hardly went out without me. I wanted to move.

I walked down the hall then bumped into something. I looked and saw it was one of my cubicle mates.

"Hello, Youngwoong." I said politely as I picked up a paper he had dropped.

"No need to be formal. Were only a year apart, so I'll let it go." he said with a smile.

"If that's what you want." I replied with a smile.

I walked back to our desks with him as we talked about his things were going in our lives. Naturally I left out the part about Kevin being a fairy.

"You still have talked to them?" he asked as he kept his eyes on his computer.

"I don't know what to do. I feel the same way about both. And usually they say if you love the second person then you never loved the first. But I do love him." I said in frustration.

"Maybe ask them how they feel about a polyamorous relationship?" he replied.

"That's a hassle. Changhyun already dislikes Kevin, remember? There's no way he'd agree to it. And if he does, he'd want the most attention." I explained as I knew Changhyun's personality.

"Then let your feelings fade. All this is causing you unnecessary stress. Just focus on working and bettering yourself." said Youngwoong as he patted my back before rolling back to his spot.

I decided to take his advice and not think of it anymore, though Changhyun did deserve a response.

"I'm going to give Changhyun an answer." I said before immersing myself into work.

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I sat across from Changhyun who finished off his cookie. It was time to speak up. I had stayed quiet for too long.

"Changhyun, hear me out before you say anything. Okay?" I said then held up my hand.

He shook it then sat back and waited.

"I feel the same about you, but recently I started feeling love for someone else. Knowing you, you wouldn't be open to the idea of a polyamorous relationship. So, until I properly sort things out, I can't be with you." I explained as I tried to hide my nervousness.

Changhyun leaned forward then clicked his tongue.

"Who is it?" he asked.

"Why?" I responded, fearful of what he was plotting.

"Just wanna know who my competition is. They should know that I've had my eye on you for almost a year now. They don't know you like I do." Changhyun said as he held my hands. "What about this person attracts you?"

"That's all I wanted to tell you. Let's just go home. Kevin might be looking for us." I said trying to avoid the subject.

"I'll find out. And when I do, I'm going to let them know they have no chance." he said with a chuckle.

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I entered my room and as usual, Kevin wasn't on my bed. I flopped down onto my bed then groaned. I prayed to the heavens above for just one single day something or someone would help me sort my feelings. I heard someone knock and I mumbled for them to enter.

"Jacob?" I heard a familiar voice say.

"Kevin, you're home. Where did you go?" I asked as he didn't usually go out alone.

"Work!" he said before turning to leave.

"Wait... when did you get a new job?" I asked now curious.

"Yes." he said then walked to the living room.

I frowned as I didn't get an answer that I wanted. I decided to try again later as he was probably had things to do. I missed the days when things weren't awkward. Why did everything have to come out in the open now of all times? I didn't even know how much longer Kevin planned to stay as now he has a job, meaning he could one day afford his own place.

I slid out of bed and headed to the living room where Kevin had claimed it as his area.

"Kevin, wanna go for a walk?" I asked hoping he'd agree.

"I'm not dog." he said then pursed his lips.

"I didn't mean it like that. I'm asking if you want to walk around with me." I explained.

He was silent for a bit then gave me a nod. I internally sighed in relief as I had wanted to talk to him without Changhyun present.

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We walked in silence until I had decided to finally speak up.

"Are you planning to live somewhere else?" I asked as him suddenly having a job obviously means something.

"Yes. I want to learn more about Jacob's world and show him I evolved." Kevin said with his hands clasped behind his back.

"You already have so much..." I said in my head. I couldn't voice it. I had already fucked up before.

"I want him to be proud of me..." he said quietly while looking down at the ground.

Seeing Kevin getting sentimental about someone who wasn't me hurt, but I couldn't get upset because I knew from the beginning that the Jacob he cares for probably wasn't me. I wanted it to be me. I wanted Kevin to want me the way I wanted him.

"Jacob." called out Kevin.

"Yeah?" I said a bit nervous.

"I think... I found Jacob." he said with a small smile.

It hurt. It was the kind of thing you see coming a mile away and despite knowing and being prepared, it still hurt. I faked a smile as we continued to walk down the block.

"Have you? That's great. When can I meet him?" I asked, hoping to see who the forgetful person was.

"Come by park down by downtown area." he said then asked for my phone.

I gave it to him and he typed down the name of it and handed it back. It was a place I was vaguely familiar with and hadn't really gone through before. I was ready to meet this Jacob, the one that captured Kevin's heart.