Kai sat in one of the chairs outside the new monastery, his back straight and one leg swinging up and down. His eyes moved between the door and Garmadon, who sat across from him, reflecting his concern.

- I don't need to be here - Kai declared, frowning at Garmadon - I can take care of myself -

Garmadon sighed, '' Kai, you've spent the last two weeks following Lloyd like some kind of shadow behind his back, and looking at your face I can see that you haven't slept well for a long time, and just yesterday you tried to get Wu to give you some exercise exercises. training for several days, without even telling the others - he leaned back in the chair and rested his arms on his lap - We are all worried about you, Wu and me too. But we want to help you, but we will not be able to do it if you do not put something on your part in all this -

- Stop it! - Kai snapped, now putting his feet firmly on the ground - I don't need any help right ?! And I don't need everyone to worry about me! -

- Why don't you want help? Garmadon asked, keeping his voice soft.

Kai groaned, lowering his arms - Because I'm fine! Agree? All of this is normal for me and it's okay! -

Garmadon raised an eyebrow - Normal? -

- Yes! - Kai yelled - This is all the norm for me! I've never slept so much! I've always been like this, so it's okay! -

- For how long? Garmadon asked, relieved that he was finally getting somewhere.

Kai stopped and looked at Garmadon as he thought. How long had it been since he'd felt this way? How long had it been since he'd slept through a night? - Since ... - he sat back in his chair - Since my parents left -

He looked up, catching Garmadon's understanding expression, and frowned. "Look, I know you didn't want to leave, okay?" -

- I know, after all, I knew them very well. And even the odd - Garmadon answered, looking at the memories of his old memory from when I was rather young.

- I know they loved us and something bad must have happened to them, but they still left. It was just Nya and me, and we grew up together. And I had to tell my sister that they had died just so she wouldn't ask me any questions about them, or at least try to get her to find them who knows where. I took care of Nya, I took care of our store, I took care of myself and I did a good job, yes ?! - She paused and looked at her hands - I mean, I know that we are no longer in the store, and that she no longer needs so much from me ... but still I did everything in my power to be able to support us! - He stepped back a little when looking at Garmadon - And I kept taking care of myself, I have trained hard, I have protected my friends, I have protected Lloyd many times, I did it all by myself and I'm still fine! -

- How have you been taking care of yourself? Garmadon asked, his expression neutral.

"I ..." Kai paused, thinking. How did you take care of yourself? - I train hard every day, I have helped Nya with her projects, Zane with her cooking, Cole with his activities and Jay with his inventions. I've even helped Lloyd sleep every night so he doesn't have some fucking nightmare haunting him, I make sure everyone is okay, and nothing hurts them -

- Kai, what have you done for yourself recently? -

- That? -

Garmadon sighed - You have told me that you help others with their things and in some hobbies, you have said that you train hard every day, but what do you do for yourself? - Then I take a long breath - Do you have a hobby, an activity that you like to do, just for you? -

Kai frowned, clearly confused - I'm just training, just that and that's it -

Garmadon shook his head - No, Kai, training is not a hobby, it is not a normal activity that you do for yourself - What things do you do for yourself? -

"I ... I ..." Kai hesitated, unsure of what to say. Was the training not enough? Made it stronger, made it faster. Wasn't helping others good enough? Wasn't he ... good enough?

- Kai - Garmadon said, breaking the thoughts of the chestnut dressed in red - It is admirable how much work you put in to help others, how much commitment you have for your training, it shows how selfless you are, how good you are - he paused. Leaning forward in his chair - But it is important that you dedicate time to yourself, to something you want to do, not something you have to do -

Kai looked away - There is nothing I want to do - he murmured - I shouldn't spend my time with myself, not when others need me -

- What makes you think that? - Garmadon asked - In all the time you've been here, have you never done anything for yourself? Also, others would like you to really take a break for yourself -

Kai looked down at his hands, clenching and relaxing his fists, trying to find some meaning in his confused thoughts. He didn't understand why Garmadon was so insistent that he do something for himself, that was selfish, to think of himself like that. It was selfish to do something for himself when he could help someone else, when he could train to be even better, to be able to protect others - I can't do things for myself, okay? - Kai snapped - I would give my life for this team if it meant they would be safe! And I won't stop training or helping them just to do something for myself, because I'm not selfish! -

"Kai ... you don't need to die for everyone to be okay," Garmadon replied, hoping to calm him down.

- Zane did it - Kai snapped, sinking into that sad memory again - Zane faced the Overlord all alone and exploded while I was there and did nothing! - He squeezed his leg with his hand with some force, trying to distract himself from the tragic memory - He died because I couldn't protect him! -

"Zane died because he was protecting you and the others, all of Ninjago," Garmadon said softly.

- Well, it was stupid of him! - Kai snapped, standing up again - I'm supposed to protect him, I'm supposed to protect everyone! I'm supposed to ... - he stopped, his tears began to appear in his eyes. He took a deep breath and sank into his chair. Now that you think about it, his words towards what he said about Zane began to affect him a lot, it seemed as if a sword was piercing his heart when he insulted his nindroid friend. pie - I don't want to talk about this anymore -

- I'm sorry, Kai, but not yet - Garmadon said, standing up too and walking towards Kai - I know you don't want to talk about this anymore, and I understand. But sooner or later you will need to talk about all this -

He shook his head - No, I do not want to - he murmured, blinking the tears that tried to fall - It is not important what happens to me or what I think, and I do not want to talk about this -

- Your thoughts are always important Kai, because they are yours - Garmadon replied - They may not be pleasant, they may and they scare you when you say them, but they are important, even for others -

- No, they are not! - Kai argued, wiping his face with his arms, frustrated by the tears that fell down his face - They don't matter anyway! -

Garmadon put a hand on Kai's shoulder - They matter just like you, and I'll do everything I can to help you solve them -

Kai looked at Garmadon, studying his expression, so desperately wanting to say yes, but still hesitating.

- I promise you Kai, you are not alone -

"I- I ..." Kai hesitated. "I'm scared," he finally said, his voice barely audible.

Garmadon approached and wrapped Kai in a comforting hug - It is normal to fear fear Kai, I will be here every step of the way that you and the others give - he released Kai from the hug, keeping his hands on Kai's shoulders - We can Do this, I know you can do this, okay? Just have faith and trust in yourself. I would not like you to have to repeat some mistakes that I made. And I'm very happy that you helped Lloyd not to follow in my footsteps -

Kai nodded and smiled a little - I wasn't the only one helping him on his way. But I don't even know if I'm taking a good path now -

- I know it will be hard times, Kai. But Wu and I would like all of you to take a straight path to the end -

After saying that, Garmadon and Kai looked towards the outskirts of the monastery while looking at the stars. Waiting for the future unless a little more brighter for everyone.