The screams is what woke me up, and it all felt like slow motion. When I was aware she was having a nightmare, I heard,"Brendon, please don't." Over, and over again. I shook her awake, leading to her hands clasping around my wrist and then rolling off the bed. "Nirvana are you okay?" I ask as I jump off the bed. "It's Brendon, I won't hurt you. I promise." When she fell she brought the pillow down with her. She hugged it and started crying. I tried to pick her up but refused by screaming,"Get off of me." I stepped back away from her crying figure."Nirvana what ever happened in that dream wasn't real. I won't hurt you I promise." She lifts her head up,"I want to sleep in my room tonight. Please." She stands up, and following her is our cat Peanut. It's been more attached to her than me surprisingly. But, I let them go.

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Our morning of breakfast and toast, along with the cat who loved the couch better than it's bed, was silent. She explained that she dreamt about the night with the police officers again. But this time, I was one, and I was the only one there. I did things to her she didn't understand. She didn't like it, and said it felt real. That's why she didn't want me to touch her. With the continuation of silence she said,"Kiss me." While leaning against the counter by the sink where I was washing dishes. I look at her weirdly, then kiss her on the cheek."No not like that. I need you to really  kiss me." Again I give her a weird look. "I want to know the difference  between that dream, and something real." I dry my hands off, and face her. "Nirvana have you ever kissed someone before?" She shakes her head and lowers it. "Why would you want  me to be your first?" She lifts her head while biting her lip, "You love me right?" I smile and nod. "Then what would be holding me back from it?" Her bright eyes, and uptight posture kept me from smashing my lips to hers in that minute.

But she looked up to me and said,"So are you going to kiss me or not?" While biting her lip. I push her hair behind her ear, and place a kiss on her forehead."I know you are scared that it will happen. I highly doubt it will, but I want your first kiss to be special. If it- if it comes back tonight, and you are desperately needing it I'll do it. Don't be mad at me, please. I love you I promise." The look in her eyes was filled with confusion, sadness, and probably hatred. She gave a slight nod, and then ran off to her room. What am I going to do with her.

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When I answered the knock on my door, I wasn't expecting the grey haired man with blue eyes to be there. "Presuming what happened last year was too harsh. And what I mean too harsh as in we had the wrong Rose. We would like to apologize to you Mr.Urie and Miss.Rose for what had happened last year for your disturbance." I was about to respond until I heard a voice,"Brendon why is he here?" I look back at her figure hiding behind the wall."You said it wouldn't become real." I shake my head, and before I know it she runs back into her room. "Sir, I know you meant good in this, but I need to help her. Have a good day." And I close the door, leaving a loud bang as I run into her bedroom. She was curled up on the bed, so I layer right beside her and let her body curl up to me, and I reassured her that it wasn't happening.

She then fell asleep on the bed after the scare of the man from the S.W.A.T. team. But, then it got worse."Nirvana, its okay. It's not real." I smooth back her hair behind her ear, and place my forehead on hers. The dream was worse tonight. She's getting worse. "I need you." She says. I bite my lip and respond with, "I'm right here. I'll always be right here." She stutters out a no. "I know. But I mean, I need  you." She decides to rub her thumb over my cheek for a few seconds before I hear her say, "Are you going to kiss me or not?" With wide eyes, leaving me to give my self the courage to finally kiss her. Maybe it was the innocence in her eyes that was begging for help. Maybe it was the small part of me that taken over that wanted to do that the day I started falling for her.

The kiss was innocent. She was innocent. It was all innocent. I don't even think she realized that her hands were on my chest. "I love you Nirvana." She brushed her finger over my lip, something she's never done before. "I love you too."

A/N

I've actually had this done for a while, but i was going to publish it when it had over a thousand words but i got to eight hundred and sixty something and I gave up. Anticipation for suprise am i right? Hope you guys like this, and sorry for the really slow updates. Hope you guys have a good week, and kick some ass if you need too!~Nelly_thefangirl