Never have I ever been so amazed. I have never seen a bus this big in my life and i'll be living in it for two months. This is so cool! Nirvana seems amazed too. When we all decided to choose our bunks it was just enough for the other three guys in the band, and one bunk for me and Nirvana. Pete won't be coming because he has his own band he has to be dealing with. This will be very different. Going from a quiet apartment to a tiny loud bus will be very different. Especially to Nirvana who has been barley around more than four humans in a room at once.

Four guys and her being the only girl is hopefully not going to be very problematic. There is also more workers like security guards, the stage manager, and etc. will be along with us.  But that won't matter because tons of people will be surrounding us. Trying to get our autographs or wants to hug us or something. But Nirvana has never been around that. She's never got that. Attention is something she's never gotten and if she has it was from me in the past couple of months. Even that made her nervous. What about a couple hundred or a thousand people.

How will she react to that? How will people react to her? They don't even know she exists, so they'll find a way  to get to her out of hate or love. It scares me. It scares me more than it probably scares her but I don't think she realizes what she's up for. Two hours of sitting in a chair, watching me and the guys prance around stage while tons of people are moving around her so everything will be alright. She won't know what to do. She's changed but I don't think she's changed enough to handle this. This might just make it worse.

We've have been on the bus for a while now and not once has she left my side. Not even to use the bathroom. Even Ryan went to the bathroom twice and he has a strong blatter.We aren't even taking up the whole chair. There is room for two more people but there is also another couch. They're right across from each other, and that's the only seating. Well besides the mini table in the super tiny kitchen that is literally three cabinets and a refrigerator.

The other three guys are either in there bunks, the other couch, or the table and it's surprisingly quiet minus the box tv in the wall. My phone goes off making Nirvana Jump and Spencer just gives me a glance. And of course when I answer it's Pete."How has been the first couple of hours together. Any fights I missed?" I chuckled out of irony considering no one has barley even moved."My phone ringing has probably the loudest sound that's happened in a while." And then of course he asks for Ryan."Ryan, Pete wants you!" I hear a grown and some foot steps. He grabs it out if my hand quickly and disappears out of the room to who knows where.

I feel a soft tap on my shoulder. I look at Nirvana who is giving a questionable look."Are you performing tonight?" I bite my lip. I don't even know. I shrug and sink down into the couch. I don't even want to think about performing right now. Because that means trying to figure out how to get her inside the building with out being noticed. Her sitting all alone for two hours. I don't really want to think about that. That's two hours I won't be with her. A two hour span where I can't do anything if she goes into a panic attack.

I will be wearing an ear piece where i can hear things from everyone in the band and stuff so atleast i have that. But, it would take a good ten minutes to calm her down, and maybe another five to get her to let me go. I'm the only one who knows her the best to calm her down. I'm the closest thing to home she's got. And i don't mind that. I kiss her head and hold her closer, like it's all I have left. It's what it feels like, but in reality I have so much more. "I love you." I whisper. She smiles and moves her head from my shoulder to my chest."I love you too." I can basically feel an eye roll from Ryan.

He isn't very fond of Nirvana being here but at least he understands why. I mean I can't just leave her in my apartment. She would have no way of getting food after it was all gone in the refrigerator. Or even a way for some one to remind her that she needs to eat. And her being alone for that long would just end up with her curled up in the corner or laying in one of our beds. She had been alone for so long on the streets that I wouldn't want to put her through that.

The bus stops. I'm to lazy to look outside to see why, but it could just be a stoplight. But it must not be a stoplight considering I heard the doors open. A man walks in with a black t-shirt and camouflage shorts on. "Grab the things you need for tonight. We need to hurry out the door before a bunch fourteen year olds start jumping all over you. Oh and my name is Zach." I stand up, bringing Nirvana with me. She grabs her sandals she wore to my brothers wedding, and puts them on quickly. The boys grab another pair of clothes and maybe some shoes. I do the same but put them in a draw string bag. Placing it on my back, I grab Nirvanas hand so I can protect her against the people.

Ton's of people scream once the security guard exits and we exit. Of course there are tons of 'I love you's ' to random members of the band. Our names being screamed and some people singing one of our songs loudly. I wave a little as I pull Nirvana closer so I defiantly know something won't happen. They all push against the metal gates, trying to get as close to us as they can. This is something I will never be used to. Well maybe in a few years. But, certainly not now. The long walk, while being trapped in a sea of fans, is really hectic. She removes her hand from my hand and wraps her arms around my body, becoming even more closer.

Our entrance door opens for us, courtesy of Zach, and she lets go and slips down a near by wall. "Hey, it's fine. We are away from them now. No more yelling and screaming." She nods and breathes slowly then quickly grabs me to stand up. So now all I have is to wait for the performance and hope nothing goes wrong.

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Well look at that I actually updated! HAPPY NEW YEARS EVEN THOUGH THIS IS LIKE FOURTEEN DAYS LATE. Hoped you guys liked it, and I will update soon!~Nelly_thefangirl