After a couple days things mostly quieted down. Rin had gone back to Sousuke and I went back to taking care of Haru. The way we went on, it was if nothing had ever happened. I didn't want to forget about what happened with Rin. I think there had always been something between us but we were too occupied with other people to see it. But that night I saw Rin, I just couldn't resist him. I wanted him. He was energetic, passionate, openminded... he was everything Haru wasn't. I think I needed Rin more than anything.

After being with Rin, things with Haru just got harder. I had always been used to taking care of him but after Rin, things just seemed to bother me more. Haru had always been indifferent, so why did it only bother me now?

The sun was beginning to set after our last swim practice. I had stayed at the school after the others had left, I just didn't want to walk home with them right then. Especially not Haru. I give Haru everything and he always takes it for granted and expects me to always be there. That was why I found myself standing on the roof of our school.

I heard footsteps behind me, probably just Miss Amakata telling me that I need to leave. When I turned around, I was surprised to see Rin walking toward me. I took a step forward, "Rin?"

"I... I wanted to give you back... that shirt you lent me..." Rin stammered, "Nagisa said you'd be up here..."

We looked into each other's eyes and everything seemed to change. I took a few steps forward and Rin ran the rest of the distance between us and threw himself into my arms. I wrapped my arms around him, pulling him closer. I so wanted to say how I missed having him in my embrace but my mouth seemed to be completely dry. We stood like that together for a long moment. I ran my hand through his hair, leaning my cheek against the top of his head.

Rin pulled back just enough to lean up to me and press his lips to mine. I kissed him back gently, relishing his soft touch. His tongue found its way into my mouth and I moved my tongue across his, remembering his taste. In that moment I realized how much I had longed to taste him again. We turned so Rin was leaning against the railing. My hands trailed along his back as he locked his legs around my hips.

I kissed along his jaw and neck as my hand slid down his back to go inside his pants. He began to pant and make the sweetest sounds as I pushed my fingers in. He grabbed my back harder as I moved my fingers back and forth. My other hand teased off his pants. His own hands moved to my chest and slid down to unbuckle my pants. He put his hand around me and I moaned slightly as I kissed his shoulder. I moved my spare hand to rest over his, gently pressing him closer to me.

After a moment, I lifted Rin to sit a little closer to me. He wrapped his legs around my waist as I went inside him. We moved and breathed together. I leaned my forehead against his as I moved, my eyes squeezed shut. Rin gently put his hands on my cheeks, he whispered, "I want to see your eyes."

I slowly opened my eyes and looked right into his ruby ones. We held each other's gaze for the rest of our movements. Even after we were done, we stayed like that for a long moment, just taking in one another. I didn't want that moment to ever end. But it did.

Rin leaned up to kiss me as I pulled out. I buckled my pants and picked Rin's up off the ground. He took them as I handed them to him. For a moment, my hand lingered in the air, outstretched.

Once we were all ready, we walked out of Iwatobi High together. Without saying anything, Rin walked with me as I walked home. When we reached the last set of stairs before my house, I stopped. Rin stopped next to me and reached into his school bag. He fished out the gray shirt that I had leant to him. He handed it to me and said, "Here. Before I forget."

"Thanks," my hand barely closed around the shirt as I took it from Rin.

He just smiled, "I should probably go."

He turned to go but I had to stop him. I had to say something. I choked out, "Rin..."

Rin stopped and looked at me. He was waiting for me to say something else but the three words I wanted to say stuck in my throat. They were the only words I could come up with to convey what he meant to me and I couldn't say them. A part of me knew that if I did say it, things could never be remotely the same. They would bring us closer together or destroy what friendship we have left. In the end all I could do was stand there with my mouth hanging slightly open.

Rin just smiled and ran a hand along my arm. The gesture was small and quick but that was all it took for me to realize that he felt similarly to how I did. He turned his back and walked away. All I could do was watch him go. I knew we had something but I had no idea what we would do about it. I'd made up my mind about Haru but what would Rin do about Sousuke? I knew that he loved him too, and I knew that it wasn't fair of me to ask Rin to love only me.